Fell
Rose Polenzani Lyrics

You can laugh all you want to,
I am not concerned with other people's opinions of me.

I don't care.
I am confident in my own beliefs and decisions.

Only one thing matters to me
There is only one thing that is important to me.

and it isn't here.
But it is not present in my current situation.

Like a happy, go-easy girl,
I used to be carefree and naive.

I should've waited for those railing bells.
I should have waited for a sign, a warning before things fell apart.

They were only the rattling about
But what I heard were just noises and not what I needed.

of my ruined shell.
My situation was already hopeless and beyond repair.

what do I know about love?
I am inexperienced and clueless about love.

I never could show myself.
I could never truly be vulnerable and show my true self to others.

I lay down my cloud hung hopes
I let go of my dreams and aspirations for a better life.

wherever the first ones fell.
Whenever I faced the first obstacle, I gave up.

I lit up to the tower
I sought refuge in a high place.

when you were last asleep.
While you were unaware of my struggles.

With the pigeons and cobwebs to cover,
I was alone among the birds and dust.

I kept my peace.
I tried to remain calm despite my inner turmoil.

But this terrible aching was rumbling
But the pain inside was too much to bear.

through the stone floors.
It was a physical sensation that shook everything around me.

And I set out to howling,
I cried out for help.

RESCUE ME!
I desperately needed someone to save me.

Stammer away,
I am okay with not being perfect in my speech.

penny brigade,
I am not ashamed of being poor and struggling financially.

Hell sunk and fretless
I feel lost and aimless.

and dancing.
But I still find joy in life and try to celebrate the little things.

I played all my fears
I let my fears consume me.

into alchemy's ears
I shared my fears with someone who could understand and help me transform them.

and she's deaf to my
But even that person could not help me completely.

every asking.
They were unable to answer all of my questions and solve all of my problems.

Take this saturn-soft flesh,
My body is weak and vulnerable.

that I have smoothed over.
But I have tried to make it look presentable and acceptable to others.

Give it all up to gravel and grease
I am willing to work hard and sacrifice for a better life.

and hard labor.
I know that success does not come easily, and I am willing to put in the effort to achieve it.

There were lovers who shone over me
There were people who loved me deeply and made me feel special.

like to shame the very sun,
They made me feel as if I were the center of the universe.

but the thieves who would spit on my breast
But those who mistreated me and took advantage of me left the deepest scars.

were the generous ones.
They made me feel as if I owed them something.