Alcohol you
Roxen Lyrics

The sun is rising ink
The dawn brings forth a sense of gloom for me, making it difficult to even blink my eyes.

For me it's hard to blink
My sorrow weighs so heavily on me that even the simple act of closing my eyes feels difficult.

I'm falling
I am succumbing to the pain and sadness that consumes my being.

I wrote some stupid words
I expressed my emotions recklessly and carelessly, without considering their impact on you.

Before I lost my mind
Before my emotions overwhelmed me and took control of my actions.

And called you
And reached out to you, hoping you could help me ease my pain.

A taste of bittersweet
A mixture of emotions that are both pleasurable and painful at the same time.

To chase the memories
In an attempt to relive happier times and forget the pain of the present.

Blue heaven
A place of sadness and despair, where the sky is always grey and melancholic.

I need you but it hurts
I cannot exist without you, but my constant longing for you only worsens my pain.

To feel like I deserve
I strive to feel like I am worthy of your love and affection, but it only adds to the agony.

Your weapons
The power you hold over me and my emotions.

Why do fairy tales fail baby
Why is the idea of love and happiness often unattainable and unrealistic, even when we believe in it so strongly?

Mumbling in the dark to save me
Whispering desperate pleas into the darkness, hoping for someone to rescue me from my pain.

Love you from the bottom of my
I love you with every fiber of my being, even though it only seems to bring me more pain.

I'll "cohol" you when I'm drunk
I'll drink to you when I'm intoxicated, using alcohol as a temporary escape from my reality.

I do it 'cause you're not around
I drink to forget you and pretend like you're still here with me, even if it's just for a moment.

This pain's the only thing that I can't refuse
Out of all the things that I can't resist or refuse, the agony of losing you is the most powerful.

They warned me but I think it's only fake news
People warned me of the danger of falling in love and the possible heartbreak that could come with it, but I foolishly believed it wouldn't happen to me.

If you're the enemy
If you are the one who is causing my pain and suffering.

Then maybe I'm too weak to see it
Perhaps my love for you blinds me to the truth, and I am too weak to acknowledge it.

The fire's in my chest
The burning pain in my heart and soul that I cannot escape.

But I won't let my head
But I refuse to let my rational thoughts and logic take over my emotions.

Believe it
Because I desperately want to cling onto hope that we can be together again.

If this is just a dream
If my love for you is just a figment of my imagination, a fantasy I created in my mind.

Don't wake me in between
Then please don't wake me up and shatter my illusion, let me keep dreaming just a little longer.

I mean it
My love for you is real and genuine, even if it's painful for me.

You lied so many times
You have betrayed my trust and broken my heart numerous times before.

But right between the lines
But despite it all, I still hang onto hope that there is a chance for us.

I read it
I cling onto small moments of affection and love, finding hope and reassurance in them.

I will "cohol" you when I'm drunk
I'll drink to you when I'm intoxicated, using alcohol as a temporary escape from my reality.

I will call you when I'm strong
Once I have overcome my pain and suffering, I will reach out to you and try to make things right between us.