Next to Me
Roy Harper Lyrics


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I lost the only reason that I ever had
I did it crazy by myself
I've always been that mad
I needed someone by me
To share the madness with
To help me through the growing pain
See me through the myth
I thought I'd found the goddess
I never was so sure
But she, as fickle as the wind
On the springtime heather moor
Cavorted on her whim of change
And with her laughter loud
Cursed my good and howled my wrong
And left me in my cloud
I lie in awful silence
Pierced by passing seconds
Every one so long
And full of you
And why
I wake in dreadful hours
Frightened by each turning
Feeling that quite soon
I should give up and die
Of you, of you but stay alive
To walk the echoing
The feeling that it was
Or maybe not
A wretched lie
The silence of the night is pierced
By owls and thieves
Sudden gusts of wind
Rustling my leaves
Loud explosions in the still
Born thoughts of old




Please don't leave your bed for long
It's next to me and cold

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Roy Harper's song Next To Me narrates the feeling of loss, desperation and solitude that comes with a broken heart. The singer paints a picture of someone who is struggling to cope with the aftermath of a relationship gone wrong. The opening lines convey the loss of someone - the only source of reason the singer ever had, leaving him to his madness. The sense of madness may be indicative of the inability to make logical sense and bereft all controls, leaving him open to hurting himself and others. The singer expresses the need for a companion who will join him on this crazy ride and make it bearable. Someone who can navigate the path of darkness with him and distill the phantom pains that come with growth.


He had found someone who he sees as his goddess, but quickly realises that she is unstable and inconsistent, responding to each change and whim, leaving him behind in a burst of uncontrolled laughter. The singer, awash with pain, describes his loneliness and solitude, the agonizing silence that seems to drag on, and his fear of giving up on life altogether. The last verse brings a sudden explosion of sounds, rustling leaves and loud explosions, which could well be the matching course of tumultuous emotions in his head or an echoing in his heart. The singer pleads that his lost companion should not stay away too long, as he senses her next to him but cold.


In conclusion, the song ‘Next To Me’ is a powerful poetic description of the sense of rejection, loneliness and despair that accompanies the end of a relationship. The singer is in the grip of this intense and overwhelming emotion, and his poetic description of the pain makes this song a heartfelt expression of grief and longing.


Line by Line Meaning

I lost the only reason that I ever had
I have lost the one thing that gave me purpose in life


I did it crazy by myself
I went about my life in my own chaotic way without anyone's help


I've always been that mad
I have always had a certain level of madness in me


I needed someone by me
I needed someone to be with me, to share my experiences


To share the madness with
I wanted someone to understand and share the craziness that I feel


To help me through the growing pain
I needed someone to be there for me when times were tough and painful, to support me


See me through the myth
I needed someone who could help me understand the reality of my situation, to guide me through the illusions


I thought I'd found the goddess
I believed that I had found the perfect woman, my ideal


I never was so sure
I was never so certain about anything in my life


But she, as fickle as the wind
She was inconsistent and unpredictable, like the wind


On the springtime heather moor
In a beautiful and tranquil natural setting


Cavorted on her whim of change
She behaved according to her own changing desires, without regard for my feelings


And with her laughter loud
She laughed loudly and without inhibition, seemingly amused by everything


Cursed my good and howled my wrong
She criticized me for my positive attributes and mocked my mistakes


And left me in my cloud
She abandoned me, leaving me alone with my thoughts


I lie in awful silence
I am alone with my troubled thoughts and feelings


Pierced by passing seconds
Every moment seems painfully slow and long, inducing sorrow and melancholy


Every one so long
Each moment seems to stretch on for an immeasurable amount of time, inducing a sense of desperation


And full of you
My thoughts are consumed by memories and thoughts of you, haunting me constantly


And why
I am left wondering why you left me, why things went wrong


I wake in dreadful hours
I struggle to sleep, often waking up in the middle of the night in distress


Frightened by each turning
Every time I toss and turn in bed, I feel a sense of unease and distress


Feeling that quite soon
I have a sense that soon something is going to happen, but I am not sure what


I should give up and die
I feel hopeless, lost, and on the brink of giving up on everything


Of you, of you but stay alive
Despite my despair, I cannot help but think of you and stay alive for that reason


To walk the echoing
To continue to wander aimlessly through echoing halls and life, feeling lost and alone


The feeling that it was
The sense that everything that has happened was inevitable and fated to happen


Or maybe not
Perhaps things could have been different


A wretched lie
The thought that everything was a lie and that there was no real meaning to what happened


The silence of the night is pierced
The quiet and peaceful night is suddenly interrupted


By owls and thieves
By the sounds of animals and potentially dangerous individuals


Sudden gusts of wind
Jarring, unexpected winds that shift the atmosphere of the space


Rustling my leaves
The wind shakes and disturbs the leaves on the trees, making them move in agitation


Loud explosions in the still
Sudden, booming sounds that break the stillness and reactivate the anxiety and distress already present


Born thoughts of old
Memories and thoughts come flooding back, overwhelming and apparently already known


Please don't leave your bed for long
Do not leave me alone for too long, as I am irrationally fearful


It's next to me and cold
The space where you once were remains, chilling and empty




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