Seasons of Insanity
Russell Allen Lyrics


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I hear you knocking
But you can't come in
My shotty's cocked
I'm playing hell to win
You can't imagine
How it can consume
The game is winning
Can't avoid my doom

I guess you've noticed
That I'm not the same
Devils conspire
To control my brain

[Chorus:]
Yeah, I can feel
Mad seasons changing
Everything and nothing's real
My eyes are going
Yeah, I can't feel my reasons changing
Everything and nothing's real
My spirits blown away

The moon is talking
And I must comply
The dead are walking
Can't avoid their eyes
The dawn's upon me now
I cannot quit
Reduced to defecating
Where I sit, oh no

I guess you've noticed
That I'm not the same
Devils conspire
To control my brain

[Chorus]





Away [16x]

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Russell Allen's song "Seasons of Insanity" convey a sense of chaos and desperation. The singer describes feeling consumed by a desire to win at all costs, hunted by demonic forces, and losing touch with reality. The opening lines, "I hear you knocking / But you can't come in / My shotty's cocked / I'm playing hell to win" set the tone for the rest of the song, suggesting that the singer is barricaded inside their own mind, trapped in a dangerous game they cannot escape from. They feel disconnected from themselves and the world around them, unable to discern what is real and what is not: "Everything and nothing's real / My eyes are going / Yeah, I can't feel my reasons changing / My spirits blown away." The repeated "I guess you've noticed / That I'm not the same / Devils conspire / To control my brain" lines emphasize the sense of losing control, as external forces seem to be manipulating the singer's thoughts and actions.


The chorus of the song is particularly poignant, with its declaration of "mad seasons changing" and the repeated refrain of "everything and nothing's real." The imagery of the moon talking and the dead walking suggests an otherworldly, supernatural presence that is surrounding the singer, making them feel powerless against the forces at work. The line "Reduced to defecating / Where I sit, oh no" is especially striking, as it portrays the singer at their lowest point, unable to even control their own bodily functions. Overall, "Seasons of Insanity" captures the sense of disorientation and confusion that can come from struggling with mental illness or feeling overwhelmed by external pressures.


Line by Line Meaning

I hear you knocking
Someone is trying to approach me, but I am not ready to let them in yet.


But you can't come in
I am not willing to open up to anyone right now.


My shotty's cocked
I am prepared to defend myself if necessary.


I'm playing hell to win
I am determined to come out on top, no matter the cost.


You can't imagine
It's impossible for you to understand what I'm going through.


How it can consume
This experience is taking over my life completely.


The game is winning
I am losing control to an addictive or dangerous habit.


Can't avoid my doom
I know this can't end well, but I can't stop myself from going down this path.


I guess you've noticed
You can tell that something has changed about me.


That I'm not the same
I'm not the person you used to know.


Devils conspire
My mind is being influenced by dark thoughts or outside factors.


To control my brain
I feel like I'm not in control of my own thoughts or actions.


Yeah, I can feel
I'm aware of the intense emotions I'm experiencing.


Mad seasons changing
My moods and behavior are becoming more unpredictable and extreme.


Everything and nothing's real
I'm questioning my own perception of reality.


My eyes are going
I'm losing sight of what's really important.


Yeah, I can't feel my reasons changing
I'm struggling to justify my actions or thoughts to myself.


My spirits blown away
I feel completely defeated and hopeless.


The moon is talking
I feel like the world around me is sending me signs or messages.


And I must comply
I feel like I'm being forced to follow a certain path or belief system.


The dead are walking
I'm haunted by past experiences or trauma.


Can't avoid their eyes
I feel like I'm being judged by those who have passed away.


The dawn's upon me now
A new day is beginning, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to face it.


I cannot quit
I feel trapped or powerless to change my situation.


Reduced to defecating
I've hit rock bottom and lost control of even my basic bodily functions.


Where I sit, oh no
I'm stuck in a bad situation and can't see a way out.


Away [16x]
A repeated expression of wanting to escape or be free from this torment.




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