Poison
Ruston Kelly Lyrics

I hear footsteps in the hall every night
I'm constantly reminded of your presence and it's haunting me every night

And there's a shadow underneath my door
I feel like you're watching me, your shadow has taken over my thoughts

There's a hole punched through the wall
Our relationship has left a visible mark, a hole in my heart that can't be filled

Are you happy now?
You've caused me so much pain and destruction, is that what you wanted? Are you satisfied with what you did?

Your memory cuts into my day
Your memory constantly intrudes on my everyday life and causes me pain

It buries all my nights away
I can't escape the pain even in my sleep, it's always there with me

Thinkin' of you is like diggin' my own grave
The more I think about you, the more I hurt myself, it's like digging my own grave

You are my poison now
You've become toxic to me, every thought of you hurts me

'Cause you still come
Even though I'm trying to move on, you still find a way to come back into my life

When you need someone to love
You only come back when you need someone to love or be with

When you need a hand to touch through my face down in the mud
You want me to be there for you when you're down or need help, but you don't reciprocate

And watch me fall
You take pleasure in seeing me suffer and fall apart

'Til I'm crawlin' on my knees
The pain you've inflicted on me has reduced me to crawling on my knees

'Til my fingers crack and bleed
Even my fingers are feeling the pain from holding on to the memory of you

And you've taken every part of me
You've taken everything from me, my love, my trust, my happiness, leaving me with nothing

Can I drain every drop of you out?
I want to remove every last bit of you from my life, erase you from my memory

'Cause all that you are is poison
You're all poison to me, every thought of you hurts me

It's not because I'm left alone
The pain isn't just because I'm alone, it's the memories of you that hurt the most

Don't wonder why
You know why I'm hurting, don't pretend like you don't

What became of the heart that was shaped so much by mine?
What happened to the heart that used to love me so much and was molded by our love?

[...] stranger in your eyes
You're not the same person I fell in love with, I see a stranger in your eyes now

That's not what tears me down
It's not just the fact that you've changed, but also what you did to me that tears me apart

It's how you made my worst of days never seem as grey
You made even my worst days brighter, but now that you're gone, they seem even worse

It's remembering your mouth in the way it tastes
I still remember the taste of your kiss, but it hurts me to know it's just a memory now

It's Rosemary Beach on a sunny day
I still remember the happy times we spent together, but they only hurt me more now

Hope there will come a time in your life
I hope one day you'll see the error of your ways and find happiness

The light comes back and it shines through your eyes
I hope one day the light will come back into your eyes and you'll be happy again

And no one by then will see you enough to find
Maybe then, no one will be able to see you well enough to hurt you again

While you're running through this world
While you're busy running around, I'm trying to heal and move on

So fucking blind
You're blind to the pain you've caused me and how much you've hurt me

I'm gonna be runnin' free with my arms open wide
I'm finally free from your toxic grasp and ready to embrace life again

For the first time in such a long time
For the first time in a long time, I'm finally happy again

Don't you call
Don't even bother calling me or trying to come back into my life

And tell me you're still in love
I don't want to hear that you still love me, it's too little too late

That you miss me way too much
I don't want to hear that you miss me, it only hurts me more

While you can never see that beat that made us fall
You can't see the mistakes that caused our relationship to fall apart

And turn the flower into weed
You turned something beautiful into something ugly and toxic

And the lover into a thief
You stole my heart and left me broken and hurt

That has stolen my life from me
You not only stole my heart, but you also stole my happiness and the life I knew

I won't be poison now
I won't let you have power over me anymore, I won't let you hurt me anymore

And I will drain every drop of you out
I will remove every last bit of you from my life, erase you from my memory

All that you are to me
To me, you're nothing but a painful memory, a source of hurt and toxic emotions

All you still are
Even now, after all this time, you're still nothing but poison to me

Is poison
You are poison to me, pure and simple