"Reasons Not To Die (Demo)" is the first official release in 3 years by alt… Read Full Bio ↴"Reasons Not To Die (Demo)" is the first official release in 3 years by alternative pop artist Ryn Weaver following her debut LP The Fool on Interscope. The demo was released on Atlantic through Neon Gold Records in celebration of the label's 10th anniversary, and will feature alongside tracks by artists like Broods and Marina & the Diamonds (now known mononymously as Marina). In an Instagram post, Weaver revealed that the very personal track was the first she wrote following a mental breakdown, saying, "The song was originally written as an apology to my friends for being an ass hat on my birthday in the thick of a depressive episode, and not allowing all of the good to cut through my mental sludge. It’s a thank you and an apology to all of the people I love who have loved me through a very transitive period and stayed by my side regardless of my wild child antics."

Reasons Not To Die
Ryn Weaver Lyrics

We have lyrics for these tracks by Ryn Weaver:

Free You cast a spell on me I was broken by the…
Here Is Home I can't hold it, but I feel it in my…
Maybe Watching, waiting Cause I'm holding on to your heart Yeah I'…
New Constellations I can only imagine the day that they said No, the…
Octa Hate Lost in the cracks of the landslide You saw me slipping…
OctaHate Watch it Watch it Watch it Watch it Lost in the cracks Of t…
OctaHate (Produced by Cashmere Cat Lost in the cracks of the landslide You saw me slipping…
Pierre I danced in the desert, in the pouring rain Drank with…
Promises Never meant to break my own promises Never meant to break…

Runaway If it takes two, I'm betting on you Hold me tight…
Sail On I took your hand and And held it in my clutch But…
Stay Low Let the night come Dim the lights home Whisky lemon Let the …
The Fool And now I see technicolor A movie-script lover You chase me …

Traveling Song Oh, father time That meter maid who lends one lively winking…

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

Tevet Shai

6y↑6

[Verse 1]
I'm sorry the party you threw for me
Was met with such a royal hitch
I'm a bitch, I don't mean to be selfish
You rolled out the carpet to watch it catch fire
It's just another Thursday, my party
I cried like I always do, oh oh oh

[Verse 2]
Flew here to help clear the mess that was me
Made up of fear and self-hate
A stalemate with he-who-shall-not-be-named
You tried and you cried, confessing your grip was slipping
Couldn't help me, you held me, the shadows began to fade

[Chorus]
Here's to the ones
The renegades who never run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me in

[Verse 3]
Despondent, catatonic suicide queen
By now I know a screw's loose or too few
Or worse there's too many
But of course, the dark horse
You bet all in stride
I hope I'm not a regret, I see sweat
I'll fight to the finish line, oh oh oh

[Bridge]
And I get so stuck in my head
Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide
And when I can't get out of bed
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
And praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign
Some reasons not to die and there you are

[Chorus]
Here's to the ones
Who stuck in when they should have run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me

[Outro]
Here's to my friends
All in until the bitter end
Drink or two to the toast
Not too many though

amit marciano

5y↑153

I'm sorry the party you threw for me
Was met with such a royal hitch
I'm a bitch, I don't mean to be selfish
You rolled out the carpet to watch it catch fire
It's just another Thursday, my party
I cried like I always do, oh oh oh
Flew here to help clear the mess that was me
Made up of fear and self-hate
A stalemate with he-who-shall-not-be-named
You tried and you cried, confessing your grip was slipping
Couldn't help me, you held me, the shadows began to fade
Here's to the ones
The renegades who never run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me in
Despondent, catatonic suicide queen
By now I know a screw's loose or too few
Or worse there's too many
But of course, the dark horse
You bet all in stride
I hope I'm not a regret, I see sweat
I'll fight to the finish line, oh oh oh
And I get so stuck in my head
Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide
And when I can't get out of bed
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
And praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign
Some reasons not to die and there you are
Here's to the ones
Who stuck in when they should have run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me
Here's to my friends
All in until the bitter end
Drink or two to the toast
Not too many though

Frida H. Diaz

LYRICS

I'm sorry the party you threw for me
Was met with such a royal hitch
I'm a bitch, I don't mean to be selfish
You rolled out the carpet to watch it catch fire
It's just another Thursday, my party
I cried like I always do, oh oh oh

Flew here to help clear the mess that was me
Made up of fear and self-hate
A stalemate with he-who-shall-not-be-named
You tried and you cried, confessing your grip was slipping
Couldn't help me, you held me, the shadows began to fade

Here's to the ones
The renegades who never run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me in

Despondent, catatonic suicide queen
By now I know a screw's loose or too few
Or worse there's too many
But of course, the dark horse
You bet all in stride
I hope I'm not a regret, I see sweat
I'll fight to the finish line, oh oh oh

And I get so stuck in my head
Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide
And when I can't get out of bed
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
And praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign
Some reasons not to die and there you are

Here's to the ones
Who stuck in when they should have run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me

Here's to my friends
All in until the bitter end
Drink or two to the toast
Not too many though

Andria

Lyrics:
I'm sorry the party you threw for me
Was met with such a royal hitch
I'm a bitch, I don't mean to be selfish
You rolled out the carpet to watch it catch fire
It's just another Thursday, my party
I cried like I always do, oh oh oh

Flew here to help clear the mess that was me
Made up of fear and self-hate
A stalemate with he-who-shall-not-be-named
You tried and you cried, confessing your grip was slipping
Couldn't help me, you held me, the shadows began to fade

Here's to the ones
The renegades who never run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me in

Despondent, catatonic suicide queen
By now I know a screw's loose or too few
Or worse there's too many
But of course, the dark horse
You bet all in stride
I hope I'm not a regret, I see sweat
I'll fight to the finish line, oh oh oh

And I get so stuck in my head
Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide
And when I can't get out of bed
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
And praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign
Some reasons not to die and there you are

Here's to the ones
Who stuck in when they should have run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me

Here's to my friends
All in until the bitter end
Drink or two to the toast
Not too many though

Isabelle K.

6y↑20

lyris:

I'm sorry the party you threw for me
Was met with such a royal hitch
I'm a bitch, I don't mean to be selfish
You rolled out the carpet to watch it catch fire
It's just another Thursday, my party
I cried like I always do, oh oh oh

Flew here to help clear the mess that was me
Made up of fear and self-hate
A stalemate with he-who-shall-not-be-named
You tried and you cried, confessing your grip was slipping
Couldn't help me, you held me, the shadows began to fade

Here's to the ones
The renegades who never run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me in

Despondent, catatonic suicide queen
By now I know a screw's loose or too few
Or worse there's too many
But of course, the dark horse
You bet all in stride
I hope I'm not a regret, I see sweat
I'll fight to the finish line, oh oh oh

And I get so stuck in my head
Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide
And when I can't get out of bed
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
And praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign
Some reasons not to die and there you are

Here's to the ones
Who stuck in when they should have run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my bullshit but won't cage me

Here's to my friends
All in until the bitter end
Drink or two to the toast
Not too many though

All comments from YouTube:

C

6y↑223

This song punched me in the chest. It is SO real to me. As a person climbing out of a suicidal valley I can empathize so strongly with the lyrics... and it made me cry for three reasons.
1. I am not alone in feeling this way; someone else GETS it
2. The song made me think of a friend I trusted to tell about my battle, who turned around and broke my heart. I cried because I remembered that experience...
3. And I cried because I felt this deep wistfulness for a friend like Ryn has, combined with a bittersweet joy at the knowing that there are people in the world who won't give up on you.

Thank you, Ryn. Please keep fighting. <3 You are an inspiration and a refuge to me.

alice

the song is actually an apology to her friends..... so

Kellen Nobe

5y↑4

so what, doesn't mean it doesn't resonate

Ana Flávia Santos

5y↑1

you're not alone :')

Jay Sirius

6y↑225

Don't ever stop seeking your peace Ryn, and thank you for sharing the journey with us. Your art is precious, your writing is such a multifaceted gem, a kaleidoscope of raw emotions and polished beauty. I cried several times listening to it, it hits me very hard and I'm heartbroken to even imagine what you must have gone through that pushed you to write and sing something like that.
We love you!

SH

5y↑176

“And when I can't get out of bed
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
And praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign
Some reasons not to die
and there you are”

This is unreal. I’ve always struggled with depression and was close to ending my life a year ago. I felt so alone, but listening to this song reminds me who’s the good people that have been there for me all along. And why sometimes it’s better to let go of people that only pretend to be supportive when in reality they want to see you at your worst.
Thank you ryn for this amazing song.

Miguel Nolan

3y↑1

I agree

Jair García

6y↑374

Does anyone feel this beautiful amazing feeling inside while listening to Ryn’s voice again with something new? I Love this, she is truly something beyond this world ❤️

Jason Ramirez

6y↑7

I was thinking the exact same thing! I started to cry a little bit. I love Ryn. Hers was the first concert I ever went to and I will always remember the performance. I hope she's going to come back with more music. It's well overdue.

Jair García

6y↑3

Jason Ramirez same I cried a little bit, seeing her live was one of the most beautiful experiences I’ve had and very significant. All this time I’ve been listening to her album over and over waiting to be blessed with her voice again

NeverendingViolet

6y↑5

I was purely enjoying it until the breakdown near the end and then she calms down and sings the chorus again...I bawled on the bus. I almost never cry in public like that.

Bruno Guerra Lima

6y↑2

She definitely is from beyond! These 3 years since the album have been so long, I feel like she hugged my soul with this beautiful song <3 She has always been, above all, an incredibly talented poet! Love love love

Alissa-Marie Smith

6y↑1

@Bruno Guerra Lima thats exacly how im feeling at the moment like her voice is so unique

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Tonya Acuna

6y↑101

I'm naming my daughter Jayme Ryn after her!! Her music literally saved me. I love this song so much!!

Corbin Black

5y↑4

Thats a really pretty name

Nyx

3y↑9

The last few lines give me chills every single time, they're so simple and yet they punch me in the gut every time. The power in those few lines and this entire song brings me to tears.

Tevet Shai

6y↑6

tobin jordan

5y↑24

So beautiful. It's even more painful, or relieving to know you spent years of your life getting rid of everyone, just so there wouldn't be anyone there stopping you from going away forever. Being totally alone is beautiful, but scary because you're free to just leave when you decide to

erithmorian

1y↑1

It's such a criminally underrated value: that of SHOWING UP, and, through no obligation than love, and loyalty, doing everything but helping you clean up your vomit on those days (when bulemia strikes). When everyone leaves, and they stay, it's a bit insulting not to give yourself a portion of the care you receive, from the family you keep, the one that is made and forged in the iron of your tears as you sob just to hold on another day.

Azzura Blue

5y↑33

This song is my new addiction omg I love it. Holds such a deep place inside my heart. Especially when she sings “here’s to the ones who hide the bullet from the gun”, and “here’s to the ones who stuck in when they should’ve run”. I felt that so much.

Crust

4y↑17

“And I get so stuck in my head, lost in all the lies: nihilistic backslide.”

She sang that verse and I viscerally felt every. single. one of those words hug me and beg me to be happy. Ryn Weaver is back, ladies and gents.

yikes

6y↑9

This song is just so beautiful. The fact that it's in 3/4, the rhythms she sings, the message this song spreads, I just love all of it.

Lwethu Larona Molapisi

4y↑6

I used to suffer from depression but no one knew. I love this song as it makes me wish that I had those people who would never give up on me

Auburn Angel

6y↑34

I really missed her, her voice has something about it that gives it so much depth that so few singers have

Gyaa

5y↑8

This gets the 🔂 treatment. Ryn has such a wonderful voice. Emotions are all over the place when I hear this gem.

Juan Jose Villalobos

Ryn is one of my favorite singers and this song means so much for me! Every time i listen this song, I felt support and felt like I can let the depression finish. Sorry if I write terrible, but it's so personal

Alex H

5y↑9

I, like most people have a small collection of songs that heavily resonate with me and of these 18 songs Ryn Weaver is the only one that that appears twice. This song and Traveling Song. Thanks for the masterpieces <3

squashika

3y↑3

2 years later, and this song is still a beautiful masterpiece that makes me cry <3

Gabrielle Kelly

4y↑4

This is the first song I heard after my dad passed away and it’s really helped me to get some tears out because I’ve needed some good cries

tradavious

6y↑8

shes always been the only artist to make me feel actually sad, and happy at the same time

Moody Me

5y↑3

I don't even remember how I first heard this song but I have been obsessed with it for a few months now and it just hits home.

x y

6y↑30

Thank you Ryn. Such an emotional song. Beautiful and hearbreaking at the same time. I love you ❤

thuwonline

5y↑3

this song would be great in a movie / trailer i’ve been imagining scenes in my head and it’s just wow

Jenna Montagnese

It's featured in the movie "Someone Great"! I personally really love the movie and recommend it :)

Ash

6y↑28

I am so happy she’s back!!! This song is hauntingly pretty sounding and I love it so much!! So excited she’s back

Tale Of Our Time

5y↑3

ryn has a spark no other artist can reproduce. please never stop making msuic

purple

6y↑33

This song is PHENOMENAL! Our queen is back!!!

Phoebe Francis

5y↑16

This song knocks the wind right out of me... my chest hurts from feeling this so deeply...

Moody Me

Line up with me if you want a live quarantine performance of this masterpiece!..

Ezequiel Muñoz

3y↑3

She's so talented. I hope she'll come back someday :'(

korančica

2y↑1

paifully underrated, even after 3 years

Eva

5y↑6

I remember absolutely loving her music when I was younger and just listening to her songs on repeat and wow it’s happening again and I love it so much

Zachary Reshovsky

I love this song!

Rebecca Lashomb

4y↑1

Love Ryn since 2015! Her music awakens my soul

VanillaThunder

5y↑24

For everybody going through something. You're not alone. Please don't be afraid to reach out!

HappyDay

This is just awesome. ❤️

Sir Abyss

6y↑66

It's been 3 years but she's fucking back! Please tell me this means a new album's on the way!

MZ

5y↑4

This songs is growing in me like nothing else in the last years. The more I listen to it the more I need to listen to it

Ricky Crook

5y↑1

She helped me so much in my teen years. Thank you Ryn 2014 and beyond has been so amazing because of your music, I hope to hear more amazing music like this soon.

liesel.

6y↑15

i cant wait for more music from her

Doomsicle

5y↑2

Very powerful song, gives me the chills every time. I'm trying to overcome my severe depression and this song inspires me to think positively. There are many reasons not to die, and this song is one of those reasons.
Also if this is a demo, I personally find the transition at 2:00 a little abrupt and loud, idk the howling just doesn't do it for me, but that's just my opinion.
Still an amazing song!!!
Very good work Ryn <3

dulcamia

4y↑2

I love this beautiful honesty because it resonates with my sad soul struggling to survive in this mad world. ❤️

Sadie

5y↑1

I didn't see Ryn released this, I'm so glad I decided to look her songs up on youtube rather than listening to my CD...this song is so beautiful, Ryn. Please keep releasing music. Your words and your voice are like no other.

Betuna

4y↑41

Man being depressed. Listening to this masterpiece made me get up again

amit marciano

5y↑153

Krisicism

4y↑3

Thank you!!!

brickwalla

☺️

heythereclaire7

4y↑4

Why is Ryn not making new music? Can anyone enlighten me? I really love her music and I'm so sad we haven't had any new releases in almost 2 years :(

Univeige

4y↑1

Просто божественный голос, у меня нет слов...

Jimmy Szohr

6y↑5

Thanks for this amazing new music. We've been waiting three years. This is pure gold to my ears and i'm so grateful that this song came out even as a " demo ". Thank you Ryn, you truly are a star. Keep going, mermaid.

Clifford

3y↑1

Masterpiece

Natalie Shannon

5y↑101

She is back!! I am her cousin!!! She went through a hard time but found family back in her life and now she is doing great!!! I just saw her at thanksgiving

Aidsa Mendoza

5y↑1

Yea right

Javenarch

Oh! She is amazing....I'm craving music from her...

Abbie

5y↑1

pffft vsco girls would rather drink with plastic straws than believe that

Jessica Calzada

5y↑2

Am I the only one who thinks someone should do a choreographed piece to this song?!!! 😭😭

SOS Tech

5y↑4

If i could hear the angels singing, i imagine that would be something like this. Thank you, Ryn!

ginsengfuck

3y↑1

This song reminds me of a toxic relationship still staying after all the cheating the lying the arguments the constantly being accused but you stay because it feels like you need them to breath to live and survive no matter how much they hurt you you still some how love them with everything.

Robot Stripez

Her voice hit my heart in a way no other artist can. Please bless the world with another album!

Kamelia K

5y↑3

THIS SONG IS SOO UNDERRATED 😭

Sam

6y↑2

This is great. I love all of her songs.

App Create

4y↑1

This is genuinely the best song ever

Coloc

Cette chanson est sublime... J'en suis dingue..

C

5y↑1

this song is beyond amazing

Dam Bam

Such a beautifully deep song, I don't really cry to songs but this just hit so close to home. I'm so thankful to the friends that I have been blessed with that put up with me especially when I don't feel like putting up with myself anymore. Here's to the ones

Lily Ortiz

6y↑48

IN LOVE ALREADY. I LOVE RYN AND SHE IS AMAZING THIS IS AMAZING YES MORE PLEASE AND THANKS IF YOU COULD

alexis diaz

6y↑1

Same, I loved the Fool

Gyaa

Heard her voice and I felt the same. Such a great talent.

John Menard

6y↑15

I missed her impressive vibrato. I remember I got crazy listening to her OctaHate and then the song got stuck to me in (until now) is The Fool and Sail On

Pastel Hot Mess

6y↑6

Been a while since i heard from her I love this

JEFFREY ROEDEL

This is amazing. Does Ryn have anything on vinyl besides The Fool?

Not Me

This song is so strong and beautiful. Beautiful music, beautiful voice, beautiful lyrics... I'm overwhelmed by the beauty of this song. Thanks ❤

Happy Lion

This song is so beautiful

𝔒𝔟𝔢𝔯𝔬𝔫 𝔎𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔉𝔞𝔦𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔰

6y↑3

RYYNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ♥ AIN MDS EU VOU CHORÁÁÁH , NEM ACREDITOOOOOO, ELA VOLTOU EH PORRAN !!!!!!!!1111!!!!!!!!!! love from brazil haha ♥

roryfitzpatric

5y↑2

Ryn Weaver is the most underrated vocalist of all time.. The fact she hasnt had mainstream recognition is baffling to me

Elcee Music

roryfitzpatric this!!!!!!!!!!!

MZ

5y↑3

What an emotional song!

Claire Dillans

4y↑8

I feel like my heart was ripped out of my chest. My boyfriend told me he doesn’t have feelings for me anymore and deep down he still has feelings for his ex and wants to be with her. He told me he loved me 🥺

Kanta

6y↑10

I cannot stop playing this

brooke

5y↑3

this song gives me the shivers

kay 🦷

i’m a little late to the party but oh my god i missed her voice 🧡

Songbird

6y↑10

2:25 on is just too good...
Particularly 2:29-2:35 👌

Juan Huarte

4y↑1

release a live version of this already

Poneisha, RN

5y↑5

Hauntingly Beautiful!

Frida H. Diaz

hm Murguia

5y↑1

This song put into words what I never could

Dany Bernal

6y↑45

I'm with her since 2015 💙

Brandon

5y↑2

this is the best voice i swearrrrr ive been waiting 2 years for new music

Rosemary

6y↑16

this is EVERYTHING and just what i needed today

TeaAndCroissants

5y↑4

I have never been so completely emotionally wrecked by a song before like this one has made me. It's like it peeled back all my layers and saw right to my bleeding, vulnerable core and whispered "it's going to be alright."

I heard this song because my best friend showed it to me. They have been there for me like no-one else and all I could think of while listening to this was how, even when I was at my worst, my most hopeless, my least kind, they would sit with me through it. I wasn't just crying by the end of this song, I was weeping, and all I could do was hug my friend who showed me this song.

Ryn, if you ever see this, thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so very much. I needed this.

Andria

Arcadian Bloom

Ryn!! I’ve been waiting for so long, god I love her!! Please more music

paperbackhead13

This song saved my life so many times.

Candycane

33w

2:14 My favourite part, hits me hard

Saffie

This is beautiful 💜

Sadia Farzana Rasna

5y↑3

Finally found the song I've been loving since I saw 'someone great' ❤️

Katie Kapow

5y↑5

Thank gawd she's back. Ryn, never stop. Please.

Josie AnnMarie

6y↑158

Wow I’ve fucking missed her I’m crying😭

Patrick Agokei

6y↑10

She's back, amen. The talented musician who gave us octahate and the fool album. Hope the song is one of many new ones from her 😔✊(Still don't know why this isn't trending on youtube but ok?

Merilyn Duarte

First time listening to Ryn and I am in love... <3

Eleni P

This is pure gold

essandur

1y↑1

this should be the world mental health day anthem. truly emotional.

Noah Weaver

5y↑1

Bring back the queen who uplifts me with every word!

Rebecca Wak

I watched someone great more than 5 times. This song makes me miss how things used to be with her. 🫀

1whokncallthethunder

very poignant song;this resonates with me so much.

Not Irena

This gave me chills

Ryan H.

5y↑2

For some reason, I would love to hear a duet version of this: Ryn and Marina Diamandis or hear Lana del Rey do a cover it. Still, Ryn is bomb and I love this song and her voice <3