SUICIDE
S-DUB A.K.A. Shabaam Sahdeeq Lyrics

I waste all my time, I got you on my mind
I spend all my time thinking about you

I want you to be mine, yeah, love is suicide
I want to be with you, even though it may hurt me

I tell you that I'm fine, even when I'm really lying
I say that I'm okay, even when I'm not

Even when I'm dying, yeah, my brain is frying
Even when I feel like I'm falling apart, my mind is still racing

Yeah I got my heart broke, heart on my sleeve
You broke my heart even though I was vulnerable and open with you

I really didn't think that you would fuck around and leave
I didn't expect you to cheat and abandon me

You were always in my head, I ain't know what to believe
I was constantly thinking about you and didn't know what to trust

You were fuckin' with my brain, you were playing games with me
You were manipulating and toying with my emotions

Like how could you do this, baby you were rutheless
I can't comprehend how you could be so cruel

Throwing me away, yeah you got me feeling useless
You discarded me and made me feel worthless

Got me feeling anxious, no I cannot take this
I'm overwhelmed and can't handle this stress

I don't think I'll make it, fuck it, I'll get faded
I don't know if I can handle this, so I'll numb my pain with substances

I won't let you fuck with me, I gave you enough of me
I won't allow you to continue hurting me after I've already given you so much

You can talk your shit but you know you done fucked it up with me
You can say whatever you want, but you know you've ruined things between us

You don't make the cut for me, you won't get a buck from me
You don't meet my standards and I won't waste my resources on you

You know I'm the best and you can never make it up to me
I know I'm worth more than what you offered and you can't make it right

Imma get a new bitch, way better than you, bitch
I'll find someone better than you to be with

And I know that she ain't finna treat me like I'm useless
I'm certain that she won't treat me as if I'm worthless

Baby thats what you did, you already knew this
You treated me like I was worthless, and you were aware of it

I waste all my time, I got you on my mind
I can't stop thinking about you

I want you to be mine, yeah, love is suicide
I still want to be with you, even though it may hurt me

I tell you that I'm fine, even when I'm really lying
I pretend that I'm okay, even when I'm not

Even when I'm dying, yeah, my brain is frying
Even when I feel like I'm falling apart, my mind is still racing