Faces
S.C.U.D. Lyrics

I'm thinking lot of shit
I have many thoughts and emotions that keep moving through my mind.

But I'm not talking all the time
Although I am going through a lot, I choose not to speak all the time.

I'm falling in a hole
I feel like I'm spiraling into an abyss of despair and confusion.

But I'm not talking 'bout my mind
I am keeping my feelings and struggles to myself.

You ask me what is wrong
You inquire about the issues that would be causing my pain and discomfort.

But I don't get it
I'm not sure myself what's going on with me.

I'll be quiet
I will remain silent, and not discuss my situation.

Don't know who I am
I am confused and unsure of my own identity.

Maybe I don't wanna try
I feel so hopeless that I am not sure that I want to even try to fix what's broken.

I could be the person
I could be someone who is there for you in your times of need.

Who is there for you in need
I would try to be a good support system for you in a time of crisis.

Meanwhile I'm alone at home and
Even though I could be there for you, I'm struggling on my own at home right now.

Smoke myself to sleep
I use smoking to calm my nerves and help me relax before going to bed.

I can't tell you why and I can't tell it to myself
I don't know the reasons behind my feelings or thoughts either.

But I don't want no help
I'm not ready to accept anyone's help or support even if they are trying so hard to help me.

I've lost my mind
At times, my emotional turmoil is so strong that I feel like I have lost my sanity.

From time to time
It happens occasionally, but it's not a constant state of mind.

To early to die inside, no
It's too early to let go of hope, and let my mental struggles define my existence.

I try
I am doing my best to persevere through the hardships and challenges.

To abide
I am committed to sticking to my convictions and values.

By your side
I want to stay by your side even though I am struggling myself.

I let you fall
I did not offer the support that you needed and you fell down.

Like a stone to water
It felt like you were sinking without any support.

Steady building higher borders
I am putting up walls around myself and our relationship.

Between you and me
These walls are creating distance and tension between our relationship.

Feels like we're not the lovers
Our love and affection for each other is waning and diminishing.

We were before
Things have changed and we can't get back to how it was before.

And now the days are shorter
Time is passing by quickly, and the relationship is slipping away rapidly.

I'm alone in dark
I feel lonely and abandoned in my darkness.

Looking at old photos of us
I reminisce about our good times together and wish that we could go back to those days.

So, please
Please don't leave me alone.

Don't leave me, I still believe
Even though things are not good, but I still have faith that we could mend our relationship.

I'm down on my knees
I am begging and pleading to you for help.

Craving for relief
I am in desperate need of relief from my emotional pain and suffering.

Craving for you and me
I want to regain the closeness and intimacy that we once shared.

Face to face
Despite our struggles, I am willing to confront these issues and talk them out with you.

Got nothing to say
I am not sure what to say, but I am willing to listen and communicate.