Amnesia
S.O.S. Lyrics


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I don't wanna die but I think that I have to
You don't understand but you think that I'm bad news
I was off a xan in the back of the classroom
Never had a plan, I was doing what I had to
Yeah, I was doing what I had to
I was smoking weed in the back of the bathroom
Now I know my place, I'm just doing what I have to
Got a couple scars, so I cover them with tattoos

I don't wanna die but I think that I have to
You don't understand but you think that I'm bad news
I was off a xan in the back of the classroom
Never had a plan, I was doing what I had to
Yeah, I was doing what I had to
I was smoking weed in the back of the bathroom
Now I know my place, I'm just doing what I have to
Got a couple scars, so I cover them with tattoos

I don't even know myself
Trying to control my wealth
Ion't even give a fuck about my health
Got my brothers on my side
I ain't do it by myself
Codeine, yeah, it help
Lifestyle really got me stressin' bouta belt
Can't think straight; you be fuckin' with my mental
What I'm whippin' in the city ain't a rental

Tattoos on my chest
Like amnesia, I forget
Yeah, these memories too heavy for me
Put me to my death
When I die, I'll try to rest
Until then I'll do my best
Cause I know that I'm up next
So these girls all wanna text me

I don't wanna die but I think that I have to
You don't understand but you think that I'm bad news
I was off a xan in the back of the classroom
Never had a plan, I was doing what I had to
Yeah, I was doing what I had to
I was smoking weed in the back of the bathroom
Now I know my place, I'm just doing what I have to
Got a couple scars, so I cover them with tattoos

I don't wanna die but I think that I have to
You don't understand but you think that I'm bad news
I was off a xan in the back of the classroom
Never had a plan, I was doing what I had to
Yeah, I was doing what I had to
I was smoking weed in the back of the bathroom
Now I know my place, I'm just doing what I have to
Got a couple scars, so I cover them with tattoos

Tattoos on my chest
Like amnesia, I forget
Yeah, these memories too heavy for me
Put me to my death
When I die, I'll try to rest
Until then I'll do my best
Cause I know that I'm up next
So these girls all wanna text me

I don't wanna die but I think that I have to
You don't understand but you think that I'm bad news
I was off a xan in the back of the classroom
Never had a plan, I was doing what I had to
Yeah, I was doing what I had to
I was smoking weed in the back of the bathroom




Now I know my place, I'm just doing what I have to
Got a couple scars, so I cover them with tattoos

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to S.O.S.'s "Amnesia" depict the struggle of a young person who feels lost and is coping with their pain and stress in unhealthy ways. The first verse describes the singer's reckless behavior, including drug abuse and self-harm, which highlights their desperation to escape their problems. The second verse presents a sense of apathy towards self-care and a fixation on material success. The repeated refrain "I don't wanna die but I think that I have to" emphasizes the singer's fear of their own mortality but their resignation to their dangerous lifestyle.


The line "Tattoos on my chest, like amnesia I forget" could be interpreted as a metaphor for the singer's attempts to forget their painful memories by covering them up with something else. The last line "Got a couple scars, so I cover them with tattoos" reinforces this idea of using physical scars and tattoos to mask emotional wounds.


Overall, the song draws attention to the struggles of youth and the effects of societal pressures on mental health. The lyrics present a bleak outlook, but the repeated refrain and the singer's insistence on doing their best despite their circumstances could be seen as a glimmer of hope.


Line by Line Meaning

I don't wanna die but I think that I have to
I'm struggling with my mental health and feel like death is the only way out


You don't understand but you think that I'm bad news
Others judge me without knowing the difficulties I face


I was off a xan in the back of the classroom
I was using drugs to cope with the pressures of school


Never had a plan, I was doing what I had to
I was living day to day and doing what I needed to survive


Yeah, I was doing what I had to
I had to make difficult choices to get by


I was smoking weed in the back of the bathroom
I used drugs to escape my reality and numb my pain


Now I know my place, I'm just doing what I have to
I've come to terms with my situation and am doing what I need to do to get by


Got a couple scars, so I cover them with tattoos
I carry emotional scars and use tattoos to cover and cope with them


Tattoos on my chest
I wear my emotions on my sleeve


Like amnesia, I forget
My painful memories are too much to bear and I try to forget them


Yeah, these memories too heavy for me
My past traumas and struggles have a heavy impact on me


Put me to my death
My past experiences and struggles have taken a toll on my mental health


When I die, I'll try to rest
Death may bring me peace from my pain


Until then I'll do my best
Until then, I'll continue to fight and do what I can to cope


Cause I know that I'm up next
I have hope for my future and believe that I can succeed


So these girls all wanna text me
My struggles have attracted attention from others, but it doesn't necessarily bring me happiness




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Written by: Jason O'Toole

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@sforsome601

Lyrics
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doin' fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leavin'
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
The pictures that you sent me, they're still livin' in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leavin'
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leavin'
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all



@Abhinavnair1103

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I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all



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@ohno5749

2014: Crying in the bathroom
2019:CRYING HARDER

@nataliem863

You should probably get out of the bathroom then, if you’ve been crying in there since 2014

@woodywoowoo8353

@@nataliem863 dont be a d***😂

@xobree

@@woodywoowoo8353 😂🤣

@yannah5198

wtf I'm literally sitting on my bathroom counter

@fannyemanuelson4052

I'm crying while writing this

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@caesard5641

it's 2024 and I still love this song

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2024

@linanounou5785

Same

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2024

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