Lust
SAINt JHN Lyrics

I don't usually smoke, but the night feel right
I am not used to smoking, but tonight feels like the perfect night for it.

And I don't usually drink, but the light's so bright
Normally, I don't drink but the brightness of the light is making me crave alcohol.

But I'm scared of too much, but that'll light this place
I am afraid of the consequences of indulging too much in smoking and drinking, but at the same time, those might make the place lighter.

She said, 'You can get it', so you know the right price
When someone says 'You can get it', they are insinuating that it will cost money.

Lotta' time baby girl, could be somebody you love
You are spending a lot of time with this girl and it could potentially lead to love.

They're really tryna' move slow, she told me, 'Nah, don't rush'
They are trying to take things slow, but she is not interested in that and wants to move faster.

I threw the dollar in the air, but I know I can't touch
He threw a dollar in the air, but he cannot touch it anymore as he has already spent it.

A little more champagne
He wants a little more champagne to enhance his experience.

I'm ashamed of the thing that we know is lust
He is feeling ashamed of the fact that what they are feeling is only lust and not love.

But I need it by tonight
He needs this experience tonight, no matter what.

Bottles, it rainin' so slowly
The bottles are being poured very slowly.

But it doesn't matter, I'm in too deep, and I know
He is already too deeply invested and he knows it doesn't matter anymore.

I've come this far, I can't fuckin' complain
He has already come this far, so he cannot complain anymore about the situation.

I get the seats with the desk on the plane
He has achieved a level of success where he can now afford to have seats with desks on planes.

Parts of my past I'm not proud to admit
There are aspects of his past that he is not proud of and doesn't want to admit.

So I will confess, there's no truth in the name
He wants to confess that his name is not entirely truthful.

Nigga I'm King Kong to these Snow Whites
He feels like King Kong to these white women.

These eyes can adjust really good in the low lights
His eyes can adjust to low lights very well.

I been around 'em my whole life
He has been around women his whole life.

Thank Jesus, a nigga never turned to a low life
He thanks Jesus for not turning into a lowlife.

Still fuckin' holy, drugs in the crown moldin'
He is still holy despite having drugs hidden in the crown moldings.

Still feelin' like I'm Pac when I'm rollin'
He feels like Tupac when he is rolling (driving around).

Money is the motive, gotta' tell them what the mode is
Money is the reason behind his actions, and he needs to let people know what he is doing.

Hopin' I can stay alive in the moment
He is hoping he can survive in the moment and the uncertain circumstances.

Still got my mind made up
He still has his mind decided on something.

You don't wanna' see the fuck I'm made of
You don't want to see what he is capable of doing.

Boy you better ind your behavior
He is warning someone to control their behavior.

This is the beginnin', only lookin' at the beta
This is just the beginning, and he is only looking at the first version (beta) of something.

Never settled down, nigga never go slow
He has never settled down, and he has always been a fast-paced person.

Ride or die nigga, need my own GoPro
He is a ride or die person and needs his GoPro to document his experiences.

Gotta' feed the fam', this is all I know
He has to provide for his family, and this is the only thing he knows how to do.

Love for my niggas, these are all my bros
He has love for his friends, and they are like his brothers.

And all I fuckin' know is the risk
He only knows the risk involved in what he is doing.

Ain't' talkin' money, then they ain't' don't exist
If it's not about money, then it doesn't exist for him.

My intuition is follow the vision
He follows his intuition and continues to pursue his vision.

First you caught a wave, but then you went adrift
At first, you were on a roll and doing well, but then you got lost.

And I came from the dirt, but I'm oh so vain
He came from poverty, but he is now vain and materialistic.

Started from the block but I'm on Cobain
He started from the bottom, but now he is on Cobain's level (a reference to Kurt Cobain, who was very successful).

I do not say this shit just for display
He doesn't say things just for show.

I pray you don't give me reasons to pray
He prays that people won't give him reasons to pray (as in, praying for forgiveness).

And a nigga know better baby, I'm a rider
He knows better than anyone that he is a rider (in the sense of always on the move).

Too late now they can't save us
It's too late now for anyone to save him.

Ain't' never felt nothing liver
He has never felt anything more real or intense than this experience.

Just the way that the dream made us
The way the dream (of success) left them feeling is indescribable.