Serenity
SLEEP WAKER Lyrics

This sickness is growing and drowning me slowly
The negative thoughts and experiences that I hold within are overpowering me and pulling me under.

The scars of my past are what keep me from growing
The emotional pain and trauma from my past experiences is hindering my personal growth and development.

Will I fall into the dark
Am I going to allow my negative feelings to consume me completely?

Let it swallow me whole
I'm considering surrendering to these feelings and letting them completely take over.

Seems like I have it together then I unravel in the blink of an eye
I may appear to be stable and strong, but in reality, my emotions fluctuate wildly and without warning.

This silence is deafening, and it feels like I am (Seconds from the end, a blinding light surrounds me)
The quietness around me is overwhelming, and it feels as though I'm on the brink of collapse. I'm hoping for a sudden change.

Serenity
A state of tranquility and calmness.

Peaceful for the moment
Momentarily free from stress and worry.

Find beauty in the clarity
Being able to see through the chaos and confusion and find peace in the simplicity and beauty of things.

From bitter thoughts that follow me
Despite this moment of calm, negative thoughts and emotions are never far behind me.

I am so afraid to swallow my pride
I'm scared to admit the truth about my emotional state, worried about being seen as weak or vulnerable.

Look you in the face and tell you I'm not really doing fine
I want to be honest about my struggles and pain, despite the fear of judgment or rejection.

Will my cries for help be heard or will they fall to the wayside
I'm unsure whether I'll receive the support I need, or whether my struggles will be ignored or dismissed.

I never thought I'd feel so fucking miserable
I never imagined my emotional state could get this bad or overwhelming.

Chewed up and spit out by my self loathing actions
My own negative thoughts and feelings are constantly causing me harm and distress.

Hanging on by a thread just to get through the day
I'm barely holding on, doing my best to make it through one day at a time.

This burden I hold is heavy
The weight of my emotional pain and trauma is extremely difficult to bear.

The price to pay is all my own
I'm the only one who can bear the consequences of my emotions and past experiences.

I'm lost, but at what fucking cost?
I feel aimless and without direction, but I'm uncertain what it's all for.

This pain I hold is here to stay
I'm coming to the painful realization that these emotional scars may be with me forever.

Hanging on by a thread
Barely managing to stay afloat and hold on despite the difficulties.