Midnight Thoughts
SadBoyProlific Lyrics
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And then, act like I'm alright
Say I'll go to sleep
But then I'll stay up all night
And honestly
I think that theres something
Very wrong with me
Writing down these lines
I usually spend the night
Locked inside my head
Thoughts about my ex
And the days that I will be dead
Mood is suicidal
This is just me in denial
Burn my feelings in a pile
I can't find the strength to smile
Say they're tired of the sad shit
Sorry that it's how I feel
Ain't nobody bumps my shit
I'm sorry that I lack appeal
I just wanna cruise around
Kick it with the top down
Taller then these fools
But they still wanna talk down
Like what did I do
To spite you
Don't wanna fight you
Chillin' in the darkness
I'm just tryna spread some light dude
And lately I have noticed
That they hate everything I do
I don't see the point to life
So I spark up like Raichu
And honestly I'm sorry
If I ever caused you pain
But it will be erased
With a bullet to the brain
Slit my wrists with the razor
That I use to sever ties
I hate when girls I love
Move on to the better guys
I'm tired of missing people
That will never miss me
See the pain inside my eyes
And every time it gets me
And I know I'm not good enough
For anyone to love me
I'm really not that funny
And most peope think I'm ugly
I'm sorry that I'm not enough
Sorry that I'm not that tough
I know my body's not that buff
But maybe I can still find love
And Cupids just another demon
Sent to haunt me
Say I wanna move on
But then old feelings stop me
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
The lyrics to SadBoyProlific's "Midnight Thoughts" are a powerful reflection on the singer's struggles with mental health, self-image, and feelings of inadequacy. In the song, the artist wears a facade, pretending that he is alright and will go to sleep, but instead, stays up all night alone with his thoughts. He admits that there is something very wrong with him and that writing down his feelings does not come out as songs but as a reflection of his pain. He spends most of his nights locked inside his head, dwelling on thoughts about his ex and the days when he will be dead. The artist's mood is suicidal, and he is in denial as he tries to burn his feelings in a pile, but he cannot find the strength to smile.
As he speaks about his struggles with self-worth, the artist says that he is sorry for being sad and that he knows people are tired of him being that way. He wishes he could find happiness and just cruise around or spread some light, but he feels that people still want to talk down on him, even if he has not done anything to spite them. He recognizes that people hate everything he does and does not see the point to life, so he sparks up like Raichu. There is a sense of resignation to his fate, and the artist apologizes if he ever caused anyone pain, but he believes that those pains will be erased with a bullet to the brain.
The song conveys a sense of despair and desperation, as the artist seems to have no hope for the future. He is tired of missing people that will never miss him and is fully aware that he is not good enough for anyone to love. He feels that Cupid is just another demon sent to haunt him and that he is stuck in old feelings that stop him from moving on. Overall, "Midnight Thoughts" is a poignant commentary on depression and self-hatred, where the artist bares his soul to the listener and shows how mental health issues can manifest in everyday life.
Line by Line Meaning
Yo, I throw on a facade
I put on a fake persona
And then, act like I'm alright
Pretend that everything is okay
Say I'll go to sleep
Lie about going to sleep
But then I'll stay up all night
Stay awake all night
And honestly
Truthfully
I think that theres something
I suspect that there is something wrong
Very wrong with me
Terribly wrong with me
Writing down these lines
Putting my thoughts into words
But they just do not seem like songs to me
But it doesn't feel like music to me
I usually spend the night
I normally spend the night
Locked inside my head
Trapped in my thoughts
Thoughts about my ex
Thoughts about my former romantic partner
And the days that I will be dead
And the days when I will no longer be alive
Mood is suicidal
My mood is indicative of suicidal thoughts
This is just me in denial
This is me refusing to acknowledge the truth
Burn my feelings in a pile
Destroy my emotions in a fire
I can't find the strength to smile
I cannot muster the strength to smile
Say they're tired of the sad shit
People claim to be tired of my sorrowful music
Sorry that it's how I feel
Apologize for my emotional expression
Ain't nobody bumps my shit
Nobody listens to my music
I'm sorry that I lack appeal
I apologize for not being appealing enough
I just wanna cruise around
I just want to drive around aimlessly
Kick it with the top down
Drive a convertible with the top down
Taller then these fools
Physically taller than my haters
But they still wanna talk down
They still want to speak negatively about me
Like what did I do
Asking myself what I did wrong
To spite you
To intentionally hurt you
Don't wanna fight you
I don't want to argue with you
Chillin' in the darkness
Relaxing in the dark
I'm just tryna spread some light dude
I'm just trying to share positive energy
And lately I have noticed
Recently I have observed
That they hate everything I do
That they dislike everything I create or accomplish
I don't see the point to life
I don't understand the purpose of living
So I spark up like Raichu
So I smoke marijuana
And honestly I'm sorry
And truthfully I apologize
If I ever caused you pain
If I ever made you suffer
But it will be erased
But it will be erased/ gone forever
With a bullet to the brain
Through taking my own life
Slit my wrists with the razor
Cut my own wrists with a razor
That I use to sever ties
That I use to cut connections from people
I hate when girls I love
I dislike it when I love someone and they move on
Move on to the better guys
Move on to someone more capable than myself
I'm tired of missing people
I'm exhausted from continually missing people who cannot return the feeling
That will never miss me
Who will never miss my presence
See the pain inside my eyes
Can see my suffering through my eyes
And every time it gets me
And every time it affects me deeply
And I know I'm not good enough
And I realize that I'm not adequate
For anyone to love me
For anyone to romantically care for me
I'm really not that funny
I don't possess much humor
And most people think I'm ugly
And most people don't find my appearance attractive
I'm sorry that I'm not enough
I apologize for not being adequate
Sorry that I'm not that tough
Sorry that I'm not strong or resilient enough
I know my body's not that buff
I know my body isn't very muscular
But maybe I can still find love
Perhaps I can still find love regardless
And Cupids just another demon
The idea of love is merely another obstacle or source of pain for me
Sent to haunt me
Sent to constantly trouble me
Say I wanna move on
I claim that I want to move forward
But then old feelings stop me
But then nostalgia or prior emotions impede me
I'm sorry
I apologize
Writer(s): Evan Helm
Contributed by Xavier W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
mha anime lover
on Alone
SadBoy Prolific your so amazing you helped me out when I felt like no body was by my side so thank you for every thing❤️
mha anime lover
on Broken Trust
I feel the same way a lot
mha anime lover
on Alone
I love all of these songs so much