In 2008 Sadistik made his name with the provocatively fearless debut album "The Balancing Act." This record has been heralded by many critics as "hip hop's answer for winter albums" (SputnikMusic.com) for its fearlessly emotional potency because "after you are done listening to [it] you feel as though you have the world's strongest drug in your veins." When this sound was combined with the collaborations with Rhymesayers recording artist Mac Lethal and Vast Aire from Cannibal Ox fame, it becomes clear why so many have considered this to be an underground classic. Following the release of "The Balancing Act" was the release of the music video for the single titled "Searching for Some Beautiful" which was accepted by MTVu and well-received by fans and new listeners alike.
Following the success of "The Balancing Act" was 2010's operatic opus "The Art of Dying" with Chicago-bred producer Kid Called Computer. Again displaying his relentless knack to stray from rap music's norms, Sadistik and Kid Called Computer opted to create a conceptually unique album more akin to progressive rock than what is accepted as hip-hop with "beautifully married gloomy progressions with [...] gorgeous chaos in the music" (RapReviews.com). Whether it be the grandiose live rock crescendo of "Save Yourself" or the nearly 8 minute epic tale of school violence in "Bed of Flowers," Sadistik showed that he was not aiming to meet expectations but to shatter them into as many pieces as possible with a sound that "goes inside of you and eats it's way out from the inside [...] by being beautiful and painful at the same time" (GutsandGrog.com).
Sadistik's efforts are not limited to recordings, however, as he can be found performing his intimate yet intensely energetic shows around his home of Seattle and around various cities in the United States as well as internationally. In 2011 alone, Sadistik has independently toured in nearly every region of The United States as well as nine countries in Europe including: Germany, Switzerland, Denmark, France, and Austria. Sadistik has also shared the stage with hip hop icons such as: Tech N9ne, Slaughterhouse, Bone Thugs N Harmony, D12, Cage, Eyedea & Abilities, The Grouch, Zion I, etc.
Currently, Sadistik is preparing his official follow up to "The Balancing Act" titled "Flowers for My Father" that will be released on Fake Four Records, as well as finishing a collaborative album with Emancipator and penning his first poetry book.
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Exit Theme
Sadistik Lyrics
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I am the only one they made
Cast from charming bones and clay
On that cold Winter’s day or so they say
We are the last known to exist
Hiding shine remote cliffs
We prefer it that way
Please leave us just like this
[Verse One: Astronautalis]
I used to hammer sheet metal till my palms bled
Cash my pay check at the bar then drink the whole thing
Catch a pheasant with my bare hands, take her home with me
Wake up at 5am and make it back to work to start again
You're sweating whiskey in your first shift
By lunch break you're feeling worthless
And soon you're cracking jokes with workers
By the time the final whistle blows, your body's feeling perfect
So let's celebrate the good times
Another round for the old guys
And to that pretty thing with glazed eyes
I ain't asking for a dance, I'm just hoping for a great night
[Hook: Astronautalis (Sadistik)]
Cause when the stopwatch dies we all drop like flies, so what's the point in being free to die (Right?)
(You see it's not my time, I thought I lost my mind but instead it found a place to hide)
Keep your fucking keys, I don't need to drive (nah), I'll just run for the rest of the night
(Empty handle with my tongue on the edge of a knife, make me young, make me numb, till my exit arrives)
[Bridge: Lotte Kestner]
My heart it pounds, so I can't make out a sound
I've come this far, and I couldn’t live without you now
If my heart beats now, then I'll go turn around
If you know me, nobody does
[Verse Two: Sadistik]
Damaged goods tend to hide in pretty packages
Saddened looks get disguised in witty adages
It's our dramatic twist, come watch the magic tricks
Abracadabra, necromancer sawed in half again
So I mutter some witty quips
If love is to give a glimpse, what's under my skinny ribs
A couple of whiskey sips or something to get me fixed
Before I'm antisocial like it's Buffalo 66 in here
So is it beautiful or frail?
I feel like Ouroboros when I'm chewing on my tail
The crows can form a chorus when the funeral prevails
It shows a glowing orange when the moon is full and pale
Wide awake and rueful, looking for a light to break the stupor
Of the types of grey that dilate my pupils
I can taste the sucrose on the tip of my tongue-y tongue
From tidal waves I'm running from but isn't it funny once it's done?
[Hook]
The song Exit Theme by Sadistik featuring Astronautalis and Lotte Kestner is a deep dive into the complexities of human emotions and existence, exploring themes of isolation, mortality, and the struggle for meaningful connection. The opening lines of the song set the tone for what's to come, with Sadistik and Astronautalis describing themselves as unique creations and the last remnants of their kind, preferring to exist in seclusion away from the rest of the world. The verses that follow describe a life of hardship, pain, and the overwhelming desire to find some semblance of pleasure and meaning in a world that seems determined to grind us all down.
Astronautalis talks about his past experiences of drinking and working tirelessly, and of feeling worthless and swamped by the struggle. He describes a desire to connect with others, even if only for a fleeting moment, and the relief that comes with being able to escape the mundane realities of daily life. Sadistik, on the other hand, explores the darker, more introspective side of human existence, contemplating the nature of love, mortality, and the tenuousness of life. He describes himself as a damaged good, hiding behind witty one-liners and funny jokes in an attempt to mask the pain and isolation that he feels.
Together, the three artists weave together a captivating and thought-provoking narrative that forces listeners to confront their own existential anxieties and desires. The haunting vocals of Lotte Kestner provide a beautiful contrast to the often harsh and somber lyrics, highlighting the delicacy and fragility of the human condition.
Line by Line Meaning
I am the only one they made
I am unique and one-of-a-kind, created by a higher power.
Cast from charming bones and clay
Created from the most beautiful and pure materials.
On that cold Winter’s day or so they say
The details of my creation are uncertain and shrouded in mystery.
We are the last known to exist
We are a rare and dying breed, possibly the only ones left in the world.
Hiding shine remote cliffs
We keep ourselves hidden away from the rest of the world, tucked away in remote and isolated places.
We prefer it that way
We like being alone and keeping to ourselves, away from the prying eyes and judgments of others.
Please leave us just like this
We ask that others respect our desire for solitude and not disrupt our peaceful existence.
Cause when the stopwatch dies we all drop like flies, so what's the point in being free to die (Right?)
Since we are all mortal and will eventually die, what's the point in living life recklessly and without purpose?
(You see it's not my time, I thought I lost my mind but instead it found a place to hide)
I thought I was going crazy, but instead I found a way to cope with the difficulties of life.
Keep your fucking keys, I don't need to drive (nah), I'll just run for the rest of the night
I don't need material possessions or substances to escape reality; I can find solace in simply running and being free.
(Empty handle with my tongue on the edge of a knife, make me young, make me numb, till my exit arrives)
I seek temporary relief from my problems through reckless behavior and substance abuse, until death takes me away.
My heart it pounds, so I can't make out a sound
I am so overwhelmed with emotion that I cannot even speak.
I've come this far, and I couldn’t live without you now
I have become so dependent on someone or something that living without them seems impossible.
If my heart beats now, then I'll go turn around
If I have the chance to be with someone or something I love, I will turn back and take it.
If you know me, nobody does
Despite being in a relationship or being known by others, no one truly understands my inner thoughts and emotions.
Damaged goods tend to hide in pretty packages
Those who have been hurt or broken in the past often try to cover up their pain and present themselves as perfect or flawless.
Saddened looks get disguised in witty adages
Those who are hurting may use humor and cleverness to distract from their pain and sadness.
It's our dramatic twist, come watch the magic tricks
We use our pain and suffering as a way to create art and be creative, making something beautiful out of something ugly.
A couple of whiskey sips or something to get me fixed
I try to numb my pain and escape reality through substance abuse.
Before I'm antisocial like it's Buffalo 66 in here
I try to avoid isolating myself from others and becoming reclusive and withdrawn.
It shows a glowing orange when the moon is full and pale
There is beauty in darkness and pain, just like the glowing orange of the moon during a full and pale night.
From tidal waves I'm running from but isn't it funny once it's done?
Despite trying to escape pain and problems, it can sometimes be amusing and ironic looking back on the experience once it has passed.
Contributed by Xavier G. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@shrediknight4738
This is my favorite song on this album. Does anyone else relate to this!!! this is crazy...
@seanmcbride879
this and the exception to everything. the two go really well back to back.
@seanmcbride879
+sean mcbride and yes I'm aware there not on the same album. O.o
@eyedea8457
everyday
@souleater307
this is diffidently the highlight of this album. sads lines have so many complex words and fazes its hard to keep up with almost. and is actually the reason i watched buffalo 66'. a must watch movie to understand that line.
@thatguy6638
Melancholia and this.
@jakethesnake1023
one of the most beautiful songs ever
@penguinnootnootp2319
absolutely
@crystalr7827
'Make me young
Make me numb
Till my exit arrives....'
Perfection
@flagg1975
I can't decide between this or Melancholia. Both songs are genius.