Melancholia
Sadistik Lyrics

My body's made of cells and cells are made to keep you caged
The singer believes that his physical body is a prison that his mind is trapped in.

I keep awake to celebrate my sweet escape
The singer stays up late to enjoy the freedom he feels when he is not trapped in his physical form.

I've seen the flames of this hell and made it either way
The singer has experienced the pain and suffering of life, but has managed to survive and continue on.

So why be afraid, It's okay
The artist is trying to reassure himself that he doesn't need to be afraid of the challenges he will face.

It's just fire it's just love it's just us
The artist is trying to minimize the importance of his struggles and approach them with a sense of detachment.

It's just trust it's just this once
The singer is trying to find meaning in his life by trusting in the present moment.

When these small talk graces keep me warm
The singer finds comfort in superficial, meaningless conversations with others.

Like a small-pox blanket in a storm
The artist is comparing these small talk graces to a contaminated blanket that provides temporary relief from difficult circumstances.

When the rainfalls and entrenches all that gets touched
The artist is acknowledging the destructive force that bad experiences can have on a person's life.

Making evergreens to defend against the next one
The artist believes that people need to build resilience in order to withstand future difficult experiences.

I'll take a Redrum neat or on the rocks
The singer is referencing a drink called Redrum, which is a nod to Stephen King's 'The Shining', and using it as a way to cope with his problems.

One of these cocktails will be a molotov
The artist is suggesting that his drinking may lead him to destructive behavior.

If I keep it up eyes shut and my feet are stuck
The singer realizes that his drinking habits and other negative behaviors are keeping him from making progress in his life.

Icarus wings adjust just so I can reach the sun
The singer is referencing the myth of Icarus, who flew too close to the sun and fell to his death. He is suggesting that he is taking risks in order to chase his dreams.

So I can sing with such ardor I deplete my lungs
The singer is willing to push himself to the limit in order to achieve his goals and express himself fully.

And my heart beats so much that it starts seizing up
The artist is experiencing anxiety and fear due to the intensity of his emotions and the pressure he is putting on himself.

These are the symptoms of an optimist
The artist is acknowledging that despite the difficulties he is facing, he still has hope for the future.

Melancholia kissed him on his bottom lip
The singer is personifying 'melancholia' as a lover who has just kissed him. He is suggesting that he is comfortable with feelings of sadness and despair.

And here I am, a picture of accomplishment
Despite his struggles, the singer has accomplished enough in his life to feel proud of himself.

Mixture of the opposites insecure and confident
The artist has conflicting feelings about himself and his abilities.

So is this a path of glory
The artist is questioning whether his current path in life will lead him to success and happiness.

Or a dead end to a lonely saddened story
The artist is worried that he may be making choices that will lead him to an unhappy, isolated life.

Where I buried my confession I married my depression
The singer is saying that he has hidden his feelings of sadness and despair rather than confronting them. He is 'married' to his depression because he is unwilling to let it go.

Now the holy matrimony's grown to owing alimony
The artist is using a metaphor of marriage and divorce to describe his relationship with his depression. He feels trapped by it and is constantly paying for it in some way.

Show me what I hide beneath my grin, under my deceitful skin's
The singer is asking someone to help him uncover the hidden parts of himself that he keeps hidden from the world. He feels like he is living a lie and wants to be more authentic.

Another guy I'd like to meet, I wonder why he seems so grim
The singer has an idealized version of himself that he aspires to become, but he is unsure why this version of himself seems so unhappy.

Every piece of him they subdivide to equal bits
The singer believes that in order to achieve his ideal self, he needs to break himself down into smaller, more manageable pieces.

To pitch into the ocean told 'em love is blind so sink or swim
The artist is saying that he is willing to take risks and make sacrifices in order to achieve his goals. He is willing to leave things behind in order to move forward.

And so I oblige breast stroking side to side
The artist is metaphorically swimming through life, making slow progress but always moving forward.

Till the stroke inside my breast gets hold and I abide
The singer is saying that he will continue to forge ahead until he can no longer do so, at which point he will accept his fate and move on.

And so by and by I try to fight a tide that's tidal sized
The singer is trying to resist the powerful forces in his life that push him in certain directions. He is struggling to find his own path.

Until my vital signs subside and I write my goodbyes
The artist is saying that he will keep fighting until he can no longer continue, at which point he will prepare to die.

To my friends that are dropping like flies
The artist has lost many friends and is coming to terms with his own mortality.

It's a trend that I'll follow in time
The artist believes that death is inevitable and that he will also die eventually, just like his friends.

I pretend that I ought to be fine
The singer is trying to convince himself that he is okay and can continue living his life without his friends.

Getting dizzy once again from these wandering eyes of mine
The artist is experiencing confusion and disorientation because he is unable to find a clear path forward. He is lost and uncertain.

I need some R & R I think I'll drink some R & R
The singer is using alcohol as a coping mechanism to help him relax and forget about his problems.

Sip spirits lift spirits then I'll raise the bar at bars
The singer is saying that alcohol makes him feel better, so he will continue to drink and enjoy himself in social settings.

I bring the darkest part of myself door to door
The singer is acknowledging that he has a dark side to himself and that he is not proud of it. However, he is also willing to show it to others in order to be authentic.

Let's press our chests together then we'll have a heart to heart
The artist is looking for someone to connect with on a deeper level, to have a genuine conversation and share their emotions with each other.

I saw a falling star and didn't wish upon it
The artist is saying that he doesn't believe in luck or destiny, and that he is in control of his own life.

If you're not that superstitious you don't get that disappointed
The singer is suggesting that if you don't believe in luck or superstition, you won't be let down when things don't go your way.

I'll never say I'm different, cause I've never made a difference
The singer doesn't think that he has made a significant impact on the world, and he is not trying to be special or different from anyone else.

And I've yet to pay attention to the debt that I've avoided
The artist has been avoiding the negative consequences of his choices, but he knows that he will have to face them eventually.

I set to write a portrait out of my emotional confessions
The artist is trying to express himself through his art, using his emotions and experiences to create something new.

This is spring cleaning for a closet full of bone collections
The artist is using his art as a way to confront and deal with the skeletons in his closet, the things he has been hiding and avoiding in his life.

I'm not alone the monochrome is so infectious
The singer is acknowledging that there are other people who feel the same way he does, and that they are drawn to each other because of their shared experiences.

But I won't regret it if I follow all my own directions
The artist is saying that he will not have any regrets in life if he stays true to himself and follows his own path, even if it leads him to failure or disappointment.