In 2008 Sadistik made his name with the provocatively fearless debut album "The Balancing Act." This record has been heralded by many critics as "hip hop's answer for winter albums" (SputnikMusic.com) for its fearlessly emotional potency because "after you are done listening to [it] you feel as though you have the world's strongest drug in your veins." When this sound was combined with the collaborations with Rhymesayers recording artist Mac Lethal and Vast Aire from Cannibal Ox fame, it becomes clear why so many have considered this to be an underground classic. Following the release of "The Balancing Act" was the release of the music video for the single titled "Searching for Some Beautiful" which was accepted by MTVu and well-received by fans and new listeners alike.
Following the success of "The Balancing Act" was 2010's operatic opus "The Art of Dying" with Chicago-bred producer Kid Called Computer. Again displaying his relentless knack to stray from rap music's norms, Sadistik and Kid Called Computer opted to create a conceptually unique album more akin to progressive rock than what is accepted as hip-hop with "beautifully married gloomy progressions with [...] gorgeous chaos in the music" (RapReviews.com). Whether it be the grandiose live rock crescendo of "Save Yourself" or the nearly 8 minute epic tale of school violence in "Bed of Flowers," Sadistik showed that he was not aiming to meet expectations but to shatter them into as many pieces as possible with a sound that "goes inside of you and eats it's way out from the inside [...] by being beautiful and painful at the same time" (GutsandGrog.com).
Sadistik's efforts are not limited to recordings, however, as he can be found performing his intimate yet intensely energetic shows around his home of Seattle and around various cities in the United States as well as internationally. In 2011 alone, Sadistik has independently toured in nearly every region of The United States as well as nine countries in Europe including: Germany, Switzerland, Denmark, France, and Austria. Sadistik has also shared the stage with hip hop icons such as: Tech N9ne, Slaughterhouse, Bone Thugs N Harmony, D12, Cage, Eyedea & Abilities, The Grouch, Zion I, etc.
Currently, Sadistik is preparing his official follow up to "The Balancing Act" titled "Flowers for My Father" that will be released on Fake Four Records, as well as finishing a collaborative album with Emancipator and penning his first poetry book.
For all booking and press inquiries please contact: Sadistikpro@gmail.com.
Sirens
Sadistik Lyrics
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See me go back and forth
This is not self control
Trapped in a mild state
Settled in my old ways
Never been here I'm sure
Never this far before
Oddly I'm not afraid
Then I go on and cave
How do I speak to me
Only in harsher tones
Only so I can't breath
I do this to myself
Speaking in secrets I can't tell
Put it all on the edge
Picking it up I fell
Sadistik:
Butterflies die when I cover my eyes
You poured salt on the cuts on my mind
Tongue full of venom in these summertime nights
Jump from a edifice what if I fly?
Yea I been drifting off, in a fog, centers synagogue
Listening to inner gods telling me I’m different
Like a demagogue, I don’t want to interrupt
Cinema in the cuts, indicas inhale in my crystal lungs
Til it looks like an evergreen’s inside me
Seasonal leaves seem to redefine me
They deify things I leave behind
Sing in minor keys I don’t see the irony
Iron lung but my teeth are ivory
Mama says that she thinks I’m out of reach
Girlfriend says she don’t see that side of me
I don’t say shit I just keep it silent
The sunset on Sunset’s peach and violet
No more blood-letting when the leeches bite me
One more love letter ‘fore the creatures find us
I’ll show you the shadows that my secrets hide in
Take what they need then they leave you lifeless
A chrysalis lives so deep inside you
Below the surface where demons riot
A broken person grows so subversive
Choke on words so the screams are quiet
Can’t hear the sirens though they keep their eye on me
Maybe one day I’ll learn to cease my fire
I hope you’re still there when I seek asylum
Wicca Phase Springs Eternal:
Here I am back again
Silhouette of a shell I am
Still in a darkened place
Fighting another hell I am
Something here hurts my head
Something here leaves me strange
Nothing can hold me back
No one here knows my name
Then I go on and cave
How do I speak to me
Only in harsher tones
Only so I can't breath
I do this to myself
Speaking in secrets I can't tell
Put it all on the edge
Picking it up I fell"
See me go back and forth
I am indecisive and uncertain
This is not self control
I cannot control my actions or emotions
Trapped in a mild state
I am stuck in a state of anxiety or depression
Settled in my old ways
I am comfortable with my negative patterns and behaviors
Never been here I'm sure
I am struggling with something new
Never this far before
This struggle is more intense than anything I've faced before
Even though I'm unsafe
Despite the danger or risk involved, I am still engaging in harmful behaviors
Oddly I'm not afraid
I am numb to the consequences of my actions
Then I go on and cave
I give in to my negative impulses
How do I speak to me
I struggle with self-talk and negative self-talk
Only in harsher tones
I am overly critical of myself
Only so I can't breath
My negative self-talk is suffocating me
I do this to myself
My negative patterns and behaviors are self-inflicted
Speaking in secrets I can't tell
I am keeping my struggles hidden from others and myself
Put it all on the edge
I am teetering on the edge of disaster
Picking it up I fell
I try to fix my problems, but end up making them worse
Butterflies die when I cover my eyes
I am avoiding the truth and the consequences of my actions
You poured salt on the cuts on my mind
You worsened my mental pain and struggles
Tongue full of venom in these summertime nights
I am full of anger and negativity
Jump from a edifice what if I fly?
I am contemplating suicide and the possibility of a freedom beyond life
Yea I been drifting off, in a fog, centers synagogue
I am lost and disconnected from reality and my sense of self
Listening to inner gods telling me I’m different
I am wrestling with my own identity and purpose
Like a demagogue, I don’t want to interrupt
I am afraid of the consequences of speaking out and standing up for myself
Cinema in the cuts, indicas inhale in my crystal lungs
I am using drugs to escape reality
Til it looks like an evergreen’s inside me
The drugs have taken over my mind and body
Seasonal leaves seem to redefine me
The changes in my life and my environment are affecting me deeply
They deify things I leave behind
My past struggles and negative patterns are being glorified and worshipped by others
Sing in minor keys I don’t see the irony
I am blind to the negativity and sadness in my life
Iron lung but my teeth are ivory
I am suffocating under the weight of my struggles, but I am still pretending to be strong
Mama says that she thinks I’m out of reach
My loved ones are worried about me and feel powerless to help
Girlfriend says she don’t see that side of me
My partner does not see the depth of my struggles and pain
I don’t say shit I just keep it silent
I am keeping my struggles and pain hidden from those around me
The sunset on Sunset’s peach and violet
Despite my struggles, there is still beauty in the world
No more blood-letting when the leeches bite me
I am no longer allowing others to take advantage of me or my struggles
One more love letter ‘fore the creatures find us
I want to express my love to someone before my struggles consume me
I’ll show you the shadows that my secrets hide in
I am willing to open up and reveal my deepest struggles and pain to someone I trust
Take what they need then they leave you lifeless
Others will take advantage of you and your struggles if you let them
A chrysalis lives so deep inside you
There is the potential for change and growth inside of me
Below the surface where demons riot
I am battling internal demons and negative thoughts
A broken person grows so subversive
My struggles have shaped me into a complex and multifaceted person
Choke on words so the screams are quiet
I can't express my struggles and pain, so I suffer in silence
Can’t hear the sirens though they keep their eye on me
I am detached from reality and unaware of the danger I am in
Maybe one day I’ll learn to cease my fire
I hope to someday find peace and stop struggling with my negative patterns
I hope you’re still there when I seek asylum
I hope to have someone who will support me and help me through my struggles
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
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@ZKEEKZ
We need a whole Sadistik x Wicca album.
@yonahgreene7160
I looked up sadistic on Spotify to see what would come up and came across you and this song. Your profile and name looked straight out of a horror movie but I was curious what your songs were like so I gave this one a shot. One of the most deeply poetic songs I've ever listened to. It's in a genre of its own and a real work of art
@jakethesnake1023
i can only hope you kept going through his discography after this song. As a writer the guy is on another planet. One of my favorite poets ever
@frankymc3094
I can give you a list of amazing songs by him & other artists similar you would love
@ryanh4145
The most underrated artist ever.
@noxxsikkmusic8943
Both them
@wiktorskwara4229
The beat is amazing af
@tdorsey9873
Thanks for never taking a break Sadistik. Always something new, still can never get enough.
@darwingiovanni5046
Your lyricism though is always still evolving like how can one man constantly make this much progression in such a short amount of time 😩
@sumwonkool
Well he’s been making music for over a decade and a half lol. I wouldn’t say progressing in such a short amount of time. I was bumpin sadistik in 2005