Russian Roulette
Sadistik feat. Cage & Yes Alexander Lyrics
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I’m a victim of an over-active limbic system
Follow me and you will know the madness that I live in
No magic, just an open casket criticism
Carry me inside or you can bury me alive right
When we met it was innocent enough
I said hi it’s nice to meet you I am mister self destruct
I’m in your blood you’re a victim of the rush
Make more beds of nails so you can stay warm
Sang chords in a medley ’til my face tore
Pray for living dead that walk and pace forth
Rain pours in my head, it’s called a brainstorm
This game you’re playing is so tedious
Black out on white lies and blame it on bulimia
Yea, now I’m saying all your secrets huh
Should’ve thought twice before you grazed with your demon’s touch
No disrespect but the real love doesn’t show
’til I kiss your neck and my steel tongue cuts your throat
I feel numb when the tears run uncontrolled
Like it’s synthemesc and I steal some of your soul
Until the self-help starts
When you’d bite my heart to see if it was really made of gold
I extinguished flames until hell fell dark
And buried bodies under floorboards like Tell Tale Heart, so run
(Yes Alexander)
I will watch you pray
As the steel shaft enters your brain
Tell me baby how many times
One thousand tries
And you’re still alive
(Cage)
I don’t really think that I’m often ill
What would you wear to death a cross or nil
Should’ve known she was only out to fill
Some sort of void I was out to kill
Any time left was the sand that fell
Anything to keep me from standing still
Spend it like you happened to land a mil
Wake up throwing up random pills
You want to feel it under your bones in your marrow
You hope cupid ran off with more arrows
Better off in passage ways to find pharaohs
When the road you walk is too narrow
Start flying stop falling
Like you did when you first stopped crawling
Threw it all on the table and went all in
Cause I knew it had to be my calling
(Sadistik) x4
Nothing’s what it seems, life is but a dream
And I’m busy sleepwalking to find out what it means.
The lyrics to Sadistik's "Russian Roulette" explain the intense emotional and mental turmoil that the singer is experiencing, largely brought on by their own self-destructive tendencies. The first verse describes the singer's over-active limbic system, which is responsible for regulating emotions, and how it leads to madness. The singer warns others that following them will only reveal the same madness. The second half of the verse describes how the singer's self-destructive tendencies and tendency towards criticism are leading them down a dangerous path. The second verse features Cage rapping about his own issues with addiction and self-destructiveness, describing how he spends his time and money in order to avoid facing his problems. The chorus sung by Yes Alexander adds a dark and eerie tone to the song, referencing the inevitability of death and how the singer is constantly tempting fate.
Overall, the lyrics to "Russian Roulette" are a raw and honest examination of mental health struggles, addiction, and self-destructive tendencies. The three artists offer a glimpse into their own experiences with these issues, making the song a powerful and relatable piece.
Line by Line Meaning
I’m a victim of an over-active limbic system
My emotions overpower my rationale
Follow me and you will know the madness that I live in
My life is chaotic
No magic, just an open casket criticism
I don't have any tricks, just harsh criticism
Carry me inside or you can bury me alive right
Either help me or let me suffer
When we met it was innocent enough
Our meeting was unassuming
I said hi it’s nice to meet you I am mister self destruct
I introduced myself as a destructive force
I’m in your blood you’re a victim of the rush
You're addicted to me
But you’re flirting with disaster when you kiss and tell my love
You're putting yourself in danger by talking about me
Make more beds of nails so you can stay warm
Harmful behavior becomes comforting
Sang chords in a medley ’til my face tore
I sang until my voice gave out
Pray for living dead that walk and pace forth
Hope for those who continue to suffer while alive
Rain pours in my head, it’s called a brainstorm
My thoughts are overwhelming
This game you’re playing is so tedious
I'm tired of this cycle
Black out on white lies and blame it on bulimia
Live a dishonest life and blame it on an eating disorder
Yea, now I’m saying all your secrets huh
I'm revealing your secrets
Should’ve thought twice before you grazed with your demon’s touch
You shouldn't have become involved with me
No disrespect but the real love doesn’t show
Love may not be obvious
’til I kiss your neck and my steel tongue cuts your throat
My affection is dangerous
I feel numb when the tears run uncontrolled
I'm emotionally desensitized
Like it’s synthemesc and I steal some of your soul
It's like I'm taking a drug and your essence
Until the self-help starts
Until I begin to work on myself
When you’d bite my heart to see if it was really made of gold
When you tested my love for you
I extinguished flames until hell fell dark
I fought my internal demons
And buried bodies under floorboards like Tell Tale Heart, so run
I've done terrible things, so stay away
I will watch you pray
I will watch as you plead for your life
As the steel shaft enters your brain
As you play Russian Roulette
Tell me baby how many times
Let me know how long you can survive
One thousand tries
An exaggerated number of attempts
And you’re still alive
You're lucky to still be alive
I don’t really think that I’m often ill
I don't think there's anything wrong with me
What would you wear to death a cross or nil
Would you choose a violent or peaceful death?
Should’ve known she was only out to fill
I should have known she just wanted something from me
Some sort of void I was out to kill
I was trying to destroy something inside of me
Any time left was the sand that fell
Time was running out
Anything to keep me from standing still
I did anything to avoid stagnation
Spend it like you happened to land a mil
Spend money as if it were easy to get
Wake up throwing up random pills
I had a drug problem
You want to feel it under your bones in your marrow
You want to feel something profound
You hope cupid ran off with more arrows
You hope for an excess of love in the world
Better off in passage ways to find pharaohs
Better to search for something of value
When the road you walk is too narrow
When life is tough
Start flying stop falling
Start improving
Like you did when you first stopped crawling
Start making progress
Threw it all on the table and went all in
Took a risk with everything I had
Cause I knew it had to be my calling
I knew it was my destiny
Nothing’s what it seems, life is but a dream
Reality is subjective
And I’m busy sleepwalking to find out what it means.
I'm trying to understand my existence
Contributed by William J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@thejoker5958
Was listening to this with Cage in his Discord server in 2020, and when his verse came on, he was like "imagine me wearing sunglasses and a jacket with a popped collar." Won't ever see this song the same again.
@karltrinkwasser3076
felt to me like this before. thanks for the story
@colemarie9262
"I extinguish flames until Hell fell dark, and bury bodies under floorboards like tell-tale hearts"
Well damn.
@serozonez3868
So underrated. Sadistik and Cage are both mad geniuses
@Jessica_Zs
Agreeeeeeeeed
@ATXW00D420
I concur
@dt50333
You're a Cuck
@jaymanas9921
absolutely. what an era it was between movies and Depart from me. around the same time as Black Sun were peaking. 2 legendary artists/groups. what a time to be alive.
@justinsooter5733
Sadistik's music is like playing Grand Theft Auto. It doesn't matter how many times you play it, there are always easter eggs to be found.
@shadowknightxv5699
A part of me hates that this guy is so underrated. But at the same time a part of me isn't surprised. This is the real side of humanity . Mentally , consciously , and emotionally the most real music I've ever listened to. Thanks Sadistik for all your tracks. Can't wait to see you perform one day. Best wishes .