Waste
Saliva Grey Lyrics

I can feel my soul creeping out my fucking window
I am experiencing an inner turmoil so deep that it feels like my soul is escaping my body.

Locked inside my room got the stick under my pillow
To cope with my sense of vulnerability, I have armed myself and imprisoned myself in my room.

Staring down the barrel lullaby inside that hollow
I am facing the possibility of death and contemplating its allure as a peaceful rest.

Follow, follow me up into my terror
I am inviting you to join me on my emotional rollercoaster, which is characterized by fear and anxiety.

How you thinking you the one when you a fucking clone yeah?
I am questioning the authenticity of another person's identity to point out their conformity to a pattern.

How do I become a better person in my soul yeah?
I am at a loss on how to improve my character and conscience.

All my homies in the crib and I be home alone yeah
I am feeling lonely and isolated even though I am aware that there are people who care for me.

Put me in the corner let me stare up at my phone yeah
I want to be left alone with my phone in order to avoid any social interaction.

I'm fucking sick
I am in a state of physical and emotional decay.

A fucking shamed
I am feeling disappointed and disgraced in my own actions.

You still up in my fucking brain
I can't get your thoughts out of my head and it is causing me mental distress.

You're gonna pay
You will bear the responsibility of the consequences of your actions.

I watch your body fucking shake
I become an observer of your physical reaction due to my presence and influence.

I levetate
I can escape reality and detach myself from emotional discomfort when under the influence of drugs.

Over top your fucking grave
I am standing on your grave, suggesting that your death was indirectly caused by me.

As I dig mine
I am digging my own grave to suggest that my actions will have repercussions for myself too.

Next to you so we can lay
I want to spend eternity with you, which can be seen as a display of remorse or lack of acceptance for your death.

That reverie
I am lost in a dream, stuck in a loop of painful memories.

Eternally you fucking waste
You have left the world without achieving anything, and this senselessness of life is a source of my misery.

Ain't worth the pain
The suffering that you went and I am still going through is not worth the little pleasures of life.

I separate my fucking angst
I dissociate myself from my inner angst by seeing it as something separate from me.

Coughing in my coffin
I am in such a bad state of health that I am coughing lying in my coffin.

Fill my body up with toxins
I am using drugs to numb the pain that I am feeling and it is causing further damage to my health.

Send me to rot in the earth
I am ready to embrace death and decay.

Six feet of dirt I'm finna box it
I am ready to lay down in my grave, already visualizing and accepting my fate.

Another fucking day I lay to waste
My life is an unproductive and uneventful loop that I see as a waste.

I'm here too often
I am stuck in a routine and have become too predictable.

Steadily fiend for the drip
I am constantly craving the effects of drugs and will do anything to get them.

Crushing the script and shoot Suboxone
I am self-medicating with drugs to manage my physical and emotional pain.

99 cutting ties so get the fuck out my face
I am done with social interactions and want to be left alone.

Always be switching and doubling back
I can't seem to commit to any one thing, and in the end, I keep coming back to the same place.

Just admit that you a fake
I am calling out someone I think is not being genuine.

Why is you fidgety had an epiphany
I am suspicious about your sudden inexplicable behavior.

You ain't ever hold the K
I am exposing your lie when you said that you held a weapon before.

How is you claiming you running the block when you ran away from the fade?
I am calling out someone for their hypocrisy as they claim to be running things, but they actually ran away from a fight.

I ain't gang bang
I have nothing to do with gang life.

I'm ignorant I let my nuts hang
I am immature and impulsive, taking unnecessary risks while trying to prove my manhood.

99 flipping the pack and he spending it back on the same thing
I am commenting on someone's repetitive actions that have no good outcome.

I think I'm going insane
I am feeling like I am losing touch with reality.

Railing a line straight to my brain
I am snorting drugs in order to get their effects quickly and strongly.

Everyday it's the same
My life feels monotonous and hopeless.

Falling in love with the pain
I am getting addicted to my own misery and accept it as a reality.

I cross my heart, I hope I die
I am making a morbid affirmation about my desire for death.

I stick the needle in my eye
I am extremely reckless, taking harmful actions that have irreversible consequences.

Filling my head with the drugs I look dead
I am almost lifeless while being high, and I am continuing to do it to escape from my painful reality.

It's the only time I feel alive (Fuck!)
Drugs are the only way I can experience the illusion of happiness and well-being.