Clown
Sande Emeli Lyrics

I guess it's funnier from where you're standing
Your situation may seem humorous to others, but unfortunately, I'm not laughing.

'Cause from over here I miss the joke
I can't seem to find any humor in my current predicament.

Clear the way for my crash landing
I'm about to hit rock bottom again.

I've done it again
I keep making the same mistakes over and over.

Another number for your notes
I'm just another failure in your eyes.

I'd be smiling if I wasn't so desperate
If my situation wasn't so dire, maybe I could find a reason to be happy.

I'd be patient if I had the time
If I wasn't constantly struggling and on the brink of failure, I could afford to be patient.

I could stop and answer all of your questions
If I could get my life together, maybe I could help others as well.

As soon as I find out
Once I figure out how to help myself first.

How I can move from the back of the line
How do I get out of this never-ending cycle of failure and despair?

I'll be your clown
I'll put on a show for you, no matter how much it hurts me.

Behind the glass
I'll let you observe my life from a safe distance.

Go 'head and laugh
You can laugh at my pain and suffering.

'Cause it's funny
My misery is apparently hilarious to everyone else.

I would too if I saw me
If I wasn't going through this myself, I might find it funny too.

On your favorite channel
I'll let you watch me on TV so you can feel better about yourself.

My life's a circus, circus
My life is nothing but a chaotic mess.

Round in circle
I'm stuck in an endless cycle of pain and despair.

I'm selling out tonight
I've abandoned my own morals and dignity just to make a quick buck.

I'd be less angry if it was my decision
If I had a say in how my life turned out, maybe I wouldn't be so bitter.

And the money was just rolling in
If I were financially stable, maybe I wouldn't be so resentful.

If I had more than my ambition
If there was more to my life than just my goals, maybe I could find happiness.

I'll have time for please
Once I obtain my goals and achieve financial security, maybe I can finally be polite and courteous to others.

I'll have time for thank you
After I become rich and famous, I'll have the luxury of showing gratitude towards those who helped me.

As soon as I win
Only when I'm successful will I have time for these basic human interactions.

From a distance my choice is simple
My problems may seem easy to solve from far away, but they are much more complicated up close.

From a distance I can entertain
My suffering is apparently amusing to others who don't have to deal with it directly.

So you can see me
I'll do anything for fame and recognition, even if it means exposing my pain and struggles to the world.

I put makeup on my face
I'll pretend like I'm happy and content when in reality, I'm miserable and suffering.

But there's no way you can feel it
No matter how much I try to hide it, the pain is still there and it's real.

From so far away
You can never truly understand my pain unless you experience it yourself.