Nothing At All
Santana (feat. Musiq) Lyrics

I am a victim of my time
I am shaped and influenced by the circumstances and events of the era in which I live.

A produce of my age
I am a product of the social, cultural, and historical forces that exist during this time period.

There's no choosing my direction
I am unable to determine or control the path my life takes due to external factors out of my control.

I was a holy man but now
I used to consider myself righteous and pure, but circumstances have changed that perception.

With all my trials behind me
After experiencing and overcoming many obstacles and challenges, I thought I had moved past them.

I am weak in my conviction
However, my faith and determination have faltered under the weight of recent events.

And so I walk to try to get away
Therefore, I am physically distancing myself from my problems and attempting to escape them.

Knowing that someday
Even though I'm trying to run, I realize that eventually I will have to confront my issues.

I will finally have to face
I will have no choice but to confront the consequences of my actions.

The fear that will come from knowing that
I am afraid of the ramifications of the decisions I've made because I know it will be difficult.

The one thing I had left was you
The only thing that was keeping me centered and grounded was my relationship with you.

And now you're gone
But now that you are no longer in my life, I feel untethered and lost.

You were a victim of my crimes
You were harmed and negatively impacted by the wrongs that I committed.

A product of my rage
Your existence and role in my life were heavily influenced by my uncontrollable and intense anger.

You were a beautiful distraction
Thus, you stood out among the chaos and provided a sense of beauty and order to my life.

I kept you locked away outside
Unfortunately, I failed to appreciate and care for you properly by keeping you at arm's length.

Let misery provide
Instead of being a source of comfort and support to you, I used your distress to justify my mistakes and shortcomings.

And now I am ashamed
I feel deep regret and shame for my actions and how they hurt you.

And so I walk to try to find a space
Just as before, I am trying to distance myself physically and emotionally from the situation.

Where I can be alone to live with my mistakes
I need to spend time reflecting and processing the consequences of my actions and learning how to move forward.

And the fear that will come
I am again consumed with fear, knowing that I have a long way to go to make amends and rebuild what has been broken.

From knowing that the one thing
The thought of losing you has become my greatest fear and regret.

I had left was you
You were the last remaining bit of hope and goodness in my life before it slipped away.

And now you're gone
Now that I have lost you, I have nothing left to cling to and feel completely lost and alone.