On My Own
Sarah Lyrics

I just wanna feel comfortable in my own skin
I desire to feel at ease and content with myself, without any self-doubt or insecurity

In my mind, false visions conquer the world I'm in
Within my thoughts, unrealistic ideals dominate my perception of reality

Obsessed with feeling beautiful
Fixated on attaining a sense of physical attractiveness

Something my mind just won't fulfill
However, my thoughts and aspirations cannot satisfy this craving

Mascara crawls down my face as I write this
While tears streak my face, I express my emotions through writing

Sitting here naked wishing I could stop it
Feeling vulnerable and exposed, yearning to halt these feelings

Why do I let myself get like this?
Questioning why I allow myself to fall into this state of mind

I'm sorry I ever felt like this
Regretful for ever experiencing such emotions

I was built from scratch
I was created from the ground up, starting anew

Now I'm crumpled up
Yet now I feel emotionally crumpled, damaged

I've tried my best
I have exerted all my effort

Just to love myself
In the pursuit of self-acceptance and self-love

But I can't help but feel like this
However, I cannot escape these sentiments

Like pinkies crossed, I broke my promise
Similar to crossed fingers, I have failed to keep my commitment

This floor of tears could sweep me away
The overwhelming despair could easily consume me

And then maybe I would think I look okay
Perhaps under those circumstances, I might perceive myself as acceptable

There's levels to life
Existence possesses various degrees and stages

And this one is mine
This specific phase is uniquely mine to endure

I try not to cry
I make an effort to refrain from shedding tears

But it's okay sometimes
Nevertheless, it is acceptable to occasionally succumb and let emotions flow

I wake up to the morning light
Awakening to the illumination of a new day

It helps me know I'm still alive
This realization reassures me of my continued existence

So I think I'll just try
Therefore, I plan to make an effort

To love myself a little harder next time
To extend greater self-affection in the future

I'm allowed to let myself be a mess
It is permissible for me to embrace my flaws and imperfections

As long as it's only temporary
As long as this state of disarray is transitory

And I'm beautiful
Furthermore, I possess beauty within myself

I'm doing my best
I am giving my utmost effort

Just to love myself
Simply to cultivate self-love

I love that I can feel like this
I appreciate my capability to experience such emotions

My heart's alive, it's just been broken
My heart still beats with vitality, even though it has been hurt

This floor of tears has filled in the space
These tears have occupied the void within me

And I know from now on
And I am aware starting now

I will be okay
I will eventually be well and content

Someday when they look at me
In the future, when others gaze upon me

I'll be able to see whatever they see
I will have the ability to perceive myself as they do

I just wanna feel comfortable in my own skin
In essence, all I desire is to feel completely at ease and confident in my own being