Sarah Jessica Cothran was born on June 11, 2002, in Seminary, Mississippi. She began writing and playing music in junior high school at the age of thirteen. Cothran began posting music on YouTube in 2017, and launched a TikTok account after graduating high school in 2020, having moved to Nashville, Tennessee. She gained popularity on TikTok with her series of videos singing covers of songs in a minor key. She considered social media an effective opportunity to share music and connect with her supporters. In January 2018, Cothran released a cover of Avenged Sevenfold's "So Far Away" featuring her sister Michaila, which received more than one million views.
Cothran gained recognition for her cover of Matt Maltese's song "As the World Caves In", originally released with three short videos on TikTok before receiving a full release on streaming platforms on May 12, 2021. It ranked tenth among the most viral songs worldwide on July 14, according to Spotify. The single earned 400 million global streams, and was certified gold by the Recording Industry Association of America on September 16, 2022. It was featured in the first episode of The Summer I Turned Pretty in June 2022. Maltese's original song saw a resurgence after Cothran's cover. Cothran considered it important to co-produce her own music to maintain her creativity and to "level out the huge gap" regarding the lack of female producers.
Following the song's success, Cothran signed with Republic Records in August 2021, represented by Sara Bollwinkel of Wasserman Music, and legally by Doug Mark. Cothran's first single with Republic, "Baby Why", was released on July 29, 2022. The song is about constant fighting in a toxic relationship. Cothran was inspired by vintage sounds but wanted to add a "modern twist". The single gained over one million global streams in ten days. The music video was released on August 11, with visuals inspired by the 1950s. Her next single, "Funeral", was released on August 26; co-written with Maltese over several days in a studio in Nashville, the song is about attending one's own funeral. The music video was released on December 2.
Cothran's debut EP, i hope you're happy, was released on September 30. She wrote and produced most of the songs late at night in her bedroom. Consequence's Mary Siroky named one of the EP's songs, "I'm Here", a runner-up for Song of the Week, writing that it "unspools like a diary entry ... the knowledge that life could have been different can be haunting, and Cothran tries to close the chapter on her own terms with this poignant brush of her pen". The music video for "I'm Here" was released on December 17, filmed by the Nashville Drone Company at Harpeth Valley Farm in Kingston Springs, Tennessee. Cothran was one of Alec Benjamin's supporting acts on his tour in September 2022. She released a single, "Stronger Than Me", on September 8, 2023, set to be followed by "Me Myself & I" on October 6.
Talking To Myself
Sarah Cothran Lyrics
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Finding what is wrong
Analyzing
Until my mind is numb
Guess I'm a fool for rushing in
Swore I wouldn′t
Let my emotions win again
And again (Ah)
Exception disguised as fate
Should say goodbye somehow (Ah-ah)
Drag it on another day
Just so I don't have to think
Am I happy now
Back to talkin' to myself
Hmm
I′m tired of being
The one that′s not enough
Inside I'm screaming
It′s time to shut it up
Said that I wouldn't let you in
Swore I′d end it
Let my emotions win again
And again (Ah)
Saw the truth a little late
Exception disguised as fate
Should say goodbye somehow (Ah-ah)
Drag it on another day
Just so I don't have to think
Am I happy now
Back to talkin′ to myself
What happened to my judgеment?
Thought they werе blind, but was it me?
My view was out of focus
Blurred lines of sensibility
What happened to my judgement?
Thought they were blind, but it was me
I didn't wanna lose it
Even though I wasn't happy
Maybe it made me feel a little less lonely (Ah)
Saw the truth a little late
Exception disguised as fate
Should say goodbye somehow (Ah-ah)
Drag it on another day
Just so I don′t have to think
Am I happy now
Back to talkin′ to myself
In Sarah Cothran's song "Talking To Myself", the singer is expressing her exhaustion from overthinking and analyzing her problems. She feels like a fool for letting her emotions get the best of her and for not recognizing the truth until it was too late. The singer is struggling to make a decision and say goodbye to something or someone that is no longer serving her, but she keeps dragging on because she's afraid of being alone, and it makes her feel a little bit better.
Moreover, the singer questions her ability to judge situations and people, realizing that it may have been her own perception that was skewed rather than the other way around. She realizes that she's been holding onto something even though she wasn't really happy, just so that she wouldn't feel as lonely. The song ends with the singer going back to talking to herself, implying that she hasn't made any concrete decision and is still struggling with her emotions.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm tired of thinking
I'm exhausted from overthinking too much
Finding what is wrong
I keep looking for what's wrong in everything
Analyzing
I keep over-analyzing things to the point of mental exhaustion
Until my mind is numb
I think so much that my mind feels numb
Guess I'm a fool for rushing in
I acted impulsively and didn't think through things
Swore I wouldn't
I promised myself that I wouldn't make the same mistake again
Let my emotions win again
I gave in to my emotions and let them take control
Saw the truth a little late
I realized the truth after it was too late to do anything about it
Exception disguised as fate
I thought it was fate, but it was just an exception
Should say goodbye somehow (Ah-ah)
I need to say goodbye to what's holding me back
Drag it on another day
I keep dragging it on because I don't want to deal with it
Just so I don't have to think
I avoid dealing with the issue by ignoring it
Am I happy now
I question whether I'm truly happy
Back to talkin' to myself
I'm back to having conversations with myself about my problems
I'm tired of being
I'm exhausted from feeling like I'm not good enough
The one that's not enough
I feel like I'm never enough for anyone or anything
Inside I'm screaming
Internally, I'm screaming for help but can't seem to express it outwardly
It's time to shut it up
It's time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and move on
Said that I wouldn't let you in
I promised myself that I wouldn't let anyone else hurt me
What happened to my judgment?
I'm questioning my own decision-making skills
Thought they were blind, but it was me
I thought others couldn't see clearly, but in reality, it was my own blurry perception
I didn't wanna lose it
I didn't want to let go even though it wasn't good for me
Even though I wasn't happy
Even though I wasn't truly happy with the situation
Maybe it made me feel a little less lonely (Ah)
Perhaps staying in a bad situation made me feel less alone
Writer(s): David James Wolinski
Contributed by Elliot N. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
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Lyrics:
i'm tired of thinking
finding what is wrong
analyzing
until my mind is numb
guess i'm a fool for rushing in
swore i wouldn't
let my emotions win again
and again
saw the truth a little late
deception disguised as fate
should say goodbye somehow
drag it on another day
just so i don't have to think
am i happy now?
back to talking to myself
im tired of being
the one that's not enough
inside im screaming
it's time to shut it up
said that i wouldn't let you in
swore i meant it
yet my emotions win again
and again
saw the truth a little late
deception disguised as fate
should say goodbye somehow
drag it on another day
just so i don't have to think
am i happy now?
back to talking to myself
what happened to my judgement?
thought they were blind
but was it me?
my view was out of focus
blurred lines of sensibility
what happened to my judgement?
thought they were blind
but it was me
i didn't wanna to lose it
even though i wasn't happy
maybe it made me feel a little less lonely
saw the truth a little late
deception disguised as fate
should say goodbye somehow
drag it on another day
just so i don't have to think
am i happy now?
back to talking to myself
@peanutwars
Why are you not more popular !? Your the most beautiful and talented girl I’ve ever seen I love how unique your voice sounds!
@SarahCothran
wow thank you so much💗
@peanutwars
Seriously this and you sounds better than most mainstream music! Lol your gonna go somewhere
@rollingthunderrr7099
Agree
@itzPiggy872
So true
@queenbeeedits1551
I sooooo agree
@eleanortapley1277
the line "saw the truth a little late, deception disguised as fate" IS SO PRETTY AHGSWHGDE-
@noahtudezca8393
I was just listening that part when I was reading this comment-
@kaitlynk4771
My one and only flex is gonna be when she blows up I can tell ppl that I’ve been listening since 2020
@spoopycarrots497
Samee