Make You Proud
Saudí Lyrics

I've got some things that make me ashamed of myself
I have done things in my life that bring me great shame.

I've seen some things that desensitize me to death
Some of the things I have experienced have made me numb to the idea of death.

Where I'm from what doesn't kill you traumatise you to death
Growing up in my environment, even things that don't physically harm you can still leave a lasting mental impact.

Me and my bro, made for my momma trust so hard to prevail
My sibling and I are determined to succeed and make our mother proud, no matter what obstacles we face.

Shii - All of my life all I wanted was to get paid
All I have ever wanted in life is financial stability and success.

Broke into my uncle's safe, broke my momma's heart on the way
In my pursuit of money, I have made poor choices and hurt the ones I love, including my mother.

Soloko wang'zala mina I've always been nothing but a disgrace
I have always been a source of shame and disappointment for my family.

The day you said you wished I'd die, something inside me changed
When my mother expressed extreme disappointment and anger towards me, it had a profound effect on how I view myself.

And like it can never ever abracadabra my pain away
No amount of magic or wishing can erase the pain and hurt that I feel over my past mistakes.

But, you gave me life and it's something I can't repay
My mother gave me the gift of life, and I know that I can never fully repay her for that.

First time in my life I'm not ready to pass away
For the first time in my life, I am making changes to better myself and am no longer resigned to a potentially short and unfulfilling existence.

Pray to God I make you proud of me before you pass
I am praying that I am able to make my mother proud of me before she passes away.

When you wake up and you don't find me by your side
In the event that I am not physically present with my mother, whether due to death or other circumstances.

Don't you ever shed a tear don't you cry
I do not want my mother to be sad or upset in any way if I am not with her.

Elke dag I'm on the grind
Every day, I am putting in the work to better myself and my situation.

And you the reason why ngingenza nomayini just to see you smile
My mother is the driving force behind my ambition and I am willing to do whatever it takes to make her happy.

So everytime umung'khumbula' ungkhumbula mina,
So every time you remember me,

Umung'khumbula mina don't you cry
Don't cry when you think of me.

I just wanna make you proud
My ultimate goal is to make my mother proud of me.

When I said fuck with school, uGogo told me chase my dreams
When I was dismissive of school and education, my grandmother encouraged me to pursue my passions.

When the devil had his way, and I thought God won't intervene
During difficult times when I felt lost or alone, I believed that God had abandoned me.

She's the one that God sent for me, ingilosi for me
My grandmother has been a guiding force in my life and I believe that she is an angel sent to help me.

And she was a nurse, but never tripped that I drink lean
Despite being a healthcare professional, my grandmother never judged me for my struggles with substance abuse.

The only one that understands
My grandmother is the only person who truly understands me and my struggles.

And I just wanna hold your hands
I want to be close to my grandmother and show her my appreciation and love.

I pray I spoil you before heaven takes you back
I hope to be able to provide for my grandmother and make her life as comfortable and enjoyable as possible before she passes away.

Ungakhali when I'm gone
Please don't cry when I am no longer here.

Ngyabonga ukuthi you gave me all these beautiful women in my life
I am grateful that my mother has provided me with so many positive female role models and influences in my life.

Ngibong' umusa wakho, ngibonga uthando lwakho
I am grateful for your mercy and your love, Mom.

Noma 'ngali-deserva
Even though I may not deserve it.

Baba wami I'm grateful, noma ngikhule ngingakwazi baba wami
Dad, I am grateful for you even though I may not have grown up to be the son you wanted me to be.

Gave me a sister noGogo noMama wami
You blessed me with the gift of a sister and two wonderful maternal figures.

I hope you're proud
Above all else, I hope that my mother is proud of me and the person I have become.