My Life
Scarface Lyrics

I'm too deep to quit, and too strick to fold
I am fully committed and determined to continue, and I refuse to give up

And you need to split nigga G into code
You have to decipher and understand the hidden messages and codes

Come on, these years to teach, homey speak to know it
Over the years, I have gained knowledge and experience, so listen and learn

Bodybag what we're talkin' about, you weak, you row
We are discussing serious matters, and if you are weak, you will be left behind

The game is overcrowded so we fight for space
There are many competitors in the game, so we have to fight for our position

Neighbourhood show the hustle, still we grind to win
The community displays their hard work and determination, and we continue to work tirelessly to succeed

Tryin' to find a way, to come up on 2 pounds of yay
We are looking for a method to acquire a large quantity of drugs

And double up it, ain't never happened touch it
We aim to increase our profits by selling twice the amount, but it has not yet been achieved

A lot of niggaz focued on they candy paints
Many individuals are preoccupied with their flashy cars

And that was in the grills, steering wheels and grand
They focus on the appearance of their vehicles, including the grills, steering wheels, and grand features

But I ain't trippin' out here, flippin' I just need to thank
I am not concerned with showing off, I just need to express gratitude

Money miny, yo all the mission tryin' to steal me bank
Every little bit of money counts, as we are on a mission to accumulate wealth

Ride and homicides we get it, fuck it, peepin' in horn
We are involved in dangerous activities, including violent crimes, and don't care about the consequences

Killin' all these pussy niggaz think they keepin' in God
We eliminate our weak opponents who falsely believe they are invincible

Pistol cocked on the block and all they fearin' is death
We carry loaded guns on the streets, and the only thing our enemies fear is death

Then again nigga, roaddog you feelin' me yet
Once you understand the harsh reality of life, you will truly understand me

So if I die, I'm tryin' to get it mamma, barely deed
If I die, I want to leave enough money and resources behind for my family to survive

And pray to God that he kept this spot hell me
I hope that God protects my territory and provides me with support

Sad as fuck, what the nigga stuck down the raw
I am deeply saddened by the difficult and challenging situation I am currently in

Bust friends, back in the prison, foundin' rock to the troup
My friends have been arrested and imprisoned, and I am searching for drugs to supply them

Here I smoke and tryin' to hide it but was played by the rule
I smoke drugs and try to conceal it, but I am still controlled by the addictive nature of the substance

And if live like the gold fiend then you'd do what they do
If you experience the desperate cravings of a drug addict, you would also engage in their behaviors

I'm on my own limits sold buck words
I have set my own boundaries and restrictions, and my words have value

All alone in the ghetto, deep in weed, sweat in Jelly Nose
I am isolated in the impoverished neighborhood, engulfed in the use of drugs, and constantly anxious

Worrey eyes, you either do it or you die
Filled with worry and anxiety, you have to take risks or face dire consequences

Crimin' in flood, ridin' your blood, cause this is your life...
Engaging in criminal activities becomes a part of you, flowing through your veins, because this is the life you have chosen

Our golden law, now foes or friends
The principle we live by dictates how we interact with both enemies and allies

I'm on my own, no hoes, no ends
I am alone, without women or money

I been smillin' but I can't innovate
I have been putting on a fake smile, but I cannot find new ideas or create change

I feel that hurt but I can't explain it
I deeply feel the pain, but I am unable to put it into words

I have been around with a player or two
I have associated with experienced individuals who know the game

And still ??Hurricane can be, ??
Even with experience, unexpected challenges or events can still occur

?? loose when you pumped the face
Your true emotions are revealed when faced with intense situations

Real nigga blues and it hold your aims
As a real person, you will face hardships that test your goals and aspirations

You're bold or fold no in betweens
You have to be courageous and take risks, or you will simply give up and fail

Console your seems don't blow your creams
Comfort yourself and don't let your dreams slip away

Also don't you loose your dreams
Additionally, don't let go of your aspirations

This is my life, this is my life
This is a reflection of my life and the circumstances I face

I just got word: my uncle done died
I recently received news that my uncle has passed away

But ain't no tears on my face cause I done already cried
There are no tears left to shed, as I have already mourned

I been here before, dead to me is not new
I have experienced death numerous times, so it is not a new concept to me

My heart safe it, mamma don't, cops too
I keep my emotions guarded, but it worries my mother and attracts police attention

I got my best to get my purpose to the Lord
I am doing my best to find my purpose and seek guidance from a higher power

But sometimes this shit be fuckin' with me hard
Sometimes, these difficult circumstances severely impact my well-being

And I'm heartless, I'm a kid again
I have become emotionally numb, reverting back to a childlike state

Lookin' out my window watchin' niggaz get murdered
I gaze out my window and witness the violence and death occurring

In college worked the parties, step with??, drink ??
I used to organize parties and engage in recreational activities, consuming alcohol

Just to get through the night
I would partake in these activities as a coping mechanism to survive the night

Go to school only the anchor stomach givin' you fight
Attending school is a struggle, as hunger pains cause distraction and difficulty

Cause sure there were fights and I was bustin' like a the sun bitch
There were definitely fights, and I would fight fiercely

The smartest nigga on the block live in ??kick
I, the most intelligent person in the neighborhood, reside in poverty

The convicts with worry ?? hard to ?? to the tails
The imprisoned individuals are concerned and it's difficult to maintain hope for their release

Searchin' for heaven and livin' in hell
We seek peace and happiness, yet our current reality feels like a living hell

They say I'm wrong for teaches this on
Some people criticize me for sharing these experiences and lessons

Fuck what you believe, can't heal by myself
I don't care about your beliefs, as I cannot heal on my own

That's the way I'm livin', this is my life
This is the manner in which I am living, and it represents my life

I only got one eye but I see things ever so clear
Although I only have one eye, my perspective on things is crystal clear

Been acquainted with death but I never know fear
I have experienced death multiple times, yet it has never instilled fear within me

I still roll to spots, cats scared to go there
I continue to visit dangerous places where others are too afraid to venture

If it's a heaven for a G, if not, prepare to go there
If there is a paradise for a gangster, then I am ready to enter it, but if not, I am prepared for any outcome

I live for today and not promise tomorrow
I focus on the present and don't rely on the uncertain future

Smoke weed and set lead and try to dry my sorrows
I smoke marijuana and engage in violence to numb my sorrows

In this game of life ain't no rules to follow
Life is like a game with no set guidelines or regulations

And if I come to lie for them it's a hard heal to swallow
If I lie to protect my associates, it becomes difficult for me to accept and cope with

I'm still the smallest cat with the biggest rep in H-Town
I may be physically small, but I have the most respected reputation in my city

Stress in my life is gettin' hard to take down
The stress in my life is becoming increasingly difficult to handle

Havin' visions of cats rollin' in my weight now
I imagine others stealing my profits and success

It feels like I'm about to have a nervous break down
I am on the brink of a mental breakdown

It takes a big man to share this pride
It requires someone with great strength to admit their pride and vulnerability

Tryin' to get my soul right and put the brain inside
I am striving to align my soul and thoughts, to find peace within myself

Y'all niggaz are so scared to ride
You guys are too afraid to take risks or face danger

They got it from Still I alive to Why I Feel So bad inside
They may have heard stories about my resilience, but they don't understand why I feel so broken internally

This is my life
This is a reflection of my life and the circumstances I face