This Can't Be Life
Scarface Lyrics

See I was, born in sewage, born to make bomb music
I came from a rough background, but I was destined to create great music.

Flow tight like I was born Jewish
My rap skills are so good it's like I was born with the talent.

Used the streets as a conduit, I kept arms 38 longs inside my mom's buick
I used the streets to navigate my life and carried a gun for protection.

At any given moment shawn could lose it, be on the news Iron cuffs, arms through it, or stuffed with embalmin fluid Shit, I'm going through it, mom dukes too Tears streamin down her pretty face, she got her palms to it
I'm constantly at risk of getting arrested or killed, which is hard not only for me but also for my mother who worries about my safety.

My life is gettin too wild I need to bring some sort kinda calm to it Bout to lose it voices screaming 'don't do it!'
My life is spiraling out of control and I need to find a way to regain my sense of stability, even though people around me are urging me to make reckless decisions.

It's like '93, '94, bout the year That big and mag dropped; and 'illmatic' rocked Outta every rag drop, and the west had it locked Everybody doing 'em, I'm still scratchin on the block Like 'damn, I'ma be a failure'
I'm struggling to make a name for myself in a highly competitive rap scene, and it's starting to feel like I may not succeed.

Surrounded by thugs, drugs, and drug, paraphernalia Cops courts, and their thoughts is to derail us Three time felons in shorts with jealous thoughts Tryin figure where your mail is, guesstimate the weight you sellin
I'm in a dangerous environment where both criminals and law enforcement are trying to bring me down and take advantage of me.

So they can send shots straight to your melon wait! It gets worse, baby momma water burst Baby came out stillborn, still I gotta move on Though my heart still torn, life gone from her womb Don't worry, if it was meant to be, it'll be, soon
Not only do I face external challenges, but I've also experienced the heartbreak of losing a child. I'm devastated but trying to find a way to keep going and hope for better things in the future.

This can't be life, this can't be love This can't be right, there's gotta be more, this can't be us Chill dog
I'm disillusioned with the life I'm living and want something better for myself and my community.

Second oldest born, from Michelle brown my mother Hell bound, grew with two sisters and one brother Pop wasn't around, so many stories that's another I'm thinking damn, how my older sister gon' make me tougher
I grew up struggling with the absence of my father and had to rely on my siblings for support and guidance.

When steel sharpens steel, I'ma keep it real I'm tired of trying to hide my pain behind the syrups and pills Dead to the world, stretched out like a corpse for real Y'all niggaz thinking what y'all reading in the source is real
Despite my struggles, I'm committed to being honest with myself and others, and resisting the temptation to numb my pain with drugs and alcohol.

What my life like, you looking at the source, it's real What your life like? mine dog, of course it's real Passin judgment, you niggaz second-guessin beans Cause you don't eat swine don't make you amin
People make assumptions about my life based on rumors and hearsay, rather than the reality of my experiences. Just because someone doesn't eat pork doesn't automatically make them righteous or knowledgeable.

I guess you all on your deen and I ain't on mine Stop that akki, 'fore I send shots though your body Make 'em feel feel hell on earth before allah drop thee I feel the line's drawn here, nuttin more can stop me Till them feds pick me up, or them boys pop me
I'm tired of being judged and disrespected by people who claim to be religious, and I'm willing to defend myself if necessary. I feel like I'm at a breaking point and am willing to face whatever consequences come my way.

There's only three things that make mac not act like beans Amatullah tisha, po aldin, samir amin My seeds dog, gotta teach 'em that before I leave dog Shit I know that I'ma see 'em when I leave dog
I have a few things in my life that bring me peace and help me stay grounded: my wife and two children. I'm determined to teach my kids the lessons they need to succeed, no matter what happens to me in the future.

And when I heard that I just broke into tears And see in the second hand you don't really know how this is But when it hits that close to home you feel the pain at the crib So I called mine, and saddened my wife with the bad news Now we both depressed, countin our blessings cause brad's two Prayin for young souls to laugh at life through the stars Lovin your kids just like you was ours And I'm hurtin for you dog, but ain't nobody pain is like yours I just know that heaven'll open these doors
I received heartbreaking news about a friend's loss, which reminded me how difficult it is to navigate grief. I shared the news with my spouse, and together we grieved and prayed for the children affected by the tragedy. I know that everyone experiences pain differently, but I believe that hope and healing are possible.

And ain't no bright side to losin life but you can view it like this God's got open hands homey, he in the midst, of good company Who loves all and hates not one And one day you gon' be wit your son
Losing a loved one is always difficult, but having faith in a higher power can provide comfort and solace. I believe that we are all equally loved by God, and that we will be reunited with our loved ones in the afterlife.

I could've rapped about my hard times on this song But heaven knows I woulda been wrong I wouldn'ta been right, it wouldn'ta been love It wouldn'ta been life, it wouldn'ta been us This can't be life
I could have talked about my personal struggles on this track, but I felt it was more important to honor the life of my friend's child who had passed away. Love is a more important message than pain.