Drowning
Scarlet City Lyrics

Brain pounding
My mind is racing and I can't seem to calm it down.

Heart pulsing
My heart is beating so fast that I can't ignore it.

Drinking sorrows down
I'm drowning my problems with alcohol.

More I gulp it
The more I drink, the more lost I become.

Lead me to that gray ol' morning
I know that I'll regret this in the morning.

When I'm no longer no tossing, turning
When I'm finally dead and no longer struggling with my demons.

Inspiration, just a murmur
I can't seem to find any motivation or inspiration in my life.

Love and loss, more the mourning
Every time I lose someone that I love, it destroys me even more.

Sulkin' more up in my torment
I'm trapped in my own suffering and can't seem to find a way out.

Other words false hope I worship
I know that I'm clinging to false hope, but it's all I have left.

Shit sinking moment
I've hit rock bottom and can't seem to stop sinking.

Reality's distorted
My perception of reality is skewed and I can't seem to see clearly.

Battlefield goes down your warship
I'm fighting a losing battle and my defenses are crumbling.

Through the one whom been fighting dormant
The one who has been fighting inside of me is finally waking up.

Walked on in life
I feel like I've been walked all over and taken advantage of.

Like fuckin' doormats
Like I'm nothing but a piece of dirt on the ground.

Guess we gotta part to play
I know that I have a role to play in this world, but I don't know what it is yet.

Stepping stones and the mile brakes
Life is full of obstacles and challenges that I have to overcome.

Sounds so resounding
The sounds in my head are so overwhelming that I can't escape them.

Or maybe I’m just revolting
Or maybe I'm just too weak to handle my own thoughts and emotions.

Desperation to find my motive
I'm desperate to find my purpose in life and figure out why I'm here.

No matter the fight
No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to win this battle.

Somehow I’m fit to remain
Despite everything, I'm still alive and trying to survive.

Please pull me from the shoreline
I need someone to rescue me before I drown.

I’m runnin' out of time
My time is running out and I don't know how much longer I can hold on.

I've got a story to tell
I have a life story that's worth sharing, but I don't know if anyone will ever listen.

On my way down to hell
I feel like I'm headed straight to hell and there's no way to escape it.

Apparently I was chosen
It's as if I was chosen to suffer and feel this pain.

Kinda like them golden scriptures
Like I'm a character in some ancient religious text, doomed to suffer and die.

Give unto your Prophet Joseph
As if I'm being sacrificed to some higher power or deity.

Oh all pressure
The weight of the world is on my shoulders and I can't bear it anymore.

World top of your shoulders
The entire world is pressing down on me and I can't escape it.

Deliver it
I have to deliver on my responsibilities and obligations, no matter how impossible it seems.

Exceeding the expectations
I have to surpass everyone's expectations, including my own.

If you don’t process to elimination
If you can't handle the pressure, you will be eliminated.

First goes your stabilization
Your sense of stability and security will be the first to go.

Then your family, then your friends
You will lose everyone you love, one by one.

They might just take it in vain
They might not understand or appreciate your sacrifices and struggle.

If you don’t speak your mind
If you don't speak up and fight for yourself, you will be crushed by the weight of the world.

Living up, up to your code
You have to live up to your own expectations and standards, no matter what anyone else thinks or says.

Ill messages just flood these walls
Negative, destructive thoughts and emotions are overwhelming and consuming me.

Like Venom up on my skin
Like poison that's seeping into my soul and killing me slowly.

Wear it like my clothes
I'm so used to the pain and suffering that it's become a part of me, like my skin or my clothes.

More it bleeds up out the pen
The more I write and express myself, the more pain and suffering come pouring out.

As these dark thoughts settings in
As I spiral deeper into despair and hopelessness.

As I decend
As I sink deeper and deeper into darkness.

Time of death I must defend
I have to fight to stay alive, even though I feel like I'm already dead.

7 Minutes before I commit my rest
I only have a short amount of time left before I give up and surrender to my fate.

Round and round these bells I go
I feel like I'm trapped in a never-ending cycle of pain and suffering.

I fight until I can’t get up no more
I keep fighting and struggling, even when it seems pointless and impossible.

Say knock me off and off my course
Even when I'm knocked down and out of control, I have to keep fighting and stay on course.

Winds takes me so directional
I feel like I'm being blown around by the wind, with no sense of direction or purpose.

Surely life will test you though
Life will challenge and test you, no matter who you are or what you do.

What you’re about
What you stand for and what defines you as a person.

When you're about to fold
When you're about to break and give up.

I am drowning
I'm suffocating in my own pain and suffering, and I don't know how to escape it.

I'm just a mess in the head
I'm completely lost and overwhelmed by my own thoughts and emotions.

I'm seeing nothing but red
I'm consumed by anger and frustration, and it's clouding my judgment.