Valentine
Seasons Change Lyrics

I've caved in and I hate it.
I have surrendered to my emotions and I do not like feeling this way.

So what if I'm selfish like a child, I want you back.
Even if it means I am being childish, I want you back in my life.

Today I woke up in a cold sweat with an empty place in my chest where your heart used to beat when you'd hold me and tell me you loved me and would never stop, even if I did.
I woke up feeling anxious with an emotional void in my chest where your love used to reside when we were together.

Well, my head says it's okay, it's time to accept, but my heart won't let me.
My mind tells me to move on and accept our separation, but my heart is not ready to let go.

It's holding its breath, waiting to breathe out, so you could breathe it in.
My heart is tense and waiting for you to return so it can finally relax and share its feelings with you.

Let this air into your lungs and make your heart beat again, but you won't wake up.
If you could just come back and love me again, it would bring me back to life, but I know deep down that it is not possible.

So, I'll hold my breath until you do.
I will keep waiting and hoping for your return, even if it feels like I am suffocating without you.

I'll count to forever and hope to God I see you.
I will hold on to the hope of seeing you again, no matter how long it takes.

Haunt me.
Even if it hurts, I want the memories of you to stay with me and never fade away.

It's hard to breathe without you.
I am struggling to cope without your love and support.

Just please don't, please don't leave me without you.
I am begging you not to leave me alone to suffer through life without you by my side.

No, please God, please don't leave.
I am praying for your return because I cannot bear the thought of living without you.

I won't try to pretend like I'm okay now that you're gone.
I am not okay without you, and I refuse to fake it just to make others feel better.

You were always the one that I would go to, to talk about how I could never deal with pain.
You were my safe haven, where I could always come for comfort and support in times of need.

So what am I supposed to say to save myself when I'm dying alone?
I feel like I am slowly fading away without you, and I do not know how to save myself from this pain and loneliness.

I've got nothing again.
Without your love, I feel like I have lost everything that mattered to me.

Here I am, choked up and broken with shaking hands.
I am overwhelmed with emotion and physically struggling to keep it together without you.

I hate to think of you, but I always do.
I hate that thoughts of you consume my mind, but I cannot help but think of you constantly.

I can't be alone, 'cause it's the only time that I can just let go, and I'm just not strong enough.
I cannot bear to be alone because it is the only time I allow myself to fully feel my emotions, and I am not strong enough to handle them on my own.

Please God, please don't leave.
Once again, I am pleading with God to bring you back to me and not leave me alone without you.