Pride
Self Delusion Lyrics


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you know I've never been so bored
living in Heaven it's so hard
although I'd like to hide my wings
no disguise fits well

let me bleed close to you
give me the fucking tools to hate
forget I have been living here
let me fall again

I learned that doubt is not a sin
it's only a way to grow up
so, please guide me towards the Hell
towards my twin soul

let me bleed close to you
give me the fucking tools to hate
hold me now into your arms
or steal my heart

help me, let me be like you
I'd like to know which is my fate




only you know what to do
with a life that never ends

Overall Meaning

The song "Pride" by Self Delusion speaks about a character who is "living in Heaven" but finds the boredom quite unbearable. The character wishes to cast aside the angelic facade and embrace the darker, more exciting side of themselves. However, they seem to be struggling with their true identity and are unsure of the direction they should take. The opening lines suggest that life is difficult even in heaven, and there is a sense of disconnection with the surroundings. The character wishes to be closer to someone - anyone - even if it means bleeding near them. This person is seeking tools to hate, and ironically trying to escape the utopia that is heaven. The lyrics are quite powerful as they convey a sense of frustration, longing, and self-awareness.


As the song progresses, the character's growth and maturity mirror their willingness to accept their doubts, and this character accepts that one's fate cannot always be predetermined. The chorus repeats, "let me bleed close to you, give me the fucking tools to hate," indicating that the character is willing to feel raw emotions even if it means encountering pain. They are willing to accept their fate with open arms, irrespective of how painful the journey may be. The overall mood of the song is quite melancholic, and it leaves a sense of mystery open to the listener.


Line by Line Meaning

you know I've never been so bored
Living in Heaven is mundane and lacks excitement


living in Heaven it's so hard
The perfect existence of Heaven is challenging to maintain


although I'd like to hide my wings
I desire to suppress my divine nature


no disguise fits well
Pretending to be someone I'm not is ineffective


let me bleed close to you
Allow me to be vulnerable around you


give me the fucking tools to hate
Assist me in processing negative emotions


forget I have been living here
Ignore my privileged existence in Heaven


let me fall again
Allow me to experience failure and growth


I learned that doubt is not a sin
Questioning is not inherently bad


it's only a way to grow up
Doubt aids in personal development


so, please guide me towards the Hell
Encourage me to experience the challenges of life


towards my twin soul
To connect me with someone who truly understands me


hold me now into your arms
Provide comfort and support


or steal my heart
Take my emotions and guide me towards growth


help me, let me be like you
Assist me in becoming a better version of myself


I'd like to know which is my fate
Yearning for a sense of direction and purpose


only you know what to do
Seeking guidance and mentorship


with a life that never ends
Struggling with the concept of immortality




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