If I Stay
Shane Mack Lyrics

Here I am in you bed again
I'm back in your bed again, unable to resist the temptation to see you and be near you.

Hanging on by a thread again
I'm barely hanging on, struggling to resist the urge to stay with you.

Saying thing I regret again
I keep saying things that I know I shouldn't say and will regret later.

Things that shouldn't be said again
I keep saying things that I know are hurtful and unnecessary.

Going over the past and then
I keep going over past memories in my mind, trying to make sense of our relationship.

I'll have one my glass and then
I'll pour myself a drink to help me cope with the emotions I'm feeling.

Won't be long till I'm asking again
It won't be long before I'm asking to come back to you again.

Baby can I come back again?
I want to come back to you again, even though I know I shouldn't.

And I keep believing
I continue to believe that leaving you is the best thing for both of us.

That I am leaving you
I am trying to leave you, but it's harder than I thought it would be.

And you know I can't even recall
I can't even remember if we truly loved each other in the first place.

Did we really ever love each other at all?
I'm not sure if our relationship was built on real love or just convenience and familiarity.

And I am going
I'm trying to leave you, but part of me doesn't want to go.

But I am knowing
But I know deep down that I need to move on.

That I got to have one more day
I need one more day with you, even if it means delaying the inevitable.

'Cause it hurts if I stay
Staying with you hurts because I know it's not good for either of us in the long run.

But it's worse if I stay away
But the pain of staying away from you is even worse than the pain of staying with you for now.

I don't want to stay away
I don't want to be away from you, even though I know it's for the best.

So here I am at you floor again
I'm back at your front door again, unsure if I should go in or not.

Standing at your door again
I'm standing at your door, filled with uncertainty about what to do next.

I made you feel like a whore again
I said or did something to make you feel used or disrespected again.

It's gonna be a sad morning then
I know that if I stay, we will both wake up feeling sad and regretful tomorrow morning.

I tell you good bye and then
I say goodbye to you, even though I don't want to leave.

I'll watch you cry again
I know that leaving you will make you cry, and that makes it even harder for me to leave.

Until I drive by again
I know that I'll be back to see you again, even if it's just driving by your house.

I say baby can we try again?
I want to give our relationship another chance, even though I know it might not work out.

Maybe we try again
Maybe we can try to make our relationship work, even though we've struggled in the past.

We're holding on until the good is all gone
We're clinging to our relationship even though the good parts of it are fading away.

Yeah you know that it's not all right
We both know that our relationship isn't healthy or sustainable in its current state.

But it is not all wrong
But our relationship isn't completely wrong, either - there are still good aspects to it.

I never meant to stay so long
I didn't intend to stay with you for as long as I have, but it's hard to let go.

I do never seem to say so long
I have a hard time saying goodbye to you, even though I know it's necessary.

Yeah, so long
Goodbye.