What If I Don't
Shaylen Lyrics

Why am I still buying make-up that's waterproof?
I keep holding onto the hope that we might reconcile, and I'll need waterproof make-up to cope with the tears if it doesn't happen.

Everybody goes through break-ups, I know they do
I'm aware that breakups are a common part of life that everyone goes through.

But not with you
However, our breakup was different, and my feelings for you are too strong to move on quickly.

I thought that thinking 'bout you every day
I hoped that constantly thinking about you would eventually make me feel better, but it hasn't worked.

That getting drunk and calling you so late
I've resorted to drinking and calling you late at night because I miss you so much.

I know this wanting you is just a phase
I'm aware that my desire to be with you is temporary, but it's hard to shake off.

And with a little time I'd be okay
I thought that given some time to heal, I would eventually be alright, but I'm still struggling.

What if I'm not strong as I think?
I worry that I may not have the strength to move on and forget about you.

What if in two years I still can't sleep
I fear that even after a long time, I may still struggle to sleep without you by my side.

What if I meet somebody new
I'm anxious about the idea of meeting someone else and moving on from you.

And every kiss feels like I'm cheating on you
The thought of being intimate with someone else feels disloyal to the deep feelings that I still have for you.

What if we made a big mistake?
I question whether our breakup was a mistake and if we should've tried harder to make things work.

What if my heart never unbreaks?
I worry that my heart may never fully mend from the pain of losing you.

People move on, people let go
I understand that it's common for people to move on and let go after a breakup, but it's difficult for me to do so.

What if you do?
I wonder if you'll be able to move on and forget about me.

I wanna move on, wanna let go
I want to be able to move on and let go like other people do, but it's a struggle.

Ever stop loving you
I fear that I may never stop loving you.

Ever stop needing you
I worry that I may never stop feeling the need for you in my life.

Mmhmm, what if I don't?
I'm apprehensive about the possibility that I may never be able to move on and forget about you.