The band first came into existence in December 1984 when former Fathead Suburbia vocalist Paul Bearer answered an ad in the Village Voice for a hardcore punk singer. Filling out the original lineup was guitarist Alan Blake, bassist Baron "Barry" Misuraca, and drummer Sam "Reid" Lohman. The band was featured on the 1985 "One Big Crowd" compilation, and released two cassette demos, "No Grounds For Pity" and "Fall From Grace". Soon after the band broke up due to personality conflicts. Afterwards, Bearer would spend some time in southern California before returning to New York, where he reformed Sheer Terror with Blake, adding Mark Neuman on bass and Jason Martin on drums.
The band soon after began a longtime association with Blackout Records, who released some of their songs on the label's compilation "Where the Wild Things Are", in 1989, along with a 7 inch Live At CBGB release. The following year, the band recorded their debut full length "Just Can't Hate Enough". The record was engineered by Tommy Victor of Prong. As Victor also worked at CBGB, he was able to allow the band to record live at the famous bar in the morning and afternoon hours before shows were held. The record was released in Germany on Starving Missile Records, and later released stateside under the Blackout name. "Just Can't Hate Enough" quickly became one of the records that defined the new, heavier sound of hardcore that was emerging at the time, played by bands such as Biohazard and Killing Time, among others. The guitar tone and riffs, in particular, display a large heavy metal influence, especially from Swiss speed metallers Celtic Frost, who were allegedly one of Alan Blake's favorite bands. The band also became known for Bearer's no-nonsense stage personality, with some finding him offensive, and others enjoying his often blunt and obscenity filled humor.
Neuman took the opportunity to switch to guitar, and Mike "Chickie" Walter, a former member of the crossover band Ludichrist, took over on bass duties, only to be replaced a year later by Keith "Zippy" McAdam. With the lineup of Bearer, Neuman, McAdam, and Martin, the band cut a new record in 1991 that was titled "Ugly And Proud", and whose planned cover featured a bulldog belonging to Josh Silver of Type O Negative. Seeing the success of Biohazard's eponymous 1990 release, the band planned to release the LP under Maze Records. However, due to the amount of money and time spent on the Biohazard release, Maze was not in the position to release "Ugly And Proud". The record was shelved by the label, much to the dismay of the band who could not convince the company to allow them to take the masters elsewhere.
In this time, the band experienced more member turnover, including the return of Chickie to bass duties, and an extended stint with a former glam metal drummer named Dave Todd. Paul Bearer recounts in the liner notes of a later release about his disbelief that Dave, while the band was in Europe, asked him who "Anarchy" was, thinking the circle-A logo he saw spray painted on walls belonged to a band. The tension of having someone in the band who did not understand punk rock ultimately led to finding a new drummer in Pat Cronin.
To make up for the lack of an album, Sheer Terror re-recorded many of the songs from "Ugly And Proud", releasing the result on Blackout as "Thanks Fer Nuthin", a jab at the owner of Maze Records. According to Bearer, he originally wanted to call the record "Canadian Scumbag". However, upon hearing of the band's new album, Maze Records quickly, and finally, released "Ugly And Proud", leading to the band having two records on the market with mostly identical songs.
Some tours later, the "Old, New, Borrowed, And Blue" EP was released. Following the theme of the title, the tracklist included an old song, "Walls", a new song, "Broken", a cover ("borrowed") song, "Everything's Fine" by The Saints, and a slow ballad ("blue"), "Goodbye, Farewell". The cover depicted an old photograph of Bearer's parents' wedding. Both Bearer and Mark Neuman have commented that due to Josh Silver's production of the EP, it remains their favorite Sheer Terror release. The band even cut the only music video of their career for "Broken", which featured a live action depiction of the song's subject, a despondent, alcoholic circus clown.
This, among other things, led to interest from MCA, who signed the band for the recording of 1995's "Love Songs for the Unloved". Produced by Tommy Victor, the record reflected a changing band, with slower songs and more clean, operatic singing from Bearer, rather than his usual growls. The upbeat track "For Rudy The Kraut" even featured an almost ska-sounding horn section. Neuman was also not particularly satisfied with the overall sound of his guitar tracks. The record did not receive the expected attention from fans, and Sheer Terror was soon dropped from MCA, who Bearer later sarcastically referred to as "the Music Cemetery of America".
In the following years, Bearer's self admittedly "pig-headed" personality clashed with the other members of the band, leading to Cronin and Neuman's exit. Sheer Terror managed to press on with a lineup that included former Whiplash drummer Tony Scaglione, and future Cause for Alarm guitarist Jay Banks. This lineup lasted through a U.S. tour with Napalm Death. Shortly after, the band broke up, only to be revived in 1997 featuring Ex-Mind over Matter/Neglect drummer John Lafata, and current Kill Your Idols guitarist Gary Bennett. John Lafata then went on to tour and record with Madball, and Tony Scaglione was brought in once again. But eventually, Sheer Terror ended their 13 year career in 1998, immediately following a mildly successful European tour. Most members did not speak to each other for many years following the break-up.
In mid-2004 it was announced that the lineup of Bearer, Neuman, Chickie, and Cronin were again rehearsing and planned on playing a show to serve both as a reunion and as the final farewell the band was never able to give. The reaction from fans led to the booking of another show the following night, and on October 9 and 10, the band played two sold out shows at CBGB, alongside opening bands such as Inhuman and Subzero. Footage from both nights, as well as an extensive documentary, was released as the "Beaten By The Fists Of God" DVD in 2005. Many high-profile members of the punk rock and hardcore community were featured praising the band in the documentary, including members of Dropkick Murphys, Life of Agony, North Side Kings, and Blood For Blood. Many former members were interviewed as well.
Despite offers for more shows, the band insists Sheer Terror is done. Bearer currently sings for the New York band Joe Coffee. Fans can also get a taste of his often brutish sense of humor through a bootleg record entitled "No Really, Go Fuck Yourself", credited to "Reverend Paul Bearer". The record is a compilation of numerous bits of bootlegged stage banter from Bearer during his years with Sheer Terror, and features rants about bizarre French culture and his being labeled a "Nazi" for making jokes about the venue's Mexican kitchen staff.
Close My Eyes
Sheer Terror Lyrics
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The song "Close My Eyes" by Sheer Terror is a powerful account of the struggles of addiction, pain and despair. The opening lines of the song describe a physical and psychological agony that is all-consuming. The use of the cigarette burn as a metaphor for burning memories acts as a device that illustrates the toxic nature of addiction, in which both physical and emotional pain become intertwined. The sidewalk is desolate, but it's where the singer feels most at home, as if it is an eternal resting place that he will never leave.
The next lines depict a person who has hit rock bottom, who is engaging in self-harm and destructive behavior. They have lost all sense of pride and are drowning in pills, unable to escape the vicious cycle of addiction. The chorus then delivers the recurring theme of the song, which is that the singer can see everything clearly when he closes his eyes. However, the reality when he opens them is devastating, and nothing seems to change.
The last lines of the song describe the crushing weight of depression that seems to compound itself with the passing of time. The imagery of the bar-room brawl in comparison to the mental struggle of addiction is a powerful way to illustrate the sense of physical, emotional and mental pain that feels all too real. The message in the song is that sometimes we close our eyes to try and find some peace, but nothing is ever that simple when dealing with life.
Line by Line Meaning
My stomach turns, and the cigarette burns a hole in my memories of 'when'.
My anxiety is overwhelming, and smoking only worsens my regretful memories of the past.
Walk the streets, the rain sparkles off the concrete of my forever rest.
Feeling lost and hopeless, I wander aimlessly as the rain reminds me of my perpetual state of unrest and dissatisfaction.
I've swallowed every pill in the house. And heaved up every bit of my pride.
Desperate to numb my pain, I've resorted to taking any medication available, resulting in me losing any sense of self-respect.
Toss and turn, crash and burn, toss and turn. The sun is rising, and I've nowhere to hide.
Tormented by my thoughts, I struggle to sleep as my problems continue to escalate. The morning light only reminds me of my inability to escape my troubles.
Spitting up blood in the bathroom; the ulcer goes deeper than these four walls.
The physical manifestation of my emotional pain has led to a bleeding ulcer, signifying the depth of my internal struggles that exist beyond the physical boundaries of my surroundings.
It's not romantic, and it's no sin. And cowards don't lose, they just never win.
Despite the glorification of self-destructive behavior, my suffering is not beautiful or admirable. My inability to overcome my struggles does not make me weak, only human.
I close my eyes and see everything as clear as day. I open my eyes just in time to see it taken away.
When I try to escape my reality, my mind only brings my problems into focus. As soon as I regain clarity, my problems continue to haunt me.
The next morning beats down on me like a bar-room brawl - it kicks my ass.
The morning after a night of self-destructive behavior feels like a physical altercation, leaving me bruised and emotionally drained.
I look outside to see that nothing changed. And nothing changes when I close my eyes.
The world continues to move on, indifferent to my struggles. My efforts to escape my problems are futile as they persist regardless of my attempts to ignore them.
Contributed by Camden L. Suggest a correction in the comments below.