What To Do
Shella & The L.O.X. Lyrics

I don't wanna stay like this
I don't want to remain in my current state

Trying to be more like you
I'm striving to be like a positive role model

At times it's too much to resist
In some cases, it's difficult to avoid temptation

I wonder if I can just get through
I question if I have the strength to persevere

Tired of living life, stressing bout this bills
Sick of constantly worrying about financial responsibilities

Trying to live right, but it always a fight
Attempting to make positive choices while consistently facing challenges

When I feel like a failure
During times of personal disappointment

LORD WHAT DO I DO
Asking for guidance from a higher power

I'm so tired of stressing about my life
Fatigued from worrying about my existence

Feeling like a failure as a man left and right
Sensing inadequacy and defeat as a male

When I try my best to do what's right
When I attempt to make positive choices

So I can remain precious in your sight
So I can maintain my worthiness in the eyes of a higher power

Tired of always being the one who's out of time
Exhausted from never having enough time

Then here comes Satan, tell me it would be better
Subsequently, negative thoughts can enter my mind

If I would just die, but that's a lie
The idea of death to avoid problems is untrue

If I had one wish, it would be not to live like this forever
If I could have anything, it would be a life free of struggles

I just want to let y'all in deeper then ever before
I want to be more transparent with others

To show y'all that even us that follow Yahweh
To demonstrate that even religious individuals face hardships

Hit points in life where we feel we can't do this anymore
Experience times when we believe we can no longer persevere

Keep your faith in him and he will turn your night into day
Maintain your trust in a higher power, and your hardships will eventually lessen

I keep my head up high and my heart is beating
I try to stay positive and optimistic

When I'm feeling down, my heart is a deadly weapon
During low points, my emotions can be destructive

No one can see that on the inside I'm bleeding
Others are unaware of my internal struggles

I don't want to be a burden
I don't want to be a source of difficulty for others

So like Pepsi I just bottle it up
As a coping mechanism, I keep my struggles inside

Until like boiling water unattended I boil over
Until my emotions become too much to handle

Then I feel like my whole world is over
I can feel defeated and hopeless

Regurgitation in my mouth sin, so know I'm throwing up
I can feel shameful for my negative actions

Lashing out in anger at the ones I love
Misdirecting my frustration towards those closest to me

Irritated at the mistakes they make cuz
Becoming annoyed with others' errors because of my personal struggles

Looking at the man in the mirror
Reflecting on and analyzing oneself

Feeling so ashamed at my behavior
Experiencing a significant amount of guilt for personal actions

At times I wanna light up or drink for a stress reliever
Sometimes, I want to use harmful coping mechanisms to alleviate stress

But that will only give me more problems G
Knowing that negative coping mechanisms will only create further difficulties

I can't go back down that path since I'm a believer
As a person of faith, I cannot resort to harmful habits

Yahweh I'm on my knees
Praying to a higher power for help

Begging you to redeem me please
Pleading for redemption or a fresh start

Please redeem me, I'M SO TIRED OF BEING THE OLD ME
Asking for a transformation and release from negative habits and behaviors