Her work as a singer/songwriter has been featured on MTV's The Hills, Mercy, The Big C and The Bad Girls Club. Her debut single 'Superhero' was used to promote NBC's Monday night line-up and received an independent Music Award for best R&B song.
She sang back up for an endless list of superstars for Michael Jackson: 30th Anniversary Celebration at Madison Square Garden and has lent her voice to the film soundtracks for Hairspray, Enchanted and Dance Flick, as well as FOX's Glee and House. Shoshana claims DEAR JOHN MAYER as her latest triumph, a musical she co-created, starred in and for which she wrote the music and lyrics.
She is currently recording her as yet untitled sophomore album.
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Avalon
Shoshana Bean Lyrics
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Now that I’m here I wanna turn around so I can see your face
You choose silence as a weapon
The weapon that you use to punish me
And now I’m ashamed I let you
Let you get away with the way you speak to me
Oh Avalon, sweet Avalon
Avalon, sweet Avalon
You can’t save us we’re too far gone
There ain’t a distance too far
That can keep you from my heart
There ain’t an ocean too wide
That won’t deliver your memory in with the tide
I use silence for protection
Protection as I’m trying to heal the break
And I’ll be damned if I will ever
If I will ever give you the pleasure of my pain
Oh Avalon, sweet Avalon
Plans we made but never acted on
Avalon, sweet Avalon
You can’t save us we’re too far gone
I’m choking on questions
But I don’t want the answers
Understanding won’t change a thing
Words are a waste when you have no intention to stay
OH in Avalon, sweet Avalon
Plans we made but never acted on
Avalon, sweet Avalon
You can’t save us we’re too far gone
Can you help me move on
The lyrics of Shoshana Bean's song "Avalon" speak about the struggles of a failed relationship and the pain of distance. The first stanza mentions driving a long distance to escape from something, though now the person wants to turn around and see their lover's face. The second stanza talks about silence being used as a weapon, something that is seen as punishment by the person in the relationship. The singer speaks of their shame for allowing the partner to use this weapon and hurt them. The chorus states the title of the song, which is repeated throughout the song. The phrase "sweet Avalon" is used to express that the relationship was once beautiful and loving, but it was never acted upon. The chorus also laments the fact that the relationship is beyond help and that it is too far gone.
The third stanza talks about the distance between the two lovers and how it cannot keep them from each other's hearts. The singer uses silence as a form of protection and speaks of their resolve to not give in to the pain that the partner has caused them. The second chorus follows a similar pattern to the first, highlighting the beauty of the relationship that could have been had it been acted upon. The last stanza speaks of the singer's need to move on but is choking on questions that remain unanswered. They do not want to hear the answers or seek understanding because it will not change the fact that the relationship is over.
Line by Line Meaning
I drove 500 miles to get away
I traveled long just to escape from you
Now that I’m here I wanna turn around so I can see your face
Even though I'm here, my heart still wants to see your face
You choose silence as a weapon
You use silence to hurt me
The weapon that you use to punish me
Your silence is your way to punish me
And now I’m ashamed I let you
I regret allowing you to affect me this way
Let you get away with the way you speak to me
I feel regret for allowing you to continue to talk to me the way you do
Oh Avalon, sweet Avalon
A reference to the person who she's addressing as Avalon
Plans we made but never acted on
We talked about doing things together but never went through with them
You can’t save us we’re too far gone
It's too late to change things
There ain’t a distance too far
No matter how far apart we are, my feelings for you will still exist
That can keep you from my heart
No amount of physical distance can keep me from loving you
There ain’t an ocean too wide
No matter how vast the distance is, I will always remember you
That won’t deliver your memory in with the tide
Whenever I'm close to water, I am reminded of you
I use silence for protection
I use silence as a mechanism to protect myself
Protection as I’m trying to heal the break
Silence is soothing for me as I try to recover from the pain you caused
And I’ll be damned if I will ever
She will never allow herself to be vulnerable to this person again
If I will ever give you the pleasure of my pain
She won't allow this person to hurt her again and do it so easily
I’m choking on questions
She feels overwhelmed with unanswered questions
But I don’t want the answers
She doesn't want to know the answers as they may hurt her more
Understanding won’t change a thing
Regardless of how much she understands, it won't change the pain they've caused
Words are a waste when you have no intention to stay
He has no intention of staying and talking is a waste of time if there's no future
OH in Avalon, sweet Avalon
Another reference to the person she is addressing as Avalon
Plans we made but never acted on
A repetition of the previous line
You can’t save us we’re too far gone
A repetition of the previous line
Can you help me move on
An indirect request for the person she's addressing to help her move on
Contributed by Brooklyn B. Suggest a correction in the comments below.