Drowning
Sik World Lyrics

Yeah, I wish I can numb this pain, I thought by now I won't complain
I want to escape from the hurt and feelings of sadness, but I keep experiencing them.

I got the cash with half the fame, lost half my heart and kept the veins
I am successful in my career, but I feel incomplete and emotionally drained.

We had our spark and lost our flame, I tried to talk, had none to say
We used to have a strong connection, but now we struggle to communicate or connect with each other.

I want the love, you never gave was hurting me your only aim
I desired your love, but you only sought to hurt me.

You shot my heart, I bled out hate 'cause tho you left, the trauma stayed
You caused me so much pain that it still affects me even though you are gone.

I wish the past, would go away but I guess gotta live with it
I want to forget about the past, but I realize that I cannot change it.

Times changed, I don't feel different
Although things have changed around me, I still feel the same way inside.

Despite the hurdles in my life I kept my vision alive
Although life has not been easy, I have continued to pursue my goals and dreams.

I had no one on my side, yet I still did it
I had to face my challenges alone, but I did not let that stop me.

I'm missing the old me, talking pre-depression
I long for the person I was before depression took over my life.

Where I felt alive and I had a connection
I recall a time when I felt happy and connected to those around me.

Now I'm dead inside 'cause I lost my direction
I feel empty and lost because I do not know where to go or what to do next.

I don't put my wall down for my own protection
I guard my emotions to prevent myself from getting hurt.

And I'm tired of people using me, people lie what do you believe
I am fed up with people taking advantage of me and lying to me, and I struggle to trust others.

I know people see the truth in me and I know one day you will see
Although some people understand me, I hope that more people will come to understand me in the future.

That being true was a tool for me
I have learned that being true to myself is an important tool for coping with my struggles.

I be sticking to myself, I don't need nobody else
I prefer to be alone and independent, rather than relying on others for support.

Just relief, from this trauma that keeps on ruining me
All I want is to find some release from the pain and trauma that I continue to experience.

'Cause lately I'm loosing sleep and nobody's getting thru' to me
I am struggling to sleep and no one seems to be able to help me or understand my pain.

Feels like I'm losing sleep
I am experiencing insomnia due to my emotional struggles.

I want my mind at ease
I wish to find peace and relief from my anxiety and depression.

Feels like I'm losing me
I feel like I am losing touch with myself and my identity.

I wanna find relief
I hope to find relief from my emotional pain and trauma.

Feels like I need to breathe
I feel suffocated by my thoughts and emotions, and I need to find a way to breathe freely again.

I think I'm into deep, now
I feel overwhelmed and trapped by my struggles and trauma.

I'm drowning in my thoughts
I am overwhelmed by negative thoughts and feelings.

Drowning, by myself
I feel alone and isolated in my struggles, unable to find the support and help I need.

I'm drowning, I need help
I am struggling and need help and support to overcome my struggles and trauma.

I'm drowning, they can't tell
Despite my struggles, others do not realize the extent of my pain and trauma.

I'm drowning, oh
I am overwhelmed and drowning in my struggles, feeling lost and alone.

I'm still here and still driven, people see me as a meal ticket
Despite my struggles, I am still focused on my goals and aspirations, but others try to take advantage of me.

They get nothing, they can deal with it
I refuse to let others take advantage of me and will stand up for myself.

I guess me and them were built different
I do not fit in with those who try to take advantage of me, and I am proud of that.

I work for whatever I'm given
I am hardworking and do not take anything for granted, working for everything I receive.

I been living inside of my room since I was 15
I have struggled with depression and anxiety for years, spending much of my time alone in my room.

Making a bunch of songs hoping somebody gets me
I express my emotions and struggles through music, in the hopes that others can relate to and understand me.

I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening
Despite my success, I still feel painfully alone and isolated.

When you're expressing your pain and no one is listening
It is heartbreaking to try to share my struggles and emotions, only to feel unheard and misunderstood.

Life's hard to manage
Life is difficult to handle and navigate, especially with the added challenges of mental health issues.

I feel like I have a disadvantage
My struggles with mental health make me feel at a disadvantage in life.

Since my childhood left me hella damaged
My struggles with mental health have been present since my childhood, causing lasting damage.

I don't know love because I never had it
My past experiences have made it difficult for me to understand or trust love.

Every relationship I'm in never lasted, only toxic woman was all I attracted
My past relationships have been toxic and damaging, and I struggle to attract healthier relationships.

I continuously fear having attachments
I worry that forming connections and attachments with others will only result in more pain and trauma for me.

Honestly It was really hard getting past it but
It has been a difficult journey to overcome my struggles, but I have been working hard to do so.

It is what it is you get what you give
You reap what you sow, and I am working hard to create a better life for myself despite my struggles.

I wish I learned quicker, look, I probably did
I wish I could have learned from my mistakes sooner, but I am still making progress and moving forward.

Just didn't accept it
I struggled to accept my past experiences and mistakes, but I am working on coming to terms with them.

Inside of my mind is where my demons roam
I struggle with negative thoughts and emotions that feel overwhelming and pervasive.

I try to hide 'cause they won't leave me alone
I try to avoid my negative thoughts and emotions, but they continue to haunt me and affect my daily life.

I overthink all of my mistakes on my own
I constantly ruminate on my past mistakes and regrets, often blaming myself for things that were not entirely my fault.

I don't know where to go, it's 'cause it
I feel lost and directionless, unsure of what path to take or what steps to take next to overcome my struggles.