She is twenty years old and from Cape Cod, Massachusetts, US. She first auditioned for American Idol in Boston. As the former lead singer of the band Lunar Valve, Siobhan is no stranger to singing epically.
Performances on American Idol:
Top 6: Any Man of Mine (American Idol Studio Version)
Top 7: When You Believe (American Idol Studio Version)
Top 9 (Part 2): Suspicious Minds (American Idol Studio Version)
Top 9 (Part 1): Across the Universe (American Idol Studio Version)
Top 10: Through The Fire (American Idol Studio Version)
Top 11: Superstition (American Idol Studio Version)
Top 12: Paint It Black (American Idol Studio Version)
Top 8 Girls: House of the Rising Sun (American Idol Performance)
Top 10 Girls: Think (American Idol Performance)
Top 12 Girls: Wicked Game (American Idol Performance)
Hollywood Week Day/Round 3: Living for the City
Black Doll
Siobhan Magnus Lyrics
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No eyes, no hair, no arms to cross
Sometimes I feel like the alphabet of misery
A is for Apple that will poison and choke me
But when you draw me
There's a hole where my heart should be
And I could take my crayons and color it red
With flowers, and pearls, and pretty things
But that's not me
You know me
That's not me
I'm the girl who lived in the purple house
Tryin' to sneak in and out quiet as a mouse
Sometimes the monsters would sneak out into the driveway
People saw me and all they saw was strange
But when you draw me
There's a hole where my heart should be
And I could take my crayons and color it red
Decorate the monster underneath my bed
With flowers, and pearls, and pretty things
But that's not me
You know me
That's not me
I always feel like the doubtful guest, oh
People whisperin', wishin' I would leave underneath their breath
But when you draw me
There's a hole where my heart should be
And I could take my crayons and color it red
Decorate the monster underneath my bed
But when you draw me
There's a hole where my heart should be
And I could take my crayons and color it red
Decorate the monster underneath my bed
With flowers, and pearls, and pretty things
But that's not me
You know me
That's not me
That's not me
Siobhan Magnus's song Black Doll is a powerful reflection on feelings of inadequacy and not fitting in. The lyrics express a sense of being incomplete, like an unfinished doll without eyes, hair, or arms to cross. The chorus describes the feeling of a hole in the heart where emotions should be. The singer of the song has experienced ridicule and isolation for being "strange," but someone (perhaps a friend, lover, or artist) sees her more deeply and can draw her as she truly is, with truth and honesty.
The lyrics also contain a poetic metaphor of the "alphabet of misery," beginning with "A is for Apple that will poison and choke me." This suggests a bleak outlook on life, perhaps influenced by negative experiences in the singer's past. Despite this, she seems to find comfort in the act of drawing and creating, as evidenced by the lines, "And I could take my crayons and color it red/Decorate the monster underneath my bed/With flowers, and pearls, and pretty things."
Ultimately, the song is an emotional plea for understanding and acceptance - a message that is likely to resonate with anyone who has felt like an "unfinished doll" at some point in their life.
Line by Line Meaning
Sometimes I feel like an unfinished doll
There are times when I feel incomplete and inadequate, like an unfinished object.
No eyes, no hair, no arms to cross
I lack the basic features that define a complete doll, and I have nothing to protect myself with.
Sometimes I feel like the alphabet of misery
I associate myself with the unfavorable reality of life and feel like a personification of sadness.
A is for Apple that will poison and choke me
I see everything in light of impending doom, even the simplest of things like an apple could prove fatal.
But when you draw me
However, when you portray me in your art or perception,
There's a hole where my heart should be
You see a void in me, where my emotional core should exist.
And I could take my crayons and color it red
I'm capable of covering up that emptiness with a show of passion or energy, either as a choice or a facade.
Decorate the monster underneath my bed
I could adorn some wishful qualities or attributes, but in reality, I have deep-rooted fears and imperfections.
With flowers, and pearls, and pretty things
I could try to mask my actual self with beautiful embellishments, but that won't make up for my lack of identity.
But that's not me
However, all of these elements don't represent the real me.
You know me
You understand and recognize my true self.
I'm the girl who lived in the purple house
I'm a person with a unique past and experience, like living in a distinctively colored house.
Tryin' to sneak in and out quiet like a mouse
I used to be quiet and secretive, trying not to draw attention to myself.
Sometimes the monsters would sneak out into the driveway
At times, my fears and insecurities would manifest outside of me and be visible to others.
People saw me and all they saw was strange
Most people couldn't understand me, and I was perceived as odd or complex.
I always feel like the doubtful guest
I'm never sure if I belong or if I'm accepted in a given setting or community.
People whisperin', wishin' I would leave underneath their breath
I can sense when others want me to leave or think lowly of me, even if they don't express it openly.
Contributed by Vivian Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Sepia1989
I wish millions of people would enjoy this song as much as me. But apparently that won't happen. UNLESS, all of you Siobhan's fans share this video to everyone you know, RIGHT NOW. DO IT NOW.
1mustang48
For all of us that appreciate what Siobhan has accomplished and want her to continue as the artist only she can define. Siobhan's video keeps me wanting more ! Having her new MoonBabyCD has become my latest reminder of her talent let it become yours also !! .... a fan ....
BatVapes
How she didn't win on Idol....I'll never know
Jorge Acuña Marín
Siobhan and Haley Reinhart really deserved it. I would also add Jena Irene here
UltraViolet Morgan♓🧸
She's not... mainstream. She's talented but she's just not what the idol audience is looking for. Besides it's mostly boys who win.
1mustang48
Siobhan this is why I follow you, the music you make is real, you make it easy for me to keep following. Bought your new CD, It is from the heart, not always easy to do. All I can say is " RockOnSiobhan " !! love it, from a fan !!
Xabier Castillo
I cannot believe she have an album out and I didnt know. I even have her on my facebook. I believe so much in this girl. and i really hope she do well. why no promotions?
VioletFlameMusic
Siobhan's new release "Moonbaby" is so awesome!! The depth of the songs, the melodies, the arrangements, but most of all...... Siobhan's incredible voice. Wow!! Each song is great, but..............Standout songs for me are "Always Thinking" , "Little Blue Pill" and "Pure Inspirations" . I CRAVE to hear "Always Thinking" . Brilliant in so many ways!!
kstark1961
Can't wait for a full album. This girl is so special it hurts!
WestCoastBrian Tiberius
She is awesome and the way she can sustain the high notes puts her in a class above many!!!!:-)) Amazing vocals and she totally got ripped!!!!