His Way Of Loving Me
Sirima Lyrics

Why do you look at me as if you never saw
Why are you giving me that look like you've never seen someone who's been hurt before?

Someone who's been hurt this way before?
Have you not realized that this kind of pain is not uncommon and happens to many people?

Isn't unusual it happens to more than one
It's not unusual for me to experience this kind of pain, I have to learn to just accept it as it comes.

'Got to learn to take it as it comes
I need to learn to handle the pain as best as I can and not let it defeat me.

He doesn't mean it though he does it every time
Even though he hurts me every time, I know he doesn't do it intentionally.

He hits when he can't find the words
Instead of communicating and finding the right words to express himself, he resorts to hitting me.

Must be his background it happened to him that way
Perhaps his past experiences have shaped the way he handles his emotions.

Says his hurting a lot more than me
He claims that he's hurting just as much, if not more than I am.

When the storm has blown over, the bruising's begun
Once the argument is over and things have calmed down, I find myself physically bruised and hurt.

He physically proves to me I'm his "only one"
He tries to prove his love to me through physical means despite the fact that it causes me pain.

I'm left wondering - am I wrong
I start to question whether or not it's right for me to continue believing that we belong together.

To keep on believing that we belong?
Should I really hold onto the idea that we're meant to be together despite the hurt he causes me?

My bones are aching, the tears still flow
My physical and emotional pain persists despite his attempts to show me love.

A voice keeps telling me I ought to know
I keep hearing a voice inside me telling me that this kind of love is not healthy or sustainable.

It's just his way of loving me... His way...
I try to justify his actions to myself by thinking that this is just how he expresses his love.

Don't try to tell me I will lose my mind
Don't try to make me believe that I'm crazy for staying with him and putting up with the pain.

If I live with a man like him
Despite his actions, I believe that I can still make a life with him.

Do you know him, do you ever see him cry like I do?
You don't know him like I do, I've seen him vulnerable and emotional.

I never dreamed love could be like war,
I had no idea that love could be so tumultuous and painful.

Turn to blows when we can't have our way
We resort to physical violence when things don't go the way we want them to.

Is the reason - human nature?
Is it just human nature to resort to violence when we can't control our emotions?

Does he really hurt more than me?
I question whether or not he truly understands the emotional pain that he causes me.

At the end of a lifetime you've made your mistake
I don't want to look back on my life and realize that staying with him was a mistake.

You've taken even more than you were able to take
If I continue to put up with the pain, I fear that it will eventually break me.

The love in his eyes out of range
Despite his physical attentions, I start to realize that the love in his eyes is no longer there.

And you realise, 'too late to change'
I fear that I've stayed with him for too long and it's too late to change my situation now.

Your bones are aching again and again"...
Despite the pain, I keep returning to him, causing my physical and emotional pain to persist.

I've got to find a way to believe my pain
I need to acknowledge and understand the pain that I'm feeling, and not let my desire to stay with him blind me to the reality of my situation.

Woh, I say it's his way of loving me, his way of loving me.
Despite everything, I try to convince myself that his actions are just another way of expressing his love.