Jumpers
Sleater-Kinney Lyrics

I spend the afternoon in cars
I spend hours of my day sitting in my car

I sit in traffic jams for hours
I endure long periods of being stuck in traffic

Don't push me, I am not OK
I am not in a good state of mind and can't handle any extra stress

The sky is blue most every day
The weather is consistently warm and sunny in this region

The lemons grow like tumors they
Lemons are everywhere and in abundance, like a sickness that's taken over the region

Are tiny suns infused with sour
The lemons look like miniature suns but taste sour

Lonely as a cloud
I feel disconnected from my surroundings and alone

In the Golden State
This is California, known as the Golden State

The coldest winter that I ever saw was
The temperature was surprisingly cold for this usually warm region

The summer that I spent
During the summer months

The only substance is the fog
There is little to see or experience beyond the thick layer of fog that surrounds me

And it hides all that has gone wrong
The fog obscures anything unpleasant or negative from my view

Can't see a thing inside the maze
It's difficult to find my way through this confusing and complex place

There is a bridge adored and famed
There is a famous and beloved bridge in this area

The golden spine of engineering
This bridge is an impressive feat of engineering and has a distinctive golden color

Whose back is heavy with my weight
I feel as though my problems and struggles are being carried by this bridge

Be still this old heart
I need to calm myself and quiet my emotions

Be still this old skin
I need to relax and not let things get under my skin

Drink your last drink
Enjoy the final moments of pleasure and indulgence

Sin your last sin
Make your final mistakes and don't worry about the consequences

Sing your last song
Celebrate your final moments with one last outburst of joy and energy

About the beginning
Reflect on the past and the things that led to this moment

Sing it out loud
Make sure everyone can hear your voice and your message

So the people can hear
Make sure your message is heard and understood by others

Be still this sad day
Acknowledge the sadness and hardship of the current moment

Be still this sad year
Endure the difficult passage of time and don't give up hope

Hope your last hope
Hold onto hope until the very end

Fear you last fear
Don't let fear hold you back from experiencing life to the fullest

You're not the only one
Others are experiencing similar struggles and hardships

You're not the only one
There are others who can empathize and support you

You're not the only one
You are not alone in your journey

You're not the only one
Others are facing similar obstacles and difficulties

My falling shape will draw a line
As I jump off this bridge, my body will create a visual marker in the sky

Between the blue of sea and sky
My body will create a contrast between the blue water and the blue sky

I'm not a bird, I'm not a plane
I am simply a human being, not a supernatural being capable of flight

I took a taxi to the gate
I have made the decision to follow through with my plan to end my life

I will not go to school again
This decision means that I will never be able to experience life or learn anything new

Four seconds was the longest wait
In the final moments leading up to my death, every second felt like an eternity

Four seconds was the longest wait
As I wait to jump, my mind is racing with thoughts and emotions, and time feels like it's moving impossibly slowly

Four seconds was the longest wait
My fear and doubt are at their peak, and each moment leading up to the jump feels like an agony

Four seconds was the longest wait
Even though it's only a few seconds, it feels like an eternity as I face down my own death