on you
Snailmate Lyrics
Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴ Line by Line Meaning ↴
Since I caught a look at sunshine leaking into my home
Searching like a crazy person for a hole I could plug
Before I know it I was pumped up and covered in dust
I'm allergic to excitement when its not in my head
To any reason or impetus to get out of the bed
I'm super nervous it occurs to me I'm turning into something
That considers getting ridiculed as similar to loving
I deserve something slightly better than hell
And I cry until I hear the disembodied voice of god
I know what you want
But you can't have it
I know what you want
But you won't get it
I know what you want
But you can't have it
I know what you want
It's not long enough
Before I notice something sticky dripping onto my rug
I had to take a little taste just to know what it was
Next thing I know I'm feral and addicted to blood
I been avoiding the outside world for so long
That the sweetness caught me by surprise, I'd nearly forgot
I'm super nervous its a certainty I'm turning into someone
Who is searching for the spotlight at the center of a circus
I try to remind myself
Getting out of bed is a detriment to my health
Still I rise if just to spite the condescending voice of god
I know what you want
But you can't have it
I know what you want
But you won't get it
I know what you want
But you can't have it
I know what you want
But it don't exist
The lyrics to Snailmate's song "On You" seem to convey a sense of isolation, loneliness, and the struggle to find motivation and purpose in life. The opening line mentions a desire for sunshine, which can represent a desire for positivity and happiness. The next line suggests that the singer has been searching for a solution to their problems but hasn't found one yet. They are allergic to excitement, meaning that they can't find motivation or joy in anything outside of their own thoughts. The singer is nervous because they feel like they are turning into someone who is content with being ridiculed and not striving for anything better.
The second verse adds another layer to the singer's struggles. They mention something sticky dripping onto their rug, which could represent an addiction or bad habit that they can't resist. They have been avoiding the outside world for so long that they have forgotten what it's like to experience something sweet or positive. They are nervous about becoming someone who is constantly searching for validation and attention, even if it means performing in a circus.
Throughout the song, the singer is trying to convince themselves that they deserve something better than what they have, but they are constantly met with a condescending voice that tells them they can't have it. The final line, "But it don't exist," suggests that the singer feels like their desires and aspirations are impossible to achieve.
Overall, the lyrics to "On You" seem to convey a sense of hopelessness and a lack of direction. The singer is struggling to find a purpose in life and is constantly battling their own negative thoughts and habits.
Line by Line Meaning
It's been too damn long
I haven't experienced happiness or joy in a long time
Since I caught a look at sunshine leaking into my home
I haven't seen the sun or light shine into my home in quite some time
Searching like a crazy person for a hole I could plug
I'm frantically trying to find a way to fix my problems
Before I know it I was pumped up and covered in dust
I got excited about trying to fix my problems but ended up feeling defeated
I'm allergic to excitement when its not in my head
I get anxious and uncomfortable when trying to enjoy something in the real world
To any reason or impetus to get out of the bed
I lack motivation or a reason to even get out of bed
I'm super nervous it occurs to me I'm turning into something
I'm worried that I'm changing into a worse version of myself
That considers getting ridiculed as similar to loving
I've become so afraid of being judged that I can no longer express love or affection
I try to convince myself
I attempt to persuade myself that my situation isn't as bad as it seems
I deserve something slightly better than hell
I believe that I should have a slightly better life than the one I currently have
And I cry until I hear the disembodied voice of god
I cry and pray for guidance or answers until I feel like I've received a response from a higher power
I know what you want
The voice of God is speaking to me
But you can't have it
God is telling me that what I want is not attainable
It's not long enough
Even if I do achieve what I want, it won't be long-lasting or fulfilling
Before I notice something sticky dripping onto my rug
Suddenly, something enticing or tempting is presented to me
I had to take a little taste just to know what it was
I indulge in the temptation to determine if it's worth pursuing further
Next thing I know I'm feral and addicted to blood
Before I know it, I become consumed and addicted to the temptation
I been avoiding the outside world for so long
I've been avoiding social situations and the world outside my home for an extended period of time
That the sweetness caught me by surprise, I'd nearly forgot
The enjoyment from the temptation is unexpected because I've been so out of touch with the outside world
Its a certainty I'm turning into someone
I'm sure that I'm changing as a person
Who is searching for the spotlight at the center of a circus
I'm becoming someone who craves attention and validation from others
I try to remind myself
I attempt to remember and convince myself that my isolation is a better choice
Getting out of bed is a detriment to my health
The idea of facing the world outside of my bed is overwhelming and negatively affects my health
Still I rise if just to spite the condescending voice of god
Despite the negative voice in my head telling me otherwise, I get out of bed and try to live my life
But you won't get it
God is telling me that what I want is impossible to attain or achieve
But you can't have it
God is reinforcing that my desires are out of my reach
But it don't exist
What I'm seeking is nonexistent or unobtainable
Lyrics © DistroKid, Songtrust Ave
Written by: BENTLEY MONET HAUGTVEDT, KALEN THOMAS LANDER
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind