Society 1 first rose to notoriety in 1999 with their debut album, "Slacker Jesus", earning massive press coverage through such media outlets as MTV, VH1, Billboard, Details, Rolling Stone, Spin, Revolver, and Kerrang!. Adding to the media frenzy was the fact that Matt Zane was an acclaimed porn director, gaining worldwide infamy for his "Backstage Sluts" series, a series of films which matched porn stars with such real-life rockers as Limp Bizkit's Fred Durst, Korn's Jonathan Davis, and Sugar Ray's Mark McGrath.
Society 1's second album, "Exit Through Fear", was released worldwide in the Spring of 2003 on Earache Records. Society 1's first video, "Nothing", (in which Zane performs the first real "suspension" ever done by a singer in a music video), aired regularly on American Tv station Fuse's Uranium, along with a special episode of Uranium devoted entirely to the making-of the "Nothing" video. By the end of 2003, Society 1 had completed more touring than any other Earache band that year, supporting such acts as Dope, Twiztid, and Pissing Razors on marathon coast-to-coast tours.
In March 2004, Matt "The Lord" Zane took his suspension feat to the next level, making himself the first singer to ever sing live while suspended. Drawing over 700 fans to LA's Key Club, The Lord performed three songs live with Society 1 whilst hanging up to 30 feet above the stage, supported only by six meathooks inserted in his flesh. Orgy frontman Jay Gordon made a special guest appearance on vocals.
The "suspension show" marked Society 1's final U.S. show in support of "Exit Through Fear". In May 2004 Society 1 take their brand of rock n roll debauchery to Europe, in support of Godhead, for their first tour outside of the U.S Following the tour, the band will enter the studio to begin recording their third album (their second for Earache). Meanwhile, Society 1's third video, "Hate", was accepted by MTV2's Headbangers Ball and Fuse's Uranium.
Society 1's current line-up features Matt Zane on vocals, Dirst on bass, Atron on guitar and Berzerk Kirk on drums. They are currently working on their next full length album, Sadist Messiah, scheduled to be released in 2008.
Kill Myself
Society 1 Lyrics
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Look at what I've become
The power of my name
Has driven me insane
Don't know what else to say
There's nothing left to say
Time to make this go away
I want to kill myself inside of you
I can't live with you here
Wanting me it's all for fear
Don't know what else to say
There's nothing left to say
I'd die to make this go away
I want to kill myself inside of you
So when I die you'll feel what you put me through
Looking at me
What do you see?
Someone you want
Something to be
Worship me now
Wondering how
You can become the only one
I want to kill myself inside of you
So when I die you'll feel what you put me through
The lyrics of Society 1's song "Kill Myself" delve into the theme of self-harm and suicidal tendencies, driven by the power of one's name and the pressure of being desired and worshipped. The singer expresses a deep hatred towards themselves and those who seem to have pushed them towards this edge. They state that they have nothing left to say and that it's time to make everything go away, indicating a sense of hopelessness and desperation.
The lines "I want to kill myself inside of you, so when I die you'll feel what you put me through" add a layer of complexity to the lyrics, suggesting that perhaps the singer blames someone else for their circumstances and wants to evoke feelings of guilt in them once they're gone. The last verse implies that the singer is a public figure of sorts, with people constantly wanting to be them or be with them, which has only added to their distress.
Overall, the song highlights the devastating effects of mental illness, especially in the face of societal pressure and expectations. It is a powerful and intense depiction of the inner turmoil and anguish that can lead someone to contemplate taking their own life.
Line by Line Meaning
Look at what I have done
Reflecting on the actions and decisions that have led to the current state of being
Look at what I've become
Examining the changes and transformations that have occurred over time
The power of my name
The influence and control that comes with having a well-known and respected identity
Has driven me insane
Causing mental instability and irrational behavior as a result of the pressure and expectations attached to one's reputation
Don't know what else to say
Expressing a lack of words or solutions to the problem at hand
There's nothing left to say
Acknowledging that there are no more ideas or communication that can fix the situation
Time to make this go away
Realizing that the only option left is to make the problem disappear altogether
I want to kill myself inside of you
Desiring to end one's own life while causing pain and guilt to others
So when I die you'll feel what you put me through
Placing the blame on others for one's own suffering and hoping they will experience the same emotions
Looking at me
Being observed and judged by others
What do you see?
Questioning how others perceive oneself
Someone you want
Being desired and sought after by others
Something to be
Being viewed as an object or a means to an end
Worship me now
Demanding and expecting admiration and devotion from others
Wondering how
Pondering how to maintain this idolized image
You can become the only one
Believing that one can achieve complete dominance and superiority over others
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