Indie quartet Sorority Noise were formed in 2013 by singer/guitarist Cameron Boucher, who also fronts the New Hampshire-based screamo group Old Gray. Looking for an outlet for some alternate material, he enlisted Old Gray drummer Charlie Singer, along with Prawn bassist Ryan McKenna and second guitarist Adam Ackerman, to form Sorority Noise in Hartford, Connecticut. After a handful of early releases, including a cassette EP and digital single, Boucher and his bandmates delivered their debut LP, Forgettable, in early 2014. Fusing bits of emo and pop-punk with melodic indie rock, the band eventually caught the attention of respected East Coast indie Top Shelf Records. Released in June of 2015, Joy Departed, their follow-up album -- and debut for Top Shelf -- took a more diverse and introspective approach. It was followed by a national tour with Motion City Soundtrack.The year 2016 saw both the release of a new Sorority Noise EP, It Kindly Stopped for Me, and the reissue of their debut album, Forgettable, via Broken World Media. These served to set up the release of their deeply introspective third full-length, You're Not as _____ as You Think, this time arriving via Triple Crown Records in early 2017. A reimagined all-acoustic version of the album was released a year later under the title YNAAYT, further emphasizing the band's increasingly reflective tone. ~ Timothy Monger, Rovi
Members
Cameron Boucher - Guitar/Vocals
Adam Ackerman - Guitar/Vocals/Piano
Charlie Singer - Drums
Ryan McKenna - Bass
Mononokay
Sorority Noise Lyrics
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And am I getting better
I used to make excuses for myself
but its not the weather
I tried to rid myself
Of my anxious tendency
I have to accept my head for what it is to me
I'm not super human
Well I would kill to leave my house
And not be afraid of the outside
So I started thinking
It'd be so nice
To not have trouble sleeping
I haven't slept in nights.
So I called to apologize
For every night
I told you I didn't want to live my life
But I hung up
Before you pick up
Because I changed my mind
no more (??)
And I know about myself
And if giving up doesn't make you stronger
Then why the hell am I still here
Call me depressed
And tell me to get over it
It's not in my head
but It's in my blood
So I called to apologize
For every night
I told you I didn't want to live my life
But I hung up
Before you pick up
Because I changed my mind
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At getting better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
At being me
The song Mononokay by Sorority Noise delves into the complexities of mental health and the process of healing. In the lyrics, the singer questions what it means to be happy and wonders if they are making progress in their journey to overcome anxiety and depression. They express a desire to accept their struggles and the way their mind works instead of making excuses for it. The singer relays the difficulty they have leaving their house and sleeping at night. They have apologized to someone in the past for not wanting to live their life, indicating a struggle with suicidal ideation. However, they have had a change of heart and have started to improve in their efforts to get better. In the final lines of the song, the singer declares that they are getting better at being themselves.
The lyrics in this song are rich with emotion and express the complexities of mental health issues. The singer is struggling to cope with anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation throughout the song. The lyrics demonstrate the battle between wanting to get better, but also feeling the weight of the struggle. The singer expresses a sense of confidence in themselves in the final lyrics of the song, signifying hope and resilience.
Line by Line Meaning
What does it mean to be happy
Questioning the true meaning of happiness
And am I getting better
Questioning personal improvement
I used to make excuses for myself
but its not the weather
No longer making excuses for personal problems
I tried to rid myself
Of my anxious tendency
Attempting to overcome anxiety
I have to accept my head for what it is to me
Realizing that certain personal struggles may always exist
I'm not super human
Well I'm barely alive
Acknowledging personal vulnerability and weakness
Well I would kill to leave my house
And not be afraid of the outside
Desiring to overcome agoraphobia
So I started thinking
It'd be so nice
To not have trouble sleeping
I haven't slept in nights.
Wanting relief from insomnia
So I called to apologize
For every night
I told you I didn't want to live my life
But I hung up
Before you pick up
Because I changed my mind
Apologizing for previous statements about suicide, but deciding against it
no more (??)
Unclear what is being referred to
And I know about myself
And if giving up doesn't make you stronger
Then why the hell am I still here
Realizing personal strength in persevering
Call me depressed
And tell me to get over it
It's not in my head
but It's in my blood
Addressing the frustration of dealing with depression as a chronic condition
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At getting better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
At being me
Reflecting on personal growth and self-improvement
Contributed by Nathan P. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@syamiliqbal6603
What does it mean to be happy
And am I getting better
I used to make excuses for myself
But it's not the weather
I tried to rid myself
Of my anxious tendency
I have to accept my head for what it is to me
I'm not super human
Well I'm barely alive
Well I would kill to leave my house
And not be afraid of the outside
So I started thinking
It'd be so nice
To not have trouble sleeping
I haven't slept in nights
So I called to apologize
For every night
I told you I didn't want to live my life
But I hung up
Before you pick up
Because I changed my mind
You know more about plants
Than I know about myself
And if giving up doesn't make you stronger
Then why the hell am I still here
Call me depressed
And tell me to get over it
It's not in my head
But It's in my blood
So I called to apologize
For every night
I told you I didn't want to live my life
But I hung up
Before you pick up
Because I changed my mind
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At getting better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
At being me
@coda4150
what i love so much about this band is how real their lyrics are and how much they fill the space of those things you could never really get yourself to say
thank you sorority noise
@syamiliqbal6603
What does it mean to be happy
And am I getting better
I used to make excuses for myself
But it's not the weather
I tried to rid myself
Of my anxious tendency
I have to accept my head for what it is to me
I'm not super human
Well I'm barely alive
Well I would kill to leave my house
And not be afraid of the outside
So I started thinking
It'd be so nice
To not have trouble sleeping
I haven't slept in nights
So I called to apologize
For every night
I told you I didn't want to live my life
But I hung up
Before you pick up
Because I changed my mind
You know more about plants
Than I know about myself
And if giving up doesn't make you stronger
Then why the hell am I still here
Call me depressed
And tell me to get over it
It's not in my head
But It's in my blood
So I called to apologize
For every night
I told you I didn't want to live my life
But I hung up
Before you pick up
Because I changed my mind
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At getting better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
At being me
@ericccascott
saw this band last night with modern baseball... can't believe i've never heard it before. I think this may be a new obsession
@i1laugh1at1you
I was at the same concert. lol. I think I saw you.
@ericccascott
thats awesome! lol
@obscene.
+Erica Stevens two of my absolute favorite bands.
@dianeneely6854
where did you see them at?
@IncoherentClam
Erica Stevens found out about them months ago but I couldn't believe the same took me 2 albums to find such a gem
@cassiejacobs2485
This is honestly the greatest band ive discovered since My Chemical Romanceike no band has ever made me feel the same way mcr does but this comes pretty damn close
@---rd1rd
agreed