This featured for the first time ex-Gong violinist, Graham Clark, who had jammed with the band on several occasions. He focused mainly on guitar in the band, taking over from Will, and still performs with the band occasionally. 1999 saw another line-up change, when Dibs was joined by Craig Dewberry on drums, and Fran Halsall on keyboards, who gigged with Graham for a while before being joined by Martyn Needham from Derby space-rockers Dr. Hasbeen on guitar duties. This line-up recorded an EP, "Escape Velocity Preview", with Neil Mycock from Craig's old band Flaw on extra guitar. (Neil had, in-fact, played a couple of gigs with the band in between Graham's departure and Martyn joining). 2001 saw the band releasing another compilation "Explode Into Space- Inhalations 1998-2000", and work began on a proper studio album, tentatively titled "Escape Velocity". Of course, all things change, and yet another line-up shuffle in 2002 brought Keef Barton in on guitar and keyboards to play the Sonic Rock Solstice near Garstang, with Graham on guitar, and Neil Mycock (the same!) on drum duties. This gig revitalised the band, and waiting in the wings at SRS having done the soundcheck, Robin Julian joined as drummer, performing his first gig at the inaugural Hawkfest in Devon. Some very successful gigs followed, and in early 2003, Mr. Floyd, originally a Krellian, on keyboards.....in 2007, Mr. Dibs joined Hawkwind, though Spacehead put in an appearance at Hawkfest 2008, with Jim Dread, Keef Barton, Mr. Floyd, Martin Krel and Mr. Dibs. Spacehead is currently in suspended animation.........
Insane
Spacehead Lyrics
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I question you in curiosity
I speak the truth I wanna hear
I'm telling you no lies I've got no fear
I know that I'm not insane
But I'm living my life in shame
'Cos I'm lonely and I'm in pain
There's thousand things that I regret
There'll be a thousand more before I'm dead
I'll whisper dirty things into your ear
Appreciate the fact that I am here
I know that I'm not insane
But I'm living my life in shame
'Cos I'm lonely and I'm in pain
I just need to know that I'm for real and I'm alive
I keep the promises I break
Denying that I'm a nervous wreck
I'm trying to be everything I'm not
Afraid of losing what I haven't got
I know that I'm not insane
But I'm living my life in shame
'Cos I'm lonely and I'm in pain
I just need to know that I'm for real and I'm alive
The opening lines of "Insane" by Spacehead express a desire to be candid and honest in communication. The singer is not afraid to ask questions, seek the truth, and speak the truth. The refrain "I know that I'm not insane" is a reminder that even though the singer may feel ashamed and pained, they are not deluded or abnormal. In fact, the singer's honesty and vulnerability are indications of a healthy desire for connection and authenticity.
The second verse introduces the theme of regret and mortality. The singer acknowledges that they have made mistakes in the past and will continue to do so. They also express a willingness to be sexually forthright, as a way of appreciating the present moment. The second chorus reinforces the singer's sense of loneliness and pain, but adds a positive note: the desire to feel alive and validated.
Line by Line Meaning
I say the things I wanna say
I express myself truthfully and authentically
I question you in curiosity
I ask you things because I am genuinely curious about your thoughts and feelings
I speak the truth I wanna hear
I am honest with myself and speak what I know to be true for myself
I'm telling you no lies I've got no fear
I have no reason to lie because I am not afraid of the consequences of being truthful
I know that I'm not insane
I am aware that I am not mentally unstable
But I'm living my life in shame
However, I feel guilty about certain aspects of my life
'Cos I'm lonely and I'm in pain
As a result, I feel isolated and emotionally distressed
I just need to know that I'm for real and I'm alive
I crave a sense of validity and existence in my life
There's thousand things that I regret
I have many past decisions and actions that I am remorseful about
There'll be a thousand more before I'm dead
I expect to make more mistakes in my future
I'll whisper dirty things into your ear
I may say things that are considered inappropriate or vulgar
Appreciate the fact that I am here
However, I still want to be acknowledged and valued for my presence
I keep the promises I break
I try to keep my word, but sometimes fail to follow through with my commitments
Denying that I'm a nervous wreck
I refuse to acknowledge that I am anxious and struggling internally
I'm trying to be everything I'm not
I am attempting to live up to unrealistic expectations and be someone I am not
Afraid of losing what I haven't got
I fear losing things in my life that are important to me, even if I don't currently possess them
Contributed by Emily T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.