Trying To Find You
St. John's Eve Lyrics


Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴

Please don't slam the door
Look around, I've got nothing left to show now
Except coffins as decor, memories inside
Take a little part of me
Like a museum that holds old history
All the missing things in me you cannot find
Why can I never find love?
It's like I'm repeating myself
It gets under my skin
Feels I'll never win
Until I find you
(I find you)
I've been running looking for you baby
Waiting for the way you look to change me
Can I hold you now? I've waited forever
Can we ride this out through pain or pleasure?
Take a hard look at me
Mirrors won't show what I can't see
Onto the next one that leaves, it's all lonely nights
In a loop of answering questions
Repeating the same things with less inflection
Push me in the right direction, I'll always be waiting
Why can I never find love?
It's like I'm repeating myself
It gets under my skin
Feels I'll never win
Until I find you
(I find you)
I've been running looking for you baby
Waiting for the way you look to change me

Can I hold you now? I've waited forever
Can we ride this out through pain or pleasure?

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to "Trying To Find You" by St. John's Eve explore the singer's longing for love and their search for someone who can bring meaning and change to their life. The opening line, "Please don't slam the door," sets a tone of desperation and vulnerability. The singer feels they have nothing left to show, as symbolized by the "coffins as decor" and the memories they hold inside. They feel incomplete and are searching for someone who can fill the void within them.


The lyrics convey a sense of repetition and frustration, as the singer wonders why they can never find love and why they feel like they're constantly repeating the same patterns in relationships. This repetition "gets under my skin" and makes them feel like they'll never win. However, despite these feelings, they remain hopeful and determined to find the person they are searching for. They have been running, actively seeking this connection and waiting for someone who can change their life and make them feel whole.


The refrain of the song expresses the yearning and anticipation the singer feels: "Can I hold you now? I've waited forever. Can we ride this out through pain or pleasure?" They are willing to go through any ups and downs, as long as they can finally find the person they've been searching for. The lyrics capture the longing for love, the willingness to endure, and the hope of finding someone who can bring about a transformative change.


Line by Line Meaning

Please don't slam the door
I'm asking you to stay and not leave abruptly


Look around, I've got nothing left to show now
I have no material possessions or achievements to display


Except coffins as decor, memories inside
All I have left are reminders of the past, filled with memories


Take a little part of me
I'm willing to give you a piece of myself


Like a museum that holds old history
Just like a museum preserves historical artifacts, I have stories to share


All the missing things in me you cannot find
You won't be able to discover the things that are lacking within me


Why can I never find love?
I wonder why I always struggle to find true love


It's like I'm repeating myself
I feel like I'm stuck in a cycle of the same experiences


It gets under my skin
It deeply affects and bothers me


Feels I'll never win
I constantly feel like I'm losing in the search for love


Until I find you (I find you)
The only way I can achieve victory is by finding you


I've been running looking for you baby
I've been tirelessly searching for you, my dear


Waiting for the way you look to change me
Hoping that your presence will bring about a positive transformation in my life


Can I hold you now? I've waited forever
After waiting for an eternity, can I finally embrace you?


Can we ride this out through pain or pleasure?
Let's go through the ups and downs together, enduring both joy and suffering


Take a hard look at me
Examine me closely and honestly


Mirrors won't show what I can't see
Reflecting upon myself won't reveal what I'm blind to


Onto the next one that leaves, it's all lonely nights
After each person departs, I'm left with nights full of loneliness


In a loop of answering questions
I find myself stuck in a repetitive cycle of addressing inquiries


Repeating the same things with less inflection
I keep saying the same words, but with diminishing emotion


Push me in the right direction, I'll always be waiting
Guide me towards the correct path, as I'll forever be here, eagerly waiting




Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Cole Matylewicz, Nick Carrano, Spencer Niemann

Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
To comment on or correct specific content, highlight it

Genre not found
Artist not found
Album not found
Song not found

More Versions