In 1989 he moved to Stockholm where he met Stefan Kéry, a psychedelic connoisseur, and gave him a cassette with some of his many recordings. To Mikaels great surprise he found that the tape was received with great enthusiasm and an album was soon made out of that very tape. The album was titled ”Visions Of A Trespasser” and was released early 1990 in an edition of 150 copies only. The album cover featured a colorful, organic vortex with images of beings of the galaxy in it painted by Mikael. Each and every record had differently hand painted labels. The album was mainly distributed among friends. It showed his very personal style of music covering all kinds of musical directions, all laced with the psychedelic sound. Among these ”not-meant-to-be-heard-by-others”-recordings you will find unbelievable sound’s from tea-balls, spoons and boilers. Except for the 3 studio tracks which was recorded together with a friend, he played everything himself - singing through his guitar-amp and using a pitched guitar for a bass.
In March 1991 he released his follow-up, ”The Unknown” , an odd home cassette- collection with new old haunting songs. The album was distributed the same way as the first one.
After forming Xotic Mind Productions Stefan Kéry let him go into a 8-channal studio and Mikael built up a whole new album all by himself (the only way he knew to work) step-by-step, beginning with the drums and nothing else but except a good memory! The result: ”Claustromania” (meaning: manic obsession for locking oneself in, which derives from the introspective state of mind he always go into while creating!) . The music is filled with pulsating, organic expressions, always emotionally gripping with his soulful voice. The album has a circular concept: The songs about other worlds, man against infinity and the human mind, soul and spirit are linked together with small musical inventions building a story that never ends, ending the way it started, starting the way it ended. The composition also reflects his past life of loneliness and emptiness that now has been replaced by a new existence of love, happiness and possibilities. Mikael says “Claustromania” also is an homage to LSD which helped him make the transformation possible.
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His creative years had only begun. In 1994 Mikael wrote a book with novellas in the horror-fantasy tradition crammed with drawings done during the last 15 years and drawn, copied and shaped 4 volumes of comic-fanzines - all still available in Swedish only! He acted in a 16mm film and in his own 3 fantasy video films as well as taking acting- and dancing- lessons! During the years he has been invited to participate on other Xotic Mind projects, like playing sitar on Adam Axelzons well-received ”Eura” album and with sitar and Tablas on the ”Gnostic Mass”-LP by The Entheogens, an improvisation-group he joined together with Adam Axelzon, Måns ”Word of Life”Månson and Stefan Kéry, among others.
In January 1994, people Xotic Mind released S.T. Mikaels new album ”Psychocosmic Songs” which was even better received than any of his previous LPs. The LP was recorded in a modern, high-tech studio. This time the tracks was a mixture of acoustic and electric singer-songs painted with sitar and tabla jams, heavy fuzz guitar sessions and airy, pulsating sounds done in the same step- by-step method like Claustromania! Although it is serious and soulful in tone, ST Mikael himself says he misses the playfulness and vitality which is more prominent in his home recordings.
In the spring of 1994 ST Mikael was living in a rented house with a beautiful garden of fruits, berries and flowers. For the first time he found an immediate presence of self confidence and also a more emotional and limitless way to express himself. In changing direction from somewhat stylish compositions to more improvised-on-the-spot creations he found that the happiness of a live-performance could be caught on a Pot-induced multi tracked solo recording.
During 1994 he made a huge collection of organic home recordings, far away from any inexperienced studio-technician, planning to release some of the material as a new album. With the addition of the extended studio track ”Summer In My Life” , which was recorded by an experienced crew and with additional musicians like Adam Axelzon. Xotic Mind released it in 1996 as a double-album - titled Soul Flower. As always - with a homemade painting on the cover. It can be seen as a rock opera without a plot, an invitation to a small living room full of impressions of many far away places.
During the years that passed since that album, St Mikael seemed to become more secretive and reclusive, but was still making homemade music. Some of this music, still stretching out in many different musical directions, has been done freely and spontaneously in an extremely relaxed and happy environment, and has been compiled into the home-made double CD, "Mind Evolution", which is not really an official album. Since the turn of the century, Mikael has renewed his lifestyle, has found love in Cheska, an American woman, and has travelled around in Europe, and recently in the USA.
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Song for You
St. Mikael Lyrics
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Addicted to winning don't do defeat
They told me stop rapping they trying to plead
They don't know that they can't plead with me
Because I'm going to keep
Going and going and going
I'm going to keep
Rowing and rowing and rowing
Going and going and going
Shorty keep playing around
I can't do nothing about it
Don't tell me what to do
I can stand on my own two feet
I do not want to battle you I want peace
Anyone come fuck with us they pay the fee no
You can join this creed real niggas in the team
When you don't give up you become
So difficult to beat so
Just believe in what you can do for you
No matter how tempting
Don't follow it unless it's truth
They said don't let him in the studio
He'll burn the booth
The past is past understand that
So you can move
I don't really be speaking
But if you talk money I'm fluent
I just made two racks last month
Off of sad songs
But the money came and then I blew it
Go out bad bitch I'm going to screw it
No Madagascar but I be moving
I'm in a fast car way I be moving
If you want to get rich
Watch what I'm doing
So tired we the same and all
I don't mind I'm going to
Take all the pain and all
Two joints in a cone trade it off
Fuck the problems face it all
Fuck the problems face it all
If you don't you only trade it off
True story this I can't make it up
This for me no it ain't fake at all
So just believe in what you can do for you
No matter how tempting
Don't follow it unless it's truth
They said don't let him in the studio
He'll burn the booth
The past is past understand that
So you can move
The lyrics to St. Mikael's song "Song for You" reflect a reckless, all-consuming love. The singer is so deeply infatuated with their partner that they are willing to do anything for them, including engaging in risky behaviors like driving drunk and taking drugs. The repetitive chorus emphasizes their dedication to simping, or serving and pleasing their partner, without reservation. The line "We gonna die together, yeah, that's for sure" underscores the intensity of their emotions and the sense of fatalism that surrounds them.
The song also touches on themes of societal disapproval and individualism. The singer acknowledges that other people may not understand their relationship and may even hate them for it, but they reject these judgments and choose to live as they please. The line "Living rent free in your head / I will live there till you dead" speaks to the idea of being an uninvited presence in someone's thoughts and the power that comes with that. Overall, "Song for You" portrays a love that is raw, irrational, and all-consuming, with little regard for consequences or social norms.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm such a fool - I'm simping only for you
I am foolishly infatuated with you and do everything in my power to please you
You're the only thing that I really wanna do
My main focus is to be with you and make you happy
What a beautiful view - bed, me and you
Spending time with you is my idea of a beautiful view
We gonna die together, yeah, that's for sure
I am committed to you to the point where I will stay with you until the very end
We both know I'm simping only for you
It is clear to both of us that you are the only one I simp for
Everything you want, yeah, I will do
I will go to any length to fulfill your every desire
You like me? Okay, cause I like you too
I reciprocate your feelings and like you just as much
Seems like we don't need no simping school
We are both so good at simping for each other, we don't need any lessons
Forgive me kidneys, living fast
I am living recklessly and putting my health at risk
Driving drunk, yeah, I might crash
I am engaging in dangerous behavior and risking my life
I don't care about your past
I am not concerned with your history and only focus on the present and future with you
Tell me how long love will last
I am uncertain of how long our love will endure
Give me shrooms, I'm fucking ill
I am willing to use drugs to enhance my experience with you
I need more, I need some pills
I am using substances to numb my pain and continue my reckless lifestyle
Fighting demons fucking still
I am struggling with internal battles and personal demons
Pro at simping got some skills
I am skilled at simping and pleasing you
What is love? Come better show me
I need you to demonstrate and prove to me what true love really is
Give me this love that you owe me
I believe that you owe me your love and affection
Our love so loud, kinda roudy
Our love is intense and wild
Sometimes you simp too like lowkey
Even though you don't show it as much, I know that you are also infatuated with me
I don't care what they say
I am willing to ignore what others think and say about us
We will die like anyway
Regardless of what happens, we will end up together
It might happen any day
Our time together is precious and could end at any moment
She left in morning, left a hickey
My lover left a visible mark on me to show our intimacy
Told me that she gonna miss me
My lover expressed her affection towards me and how much she will miss me
Come before I go and kiss me
I am eager to receive one more kiss from my lover before she leaves
Kidneys bad because of whiskey
My poor health is a result of my excessive drinking
They just hate us, cause they ain't us
Others criticize and dislike us because they are jealous of our relationship
We were only ones who made us
Our relationship is built on the love and effort we put into it
Satan really wanna take us
We are being tempted and tested by evil forces
That boy really gonna wait us
I am confident that my lover and I will endure and outlast those who doubt us
Living rent free in your head
I have managed to occupy your thoughts and feelings without having to pay anything
She love see me getting bread
My lover enjoys seeing me be successful and make money
Fuck me, yeah, that's what she said
My lover expressed her desire to be sexually intimate with me
Went on monday, back on sunday, I popped pills like seven straight
I went on a drug binge for a whole week while my lover was away
Boys like me get what they want while good boys end at heavens gate
I am aware that my bad behavior and recklessness is what attracts my lover to me, whereas good guys finish last
Jeez, forgive please my mistakes
I acknowledge that I have made many mistakes and ask for forgiveness
I've failed in too many ways
I have a history of failure and have made many mistakes in my life
Fuck, I'll have you anyway
I am persistent and will pursue my lover no matter what
Yeah, no matter what it takes
I am willing to do anything to win over my lover
People hate me everyday
I am often disliked and criticized by others
Tell them that we're not the same
I am different from others because of my unique love and relationship with my lover
My name in your life's subtitles when this fucking movie ends
My name will have a permanent place in my lover's life story, even after we are long gone
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Written by: Michael Biya Tadesse
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