The follow-up was Darkest Days. Despite several strong singles including Save Yourself, It failed to sell as well as its predecessor, although it attracted attention in Canada and Australia, and the band was dropped from Columbia Records. They signed to Koch Records, issuing Stabbing Westward, which was a considerably more commercial effort than previous albums, but failed to make any impact on the mainstream charts. Before a fifth LP could be recorded, Stabbing Westward broke up in late 2002.
Since then, lead singer Hall has formed The Dreaming.
In 2019, the band reformed and began to release new (and archival) materials on COP International Productions intending to release a full-length album in 2022.
Desperate Now
Stabbing Westward Lyrics
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That I keep making to myself
You'd think by now that I'd be over this
Instead I'm feeling sorry for myself
So why does everything feel so desperate now
I should be feeling so alive
But it feels like something's missing
It feels like something
Deep inside has died
I keep breaking all the promises
That I keep making to myself
But the promises mean nothing to me anymore
Circling the drain...
Spiraling to hell...
So why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel like dying
Why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel desperate now
In Stabbing Westward's song Desperate Now, the singer expresses their struggle with breaking promises they have made to themselves, and the resulting feeling of emptiness and desperation. They acknowledge their own inability to follow through on their own commitments and recognize that something inside of them has died. The repeated refrain of "Why do I feel desperate now?" underscores their confusion and frustration with this feeling of hopelessness.
The lyrics suggest that the singer is stuck in a negative cycle, where they break promises to themselves and then feel worse for having done so. Despite knowing that they should be grateful for the good things in their life, they cannot escape the feeling that something is missing. The lines "Circling the drain... Spiraling to hell..." conjure up images of a downward spiral of despair, with the singer feeling like they are unable to stop their own descent.
Overall, the song conveys a sense of deep sadness and introspection, with the singer questioning their own motivations and finding themselves unable to break free from their own negative patterns of thinking and behavior.
Line by Line Meaning
I keep breaking all the promises
I consistently fail to live up to the standards I set for myself
That I keep making to myself
The expectations and goals I create for myself are not being met
You'd think by now that I'd be over this
You might believe that I would have moved on from this issue by now
Instead I'm feeling sorry for myself
Instead, I am consumed with pity for my predicament
So why does everything feel so desperate now
Why do things feel so hopeless and urgent at the present moment?
I should be feeling so alive
I should be experiencing an intense feeling of vitality and energy
But it feels like something's missing
However, it seems as though something important is absent or lacking
Something's wrong somehow
There is an indescribable sense that things are not as they should be
It feels like something
I have a sensation that
Deep inside has died
Something profound has ended or been lost within me
But the promises mean nothing to me anymore
The goals and expectations I have established for myself are now meaningless and hold no value to me
Circling the drain...
I am continuously heading towards a negative outcome, similar to water circling the drain before being drained away
Spiraling to hell...
I am rapidly deteriorating and heading towards a disastrous end
Why do I feel like dying
What is causing me to feel as though death is preferable than how I am feeling right now?
Why do I feel desperate now
What is causing me to feel so hopeless and urgent at this moment?
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Written by: ANDY KUBISZEWSKI, CHRISTOPHER HALL, JAMES ERIC SELLERS, MARCUS ELIOPULOS, WALTER FLAKUS
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