Lavender Bones
Stand Atlantic Lyrics

Sick of having empty habits
Tired of meaningless routines and behaviors

Leading to the selfish havoc
Causing chaos that only benefits oneself

I'm lonely in my own bones
Feeling alone and disconnected from oneself

You're unweaving where you stand
You're unraveling and falling apart

Stitch me into all your plans
Include me in all of your future plans

Just like a cherry stone
In the same way a cherry stone is tightly held

Temporary fleeting thrills
Short-lived and temporary pleasures

Keep me bruised and make me ill
Causing emotional pain and suffering

My skin has lavender tones
My appearance is calm and serene on the surface despite feeling hurt inside

Tell me I'm a loaded gun
Acknowledge my potential to cause harm and destruction

Tie me up and come undone
Restrict and control me while you lose control yourself

I can cover it up, I can cover it up
I can hide my pain and emotions

I know I'm out of my depth, but I just float in it
I'm in over my head, but I'm trying to stay afloat

I try to do my best, stop picking fights with it
I do my best to handle my situation without causing conflict

I wanna be upset, you're not alright with it
I want to express my emotions, but you don't approve of it

Try to speak my mind, wish it was by design
I attempt to express myself, but I wish I could do so more effectively

But I can only confess to having doubts with it
But all I can admit to is my uncertainty

Don't wanna feel regret, I'm not alright with it
I don't want to feel regret, and I'm not okay with it

Spending time with or without you
I'm unsure if I want to spend time with you or not

Cutting corners just to get
Taking shortcuts to achieve my goals faster

You out of my god damn mind
To remove you from my thoughts completely

Keep your words up where they're brewing
Hold back your words where they're simmering

I want something worth pursuing
I want something valuable and fulfilling to work towards

Still letting you curl my spine
You still have an effect on me, causing me to feel small and weak

What have I done?
What mistakes have I made?

Chewing on my words
Thinking carefully before speaking

Nothing's enough, I rinse myself in the dirt
I can never feel satisfied, always feeling unclean and unworthy

Sold all my time to a plastic ecstasy
Giving up all my time for a meaningless pleasure

I can cover it up, I can cover it up
I can mask my pain and emotions

Nothing's enough
I can never feel content or fulfilled