Internal Affairs
Starlet Lyrics


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Sometimes i don't really think
That you're the one
That brought me light and understanding
The way you look at me now
Is not of the loving kind
That i can tell
When you were in my age
Did you ever believe
That you'd end up like this
If you think that you are
Making me feel good
I must say you're wrong
But i still just can't forget
How you made me feel
So useless and wrong
A hundred wasted hours in that house
Well it makes me feel quite angry
And i'm so tired of these internal affairs
They should have been left behind




A long time ago
It makes me wonder if i'll ever be alright

Overall Meaning

In Starlet's song Internal Affairs, the singer seems to be reflecting on a past relationship that has left them feeling frustrated and hurt. The song starts out with the singer being unsure if their partner was truly the one who brought them understanding and joy. The way their partner looks at them now is different than before and it's clear that the love is gone. The singer is reminiscing on when their partner was once their age and wondering if they ever thought that their relationship would end up like this.


In the chorus, the singer laments the wasted time spent with their partner, feeling angry and tired of the internal conflicts that plagued their relationship. The singer acknowledges that their partner's efforts to make them feel good were unsuccessful and they are still haunted by the negative emotions that came with the relationship. The song ends with the singer questioning if they will ever be able to overcome the pain and move on.


Overall, the song touches on themes of disappointment, loss, and the difficulties of relationships. The lyrics are introspective and thought-provoking, allowing the listener to reflect on their own past experiences.


Line by Line Meaning

Sometimes i don't really think
At times, I doubt and question my thoughts and beliefs


That you're the one
That you are the person who is meant for me


That brought me light and understanding
That taught me to understand and be enlightened


The way you look at me now
The way you gaze at me currently


Is not of the loving kind
Is not filled with love and affection


That i can tell
I am aware and can perceive it easily


When you were in my age
When you were in your youth as I am now


Did you ever believe
Did you ever think, have faith or hope


That you'd end up like this
That you'd be in such a position now


If you think that you are
If you believe that you are


Making me feel good
Bringing joy and happiness into my life


I must say you're wrong
I must disagree because you're incorrect


But i still just can't forget
But I still can't let go of


How you made me feel
The emotions you made me experience


So useless and wrong
Inadequate and incorrect


A hundred wasted hours in that house
Spending many worthless hours in that establishment


Well it makes me feel quite angry
It incites significant anger and annoyance within me


And i'm so tired of these internal affairs
I am exhausted and frustrated by these personal conflicts and struggles


They should have been left behind
I should have put them in the past and moved on from them


A long time ago
A considerable amount of time in the past


It makes me wonder if i'll ever be alright
It causes me to question if I will ever be okay




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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

@cherylb2008

2:40 hysterical
A falsetto teeth
Too funny
Didn’t know she had an alcohol problem
She seemed like an extroverted personality
One of those mysteries
What a gorgeous timeless building
The tile work,
The view of the ocean!!!!
She came from mass.
The weather had to be really impressive in California



All comments from YouTube:

@nancyoleksy

Something fishy about that death. Sounds like she was beat up and placed in the car.

@davidmays1115

Yes well said! I was thinking the exact same thing. The mobster guy in the video looked evil to me.

@ltcolumbo9708

I trekked those steps in 2012 maybe... and when I got up to the garage ( it was painted dark brown) and it opened. A lady stepped out looked at me and said " Thelma Todd?" I said Yeah. "Yep this is where it happened"

@kerrieclark9296

In the early 90’s I read Hot Toddy and became obsessed with Thelma and her death. I grew up in Santa Monica and knew of the Sidewalk Cafe. I had to see it all for myself. It was so much harder to find the set of garages. A local homeowner told me that mudslides cut through the hillside decades ago and wiped out the road that used to take you directly to the garages. She gave me directions to locate Thelma’s garage and I eventually found it. With book in hand I sat leaning against the garage door and read the account of her last hours. The sun was starting to go down. I stood up to leave and an older man appeared in the windows above the garage and was yelling at me although I could not hear anything from outside. He was clearly very angry. It scared me enough I left embarrassed that I had clearly trespassed and pissed off the occupant. Back at the neighbors home I thanked them for getting me the right directions and told them what happened. I was then told that nobody lives above the garages, those spaces are storage rooms only, and that nobody would be tall enough to be seen in those windows. She believed I saw Roland Wests ghost and that locals believe those properties to be haunted. I’ve never forgotten Thelma’s sad fate. I do not believe for a second that she died in that car. She was dumped there.

@GraceBryant-tu5fe

I read her autobiography years ago as well. I’ve always believed she was murdered .

@Katinahat293

Thanks for sharing. That’s amazing you probably did see him. I wonder why he’s still there and so angry. All I know for sure is she didn’t kill herself or die on accident in that car. Nothing adds up to either of those conclusions, and her case should be reopened

@seltonk5136

Thelma was castes in Arthur 2 on the rocks starring Dudley Roger Moore and Ishtar and Grum with Glen Tennis. Nobody should be interested her insignificant acting

@franklubbock8400

My grandmother was a big fan and she remembered when it happened.

@seltonk5136

@@franklubbock8400 don't plan to fart ?

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@ericalukonis8353

Thelma Todd is buried about 30 minutes from my house in Lawrence, MA. I have visited her grave a few times over the years. Beautiful woman and a sad and disturbing ending.

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