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Steadysuffer Lyrics

Ya i wake up at night again
I am having trouble sleeping and waking up in the middle of the night is a recurring issue.

Breaking entitlement
I am rejecting the idea that I am entitled to something just because of who I am or where I came from.

Folding my hands to the back of my head
I am struggling internally and physically expressing it by folding my hands to the back of my head in a gesture of distress.

Obvious tension, furious silence
There is a palpable tension in the air despite no one speaking, creating a sense of frustration and anger.

Cover in canvas in august
I am trying to cover up my problems and pretend everything is okay, even though it is not.

It beats me
I am baffled and cannot understand something that is happening to me or around me.

Telephone, letters, old frames
I am reminiscing about the past and all the things that remind me of it, such as old communication devices and pictures.

On a night of december
I am remembering a specific night in December and all the emotions that come with it.

Call me i'll be up waiting
I am willing to stay up and talk to someone who needs me, even if it means sacrificing my own rest.

Neck deep in a rut now i'm fading
I am stuck in a difficult situation and feel like I am slowly losing myself and my identity.

Wake up, time for make up same as always
I am going through the motions of my daily routine, even though I do not feel like I am truly living.

I'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
I am apologizing for not being able to handle things and suggesting that it is better to end whatever situation I am in.

A cover for your lover, steadysuffer
I am using music as a way to mask my problems and distract myself from my pain and heartbreak.

A goner, got no father
I feel like I have lost everything and have no one to turn to for support or guidance.

I'm just a loner
I often feel isolated and alone, even when surrounded by other people.

You taught me how to not be there
Someone in my life has taught me how to distance myself emotionally from others, which has caused problems for me.

While mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
My mother has instilled in me the importance of not being nosy or interfering in other people's lives.

These people i erase from my thoughts go where?
I often try to forget about people who have hurt me, but I wonder where those thoughts and feelings go.

I'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear
I am tired of lying to myself and others and pretending that everything is okay when it is not.

It's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
I have been struggling with my emotions for a while now and it is taking a toll on my mental and physical health.

Pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
I am using a gun as a way to cope with my pain and frustration.

I'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
I am feeling overwhelmed and want to escape my current situation, even if it means doing something reckless.

Just lost my mind like i'm vision
I feel like I am losing my grip on reality and that my thoughts and feelings are spiraling out of control.

Blood splattered all in my kitchen
I have resorted to violence and it has resulted in a bloody scene in my own home.

She wanna think that it's pretend
Someone is in denial about what has happened and wants to believe that it is not real or not as bad as it seems.

Not comin back for a minute
I am leaving and do not plan to return for a while.

I'm gone but i'm still singin
Even though I am physically gone, my presence and the music I create still remain.

She's so cold
Someone in my life seems distant and unfeeling, and it hurts me deeply.

Hold me close and dont let me go
Despite feeling hurt and alone, I crave comfort and human connection.

Baby that's fine
I am resigned to the fact that things are not perfect and that it is okay to have imperfections.

You leave me alone all the time
Someone important to me is often absent or emotionally distant, which makes me feel lonely and isolated.

Please tell me was it worth it
I am questioning whether the pain and heartbreak I have experienced were worth it in the end.

Too many fucking voices they're echoing in my head
I am overwhelmed by the many different thoughts and feelings that are competing for my attention and causing me distress.

Left me with nothing when I was ten but now i'm crying
My childhood was difficult and I was deprived of many things, and it is causing me pain as an adult to think about it.

I see you stand all alone
I observe someone who is standing by themselves, possibly feeling isolated or rejected.

Outside our house
The person I am watching is standing outside of a place that holds significance to me or my family.

I watched you go
I witnessed someone leaving, and it caused me pain to see them leave.

Not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
I am not feeling a lot of strong emotions, but enough to realize that it is time to let go of something or someone.

Every thought in my head eats away at my soul
I am consumed by my thoughts and it is causing me emotional pain and exhaustion.

Mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
My parents are experiencing some kind of distress or conflict, and I feel helpless and unsure of how to help them.

I was just a young boy crying alone in my room
I remember feeling sad and alone as a child and not having anyone to talk to or comfort me.