I Feel Weird
Steel Train Lyrics

When I was eighteen everything was alive
At eighteen, I was full of life and everything around me felt vibrant and exciting.

Then the planes hit the towers
The horrific events of September 11th occurred, changing everything.

Then she died, then he died
After 9/11, he lost two people who were dear to him - possibly due to the attacks or other related reasons.

A part of me disappeared six feet in the ground
A part of him passed away with the people he lost; they were buried six feet under.

Million miles in the sky a fire burns
The aftermath of 9/11 included an immense feeling of sorrow, grief and despair, which can only be equated to the size of the sky. The fire burning possibly represents the emotions he's feeling, like anger or sadness, that seem to be never-ending.

A fire burns, a fire burns and it is mine
The fire that he's experiencing is his own, unique, and personal to him - he owns his emotions.

And I did what I did, what we did to survive
He did whatever it took (probably in terms of coping mechanisms) to move past the trauma and tragedy of the events.

Five whole years of my life I spent mourning you
He spent five years grieving the people he lost.

And why? Girl, you're still alive
He wonders why he spent so much time mourning someone who is still alive - possibly the person he lost wasn't related to 9/11.

You're too dead to keep inside
The emotions after a tragedy are too overwhelming to keep bottled up inside.

You take the years, you keep it all
You take in everything that has happened, good and bad, and let it shape you.

I finally think I might be alright
Despite everything that has happened, he thinks he may have finally come to a place of peace.

So let's just let it all go ?cause nothing can change
He accepts that what happened cannot be undone or changed.

And if something is lost then there's something to frame
If something he's lost like a loved one or a feeling or a sense of safety, then it's something he can consider in the bigger picture of his life.

I just sing what I have
He's going to sing about his emotions and experiences and use music as an outlet for his pain and suffering.

All I got this girl, not yet crushed by the world
He has found a girl whom he sees as pure, untouched by life's hardships.

I'll count the freckles on her face
He will get to know every detail about this girl, as though nothing else exists in his world apart from her.

One, two, three hundred times a day
He will think about this girl constantly, and his love for her will be unending.

And sing a new song, something I'd never hear
He's going to try something new and sing a song he's never sung before - this could reflect his desire to move on from the past.

It's better love that I found
The new love that he's found is better than anything he's ever experienced before.

Bigger love that you fear
The new love he's found is so significant that it's overwhelming - he fears how much he loves her.

So deep inside me, hot in this frozen cave
There's a fire burning deep within him despite being numb and frozen inside after losing people he cared for.

Her fire burns, her fire burns
She has her own fire burning inside, and he is drawn to it.

Her fire burns and it is brave
Her fire represents strength and courage, which he admires and finds inspiring.

And I won't fear change
He's come to accept that change is a part of life, and he's learned to embrace it.

In the heavens above
In the cosmos, in the universe.

In the song, in the sky a fire burns
There's an emotional spark in the world around us - within the music we listen to and the stars which light up the night sky.

A fire burns, a fire burns and it's for you
The fire is a symbol of love and passion - and it's all for her.