Absence
Stillharley Lyrics

Empty halls
The halls are empty and devoid of people, and probably echo as a result.

With your pictures on the walls
Despite being devoid of people, the walls are still decorated with pictures of someone.

I can't shake this want to set a fire to all of them right now
The singer feels an intense desire to destroy and burn the pictures on the walls.

And burn the memories right down
The singer wants to destroy the memories associated with the pictures on the walls.

Missed calls and cigarettes to keep me calm
The singer tries to calm themsleves by smoking cigarettes and not answering calls.

I can't shake this feeling I could give up and end it all right now
The singer feels overwhelmed and could consider taking their own life in this very moment.

Before it gets light out
The singer considers taking their life before the sun rises.

But I'ma take these shots one by one 'til the morning comes
The singer decides to drink alcohol until the sun rises, taking a shot every now and then.

Got my blood running hotter than the midday sun
The singer's blood is now flowing vigorously and is as hot as the midday sun.

Keep on putting more in my cup, the only thing I love
The singer continues pouring more alcohol into their cup, as it is the only thing that they love at the moment.

Now that you're out of the frame, I ain't been sleeping enough
The singer has not been getting enough sleep since their loved one is not in their life anymore.

Why does nobody get it, I know I'm gonna regret it
The singer feels misunderstood and knows that they will regret their actions once the alcohol wears off.

This liquor's killing me but it's what's keeping me in the picture
Even though the alcohol is harming the singer, it is also keeping them in the current situation, possibly a coping mechanism.

I know nobody's said it, but the graves where I'm headed
The singer realizes that they are headed down a destructive path, leading them to the grave, even if no one is saying it outright.

No matter what I do it seems it seems like I won't ever forget it
The singer struggles to forget their past and move on from it, and no matter what they do, they can't seem to escape it.

Yeah I gotta get wasted wasted every night
The singer feels the need to get drunk every night to cope with their emotions.

Just to look 'em in their eyes in the morning light
The singer must face the world and other people with a sense of stability, and the only way they can do that is by getting drunk the night before.

Just to compensate for all the shit that ain't going right
The singer gets drunk to compensate for everything that is wrong in their life.

I can't breathe
The singer cannot catch their breath, they are either anxious, overwhelmed or both

I'm too far gone
The singer is at a point of no return, too deep into their destructive path.

Minutes turn to hours without you
Time seems to slow down and drag on when the person they love is not with them.

Got nobody to call
The singer has no one to talk to or reach out to during these difficult moments.

So I gotta get wasted wasted every night
The singer feels compelled to get drunk every night and it has now become routine.

Even though I know this shit is liquid suicide
The singer is fully aware that excessive drinking is harming them in the long run.

It's getting way too late
The singer is running out of time and opportunities to turn their life around.

But I'm feeling the same
Despite the passage of time, the singer still feels the same depressing emotions.

Hallucinating turn the corner and you're there once again
The singer is starting to experience hallucinations of their loved one, possibly due to the effects of the alcohol.

It's driving me insane
The hallucinations and the singer's emotions are now pushing them towards the brink of insanity.

What does it take to escape
The singer is desperate to find a way out of this situation and escape their current destructive path.

The pressure building up inside of every inch of my veins
The singer feels an overwhelming amount of pressure building up inside of them, a metaphor for their emotions and feelings.

Look what I'm turning to
The singer is self-aware and acknowledges the negative effects that their habits are having on their life.

Another lost cause, damaged goods, and a burden too
The singer feels like they are a lost cause, damaged and not worthy of anything, so much so that they even feel like a burden to others.

I'm on the last straw, fuck this life I'd give it all for you
The singer is at the end of their rope and would do anything for their loved one, even give up their own life.

I'm laying my cards, open hand, you're what I'm running to
The singer is vulnerable and open about their emotions and feelings towards their loved one.

And that's what I'm meant to do
The singer believes that this is their true path and they are meant to love and be with their loved one, no matter the cost.

So I'ma take these shots one by one till the morning comes
The singer continues with their routine of getting drunk every night, taking it one shot at a time until the morning comes.

Now my hearts beating harder than the midday sun
The singer's heart is now beating very fast, possibly due to the excessive alcohol consumption.

Keep on putting more in my cup, the only thing I love
The singer continues to pour more alcohol into their cup, as it is the only thing that they feel they love at the moment.

Now that you're out of the frame, I ain't been eating enough
The singer has lost their appetite and has not been eating enough since their loved one is no longer in their life.

The cigs are killing me but they're what's keeping me in the picture
Smoking cigarettes is harming the singer's health, but it is also a coping mechanism, helping them deal with the situation at hand.

I know nobody's said it but with you's where I'm headed
The singer knows that they are headed in the direction of being with their loved one, even though no one has explicitly told them this.

Keep tryna call you but it's silent on the other end
The singer is continually trying to reach out to their loved one, but there is no response, leaving them feeling alone and even more lost.

I'm sick of getting wasted wasted every night
The singer is fed up with their routine of getting drunk every night to cope with their emotions.

Just to look em in their eyes in the morning light
The singer only gets drunk so that they can face people with a sense of stability in the morning.

I'm sick of getting wasted wasted every night just to compensate for everybody saying goodbye
The singer is tired of getting drunk to cope with the pain of people leaving their life.

So ima get wasted wasted one more time
Despite feeling fed up, the singer still feels like they need to get drunk one more time.

And if I do it right this will be the last night I close my eyes
The singer hopes that if they get drunk the right way, this will be the last night they close their eyes and the start of a better life.