Holding On
Stray Lyrics

Moving slow like the smoke from your cigarette
My actions and thoughts are taking too much time, just like the way cigarette smoke moves lazily

Every step closer's a step that we both will regret
The closer we get, the more harm we do to ourselves in the long run

Keeping a tally but who could keep track
I'm counting the negative things happening to us but it's ineffable how much damage has been done

Your overreacting is taking me back
Your reaction is too much than what I expected, making me feel like I'm going back in time when we were in a relationship

To a time when our lives aligned
To a period when we were together and had everything planned in sync

Holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass
I'm holding onto two things that were once meaningful to me - a phone and a glass

Holding onto the memory of what didn't last
I'm holding onto the memory of something that didn't survive

Waiting for better words, they'll never come
I'm waiting so I can hear better words but I know it's impossible; I'm only deluding myself

So dry your eyes, it's better, now it's done
I command myself to stop crying since it's much better now that it's over

keep a tight grip like a child holding onto a swingset
I'm holding something tightly, like a child holds onto a swing, trying to keep what's (or who's) important close

Waiting and hoping to find what I can't figure out yet
I'm eagerly waiting and hoping to discover what I still can't comprehend

Please don't unless this is something you need
I'm asking you not to do this unless it's necessary for you

Another nightmare instead of a dream
This situation feels like a recurring nightmare not a comforting dream

Better left alone
It's best to leave things as they are

I never lost so much
I've never lost this much before