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Band 2) Sufferer is a raw black metal band from England, UK. They released their debut EP 'War on Life' digitally on 30th Sep 2017.
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Sword
Sufferer Lyrics
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The panic makes its entrance
New glass upon the floor, it only mingles with the old
How can I feel so fucking guarded
And be totally defenseless
Parts of me are burning
Parts of me are cold
A part of me feels so goddamn apart from me
Try to pull myself together
Gain composure
Take a breath and just hold it, hold it
Now exhale
I am in control and if I wait, the feeling passes
Now hold up, just hold up
Though this newly founded confidence is admirable
It's tattered and it's frayed and now it's standing in my way
So just cut the act
No one has their life together
No one has it figured out
But they all make the best of it while you take the worst parts and
Stitch them all together
Make an effigy and stick it full of pins so you'll remember
You're in this alone
You made yourself a martyr
And it feels so good to fall on the sword
It feels so good to fall on the sword
But what the fuck are we falling for
Breaking through the confidence
The panic grabs a hold of my neck
And drags me through the shatters closer to the door
Whether it's an entrance or an exit is up to you, it mentions
Parts of me are screaming
Some part of me can't make out a word
I can't make out a word
I can't make out a word
Paranoid and nauseous, I collapse
We've got him right where we want him
Keep it up, keep it up, keep it up now
Tear his fucking heart from his chest
Right out
Make a run for it
Salvage what you can and just
Stitch them all together
Make an effigy and stick it full of pins so you'll remember
You're in this alone
You made yourself a martyr
And it feels so good to fall on the sword
It feels so good to fall on the sword
But what the fuck are we falling for
Never drowning
Never really drowning but never really out of the water
Never drowning
Never really drowning but never really out of the...
Water
It surrounds me
Picks me up into the sky and wraps me up until I'm drowning
Don't bother to save me
Let the waves take hold and change me
I dove in
Tried to put myself together but the pieces never fit to begin
I dove in, I dove in
You can't pull somebody out
If you have never known how deep they were
(in)
In "Sword," Sufferer describes a person who is struggling with their emotions, feeling simultaneously guarded and defenseless. The lyrics explore the paradox of feeling both in control and out of control, cutting off the act of having life together, and falling on the sword, which feels good in the moment but raises the question of what they are falling for. The song takes the listener on a journey through the singer's mind, as they grapple with feelings of paranoia, nausea, and drowning.
The first verse sets the scene by describing the singer's struggle to break through the normalcy of their life, with panic making its entrance. The image of new glass mingling with the old suggests that the singer is struggling with something new, while still contending with old wounds. The second verse describes the singer trying to pull themselves together, gain composure, and take control of their emotions. However, the newfound confidence is "tattered and frayed," standing in their way. This paradoxical struggle is further explored in the chorus, as the singer makes an effigy and sticks it full of pins to remember that they are alone, but also martyring themselves.
Overall, "Sword" is a haunting exploration of the dark corners of the human psyche, and the tension between wanting control and being controlled. It speaks to the universal feelings of isolation and loneliness that everyone experiences at some point in their lives.
Line by Line Meaning
Breaking through the normalcy
Disrupting the routine and familiarity of life
The panic makes its entrance
Anxiety and fear begin to take over
New glass upon the floor, it only mingles with the old
New problems adding to old ones
How can I feel so fucking guarded
Feeling cautious and protected
And be totally defenseless
Yet still vulnerable and helpless
Parts of me are burning
Feeling intense emotion and passion
Parts of me are cold
Feeling numb and disconnected
A part of me feels so goddamn apart from me
Feeling disconnected from oneself
It's scaring me
Causing fear and distress
Try to pull myself together
Attempting to regain composure
Gain composure
Regain control and calmness
Take a breath and just hold it, hold it
Pause and focus on breathing
Now exhale
Release tension and anxiety through breathing
I am in control and if I wait, the feeling passes
Regaining control and allowing time for negative feelings to subside
Now hold up, just hold up
Taking a moment to pause and reflect
Though this newly founded confidence is admirable
Recognizing one's newfound confidence
It's tattered and it's frayed and now it's standing in my way
Realizing this confidence is unstable and hindering progress
So just cut the act
Stop pretending and being fake
No one has their life together
Acknowledging that no one has all the answers
No one has it figured out
No one has everything perfectly understood
But they all make the best of it while you take the worst parts and
Others make the most of life while one focuses on the negative
Stitch them all together
Trying to make sense of the negative experiences
Make an effigy and stick it full of pins so you'll remember
Creating a reminder of the pain
You're in this alone
Feeling isolated and unsupported
You made yourself a martyr
Feeling victimized and sacrificing oneself
And it feels so good to fall on the sword
Enjoying the feeling of being a martyr
But what the fuck are we falling for
Questioning the purpose and meaning of suffering
Breaking through the confidence
Losing confidence and experiencing anxiety again
The panic grabs a hold of my neck
Anxiety and fear are suffocating
And drags me through the shatters closer to the door
Negative experiences push towards an escape or exit
Whether it's an entrance or an exit is up to you, it mentions
Questioning whether leaving will be an entrance to new opportunities or an exit from life
Parts of me are screaming
Feeling intense emotion and pain
Some part of me can't make out a word
Being unable to process and understand emotions
Paranoid and nauseous, I collapse
Being overwhelmed by negative emotions to the point of physical illness
We've got him right where we want him
Negative thoughts and emotions taking control
Keep it up, keep it up, keep it up now
Negative thoughts and emotions persisting
Tear his fucking heart from his chest
Feeling emotionally and physically attacked
Right out
Completely and brutally
Make a run for it
Attempting to escape from negative experiences and emotions
Salvage what you can and just
Trying to hold onto any bit of positivity
Never drowning
Never being completely consumed by negative experiences and emotions
Never really drowning but never really out of the water
Always being affected by negative experiences and emotions to some degree
Water
Symbolizing negative experiences and emotions
It surrounds me
Feeling constantly overwhelmed by negativity
Picks me up into the sky and wraps me up until I'm drowning
Feeling consumed by negative experiences to the point of suffocation
Don't bother to save me
Feeling alone and unsupported
Let the waves take hold and change me
Allowing negative experiences to transform and shape oneself
I dove in
Immersing oneself in negative experiences and emotions
Tried to put myself together but the pieces never fit to begin
Attempting to recover and heal, but feeling unsuccessful
You can't pull somebody out
Others cannot fully understand or save someone from negative experiences
If you have never known how deep they were
Realizing the depth and complexity of one's own negative experiences
Contributed by Arianna H. Suggest a correction in the comments below.